tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-88455262011-07-31T17:33:45.633+08:00JeeCheng 지챙 . 루찡 RuJinghttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08592579252247217346noreply@blogger.comBlogger2911100tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8845526.post-59078328964146638652010-01-28T14:53:00.001+08:002010-01-28T14:54:40.914+08:00i finally did something i shld have done a long time ago.<div>pangs.goodbye.</div><div><br /></div><div>and i'll be going again soon.</div><div>all the best to me</div><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/8845526-5907832896414663865?l=moibloggie.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>JeeCheng 지챙 . 루찡 RuJinghttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08592579252247217346noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8845526.post-90129697210027645012009-12-24T13:48:00.001+08:002009-12-24T13:56:04.870+08:00i'm really sorry<div>but i guess i've misplaced the card</div><div>can you just let me know the content of it?</div><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/8845526-9012969721002764501?l=moibloggie.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>JeeCheng 지챙 . 루찡 RuJinghttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08592579252247217346noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8845526.post-31118661125220941922009-11-27T21:59:00.002+08:002009-11-27T22:13:15.922+08:00non-existent.<div>i nearly forgot</div><div>________________________________</div><div><br /></div><div>sorry to see that you're sick</div><div>hope you get well soon</div><div>but glad in a way to see that you have progressed quite well too</div><div><br /></div><div>now that you do know alrdy</div><div>and i was right</div><div>you and me</div><div>we both know</div><div><br /></div><div>you seem to have a lot of questions</div><div>but then again</div><div>you didnt ask</div><div>oh wells.</div><div><br /></div><div>dont need to hide yourself</div><div>or deny what you did</div><div>or feign things</div><div><br /></div><div>i know yp doesnt like to talk to you</div><div>she doesnt like you more than i do</div><div>in fact, i dont dont like you</div><div><br /></div><div>so pls, nxt time,</div><div>if you want to know anything</div><div>just ask me directly</div><div><br /></div><div>actually, to tell the truth</div><div>the ppl i appreciate the most</div><div>were those who found out last min</div><div>and still came</div><div>and showed their care and concern</div><div><br /></div><div>actually, the most was one of my uni fren</div><div>ppl change and so do their circle as well</div><div>but i nv forget the old</div><div>they are still there</div><div>i've learnt to appreciate all of them</div><div><br /></div><div>the recent meet up was a test for myself</div><div>to see how much i've progressed as well</div><div>and i called for a celebration</div><div><br /></div><div><br /></div><div>and perhaps</div><div>and so perhaps</div><div><br /></div><div>maybe</div><div>one day</div><div><br /></div><div>we really could be friends again</div><div><br /></div><div><br /></div><div>thkyew for everything</div><div>and nothing.</div><div><br /></div><div><br /></div><div>and ohs,</div><div>the fake j saw the real j.</div><div><br /></div><div>take care my dear johnson</div><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/8845526-3111866112522094192?l=moibloggie.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>JeeCheng 지챙 . 루찡 RuJinghttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08592579252247217346noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8845526.post-70462110140510401952009-11-22T19:35:00.001+08:002009-11-22T19:36:59.538+08:00oh wells.<div>the minute i posted my last entry</div><div>you msn-ed me.</div><div><br /></div><div>guess i'll still see you.</div><div>i dont know what to expect.</div><div>but i promise not to be mean</div><div>unless you force me to</div><div><br /></div><div>i think my friends will kill me if they find out.</div><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/8845526-7046211014051040195?l=moibloggie.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>JeeCheng 지챙 . 루찡 RuJinghttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08592579252247217346noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8845526.post-21503894347595487802009-11-19T20:59:00.002+08:002009-11-19T21:03:17.125+08:00i suddenly felt like seeing you <div><div>before i get hospitalised again</div><div><br /></div><div>so i msn-ed you</div><div>but you didnt reply.</div><div><br /></div><div>i guess.. oh wells. </div></div><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/8845526-2150389434759548780?l=moibloggie.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>JeeCheng 지챙 . 루찡 RuJinghttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08592579252247217346noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8845526.post-77633464824708578052009-10-28T00:42:00.002+08:002009-10-28T00:47:22.348+08:00a friend posted the jap drama up<div>one litre of tears</div><div><br /></div><div>i cried.</div><div>but what's the pt</div><div><br /></div><div>everything was fake.</div><div>all the way from the start.</div><div>that was what really broke my heart</div><div><br /></div><div>like another friend of mine said</div><div>guilt is actually another selfish feeling</div><div>i dont need you to feel guilty abt anything.</div><div>neither do i want you to</div><div><br /></div><div>i was just stupid</div><div>to believe anything was true.</div><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/8845526-7763346482470857805?l=moibloggie.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>JeeCheng 지챙 . 루찡 RuJinghttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08592579252247217346noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8845526.post-36690486806111204642009-10-09T13:06:00.002+08:002009-10-09T13:58:23.963+08:00initially i was furious w you<div>then i realised i was furious w myself</div><div>as maybe the song that goes</div><div>"i hate myself for loving you"</div><div><br /></div><div>you still have an effect on me.</div><div>that's what i dislike.</div><div>i wld have thot my heart was alrdy icy cold</div><div>but you made it rock cold now</div><div><br /></div><div>i'm not a person who bear grudges</div><div>in fact</div><div>i think i kinda took it out on you last night over sms alrdy</div><div>i need to be more level headed ard you</div><div>i need to be devoid of emotions</div><div>i think the sms-es hurt you</div><div>and angered you as well</div><div>what i did hurt myself too</div><div><br /></div><div>but then coming back to think abt it,</div><div>it may not have hurt you at all</div><div><br /></div><div>bcos all we had was a joke to you</div><div><br /></div><div>i thot perhaps i cld come clean w you</div><div>if you really did care</div><div>but it looks like </div><div>it's only to kill your curiosity</div><div><br /></div><div>so my life is a joke to you?</div><div>so tt you can gossip and brag abt your ex to your friends and laugh over my stupidity?</div><div>over how you're able to convince a naive girl of love and leave her in the lurch after tt?</div><div>and just to see how you've caused me to rise and fall and how i live my life after tt?</div><div>am i just an experiment to you?</div><div><br /></div><div>for me,</div><div>it was not.</div><div>i really put in my heart for hell sake.</div><div><br /></div><div>com'on </div><div>if you didnt believe in 1st love,</div><div>why, in the first place did you ask me to be your girl?</div><div>when you alrdy knew you're gg to be my first?</div><div>if you didnt believe then why?</div><div><br /></div><div><div>when things hvt even happen,</div><div>you're worrying abt it alrdy.</div><div>what divorce when we hvt even got married to each other?</div><div>you have no faith in the r/s at all. you didnt believe.</div><div><br /></div><div>say what love me and will nv let me go when we are tgt</div><div>then say how shld i know you're suitable for me are when you want to break?</div><div>and ask me to look for other guys?</div><div><br /></div><div>all crap. bullshit.</div><div>and if we're meant to be</div><div>we'll be tgt after all of these?</div><div>if fate were to bring us tgt again?</div><div>what get married if we're both single after we hit the thirties?</div><div>bullshit.</div><div>i'm only a spare-tire to you then.</div><div>someone you can just live with if you cant get any better ones.</div><div>i dont need that. i dont want to be a last option to anyone.</div><div>how wld you feel if you are that to someone you love?</div><div>if i ever get married, it wld be to someone who put me as the first option.</div><div>if not, the only one.</div></div><div><br /></div><div><br /></div><div>you broke up w me bcos you think i need to focus on my own things?</div><div>how abt what i think? have you ever thot of me?</div><div>now i can just imagine you telling me</div><div>if we ever get married</div><div>" i think we shld get a divorce bcos you are not coping well with your work."</div><div><br /></div><div>you were checking up on me just to get over your own guilt.</div><div>and not forgetting. for your curiosity sake. </div><div><br /></div><div>dont bother if you dont care.</div><div>what happens to me.</div><div>i have my friends with me.</div><div>i dont need a hypocrite like you in my life.</div><div><br /></div><div>you once asked me if there's any way you cld love me more</div><div>i told you to use your heart. to be sincere in the things you do.</div><div>but i guess it was all fake.</div><div>我真的看走了眼</div><div><br /></div><div>i was so hurt by what you said i cldnt stop crying the entire night</div><div>i felt like i was being used</div><div>when you needed someone.</div><div>i was just there.</div><div>when you dont alrdy,</div><div>i'm being cast aside.</div><div><br /></div><div>you are nothing but a selfish bastard who only cares for yourself</div><div>and will do things to cover your own ass.</div><div><br /></div><div>so army time,</div><div>too bored. can come find me.</div><div>sch starts</div><div>got other "better" things/goals to achieve</div><div>so bye.</div><div><br /></div><div>am i right to say tt?</div><div>i'm just your toy to keep you from boredom.</div><div><br /></div><div>you know,</div><div>i was thinking tt you've wasted 3 yrs of my life</div><div>those 3 years are nothing but a lie.</div><div><br /></div><div>but then </div><div>sth one of my fren said pulled me up again</div><div><br /></div><div>bcos at least, for me,</div><div>it was real.</div><div>bcos i did live a happy 3 years although it's still, in fact, a living lie.</div><div>至少我对得起</div><div>天地良心</div><div><br /></div><div>but do you?</div><div>for you, i think you didnt.</div><div>tt's why you feel guilty</div><div>it was just pure entertainment for you.</div><div><br /></div><div>i wldnt take it out on you anymore</div><div>bcos i believe in karma</div><div>what goes round, comes ard</div><div>there is no need to dirty my hands</div><div><br /></div><div>fyi,</div><div>despite everything tt has happened</div><div>i am leading a very fulfilling life</div><div>and if any case,</div><div>anything tt has happened or will happen,</div><div>i have all my friends</div><div>REAL friends.</div><div><br /></div><div>ppl whom i know will be there for me all the time.</div><div>i also have my family.</div><div><br /></div><div>how abt you?</div><div>do you?</div><div><br /></div><div>i have basically asked you to stay off my life</div><div>and stay off my blog.</div><div>so i wldnt know if you'll ever come across this</div><div>but i thot i'd just write.</div><div>cos i'm just much too tired to get in touch w you anyway</div><div>sick and tired of all of these</div><div><br /></div><div>and ohs,</div><div>if you think fate may bring us back tgt again?</div><div>i'd tell fate a big fat no. my feelings have been cheated enough. </div><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/8845526-3669048680611120464?l=moibloggie.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>JeeCheng 지챙 . 루찡 RuJinghttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08592579252247217346noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8845526.post-3392683181405297082009-10-08T00:37:00.001+08:002009-10-08T00:38:38.427+08:00oh you just wait.<div>now i dont have the time.</div><div><br /></div><div>i'll do the thrashing in the next post.</div><div><br /></div><div>*cursing and swearing*</div><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/8845526-339268318140529708?l=moibloggie.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>JeeCheng 지챙 . 루찡 RuJinghttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08592579252247217346noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8845526.post-76911956885060784032009-10-04T00:07:00.002+08:002009-10-04T00:11:11.649+08:00<div>mid-autumn.</div><div>memories.</div><div>______________________________</div><div><br /></div><div>friends asked if you knew what happened</div><div><br /></div><div>i just simply told them "no"</div><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/8845526-7691195688506078403?l=moibloggie.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>JeeCheng 지챙 . 루찡 RuJinghttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08592579252247217346noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8845526.post-73904270910156828112009-09-10T19:24:00.001+08:002009-09-10T21:43:59.417+08:00recently<br />i opened up my journal again<br />hvt done it since we broke<br /><br />now tt i opened it again<br /><br />and<br /><br />saw your entry dated 27 aug 06<br />(our 9th months-vary)<br />more than 3yrs ago alrdy~<br /><br />memories came flooding back. <br />was so tempted to tear it off<br />wanted to scribble<br />"it's NOT true<br />all lies,<br />all gone<br />全部都是假的<br />都是骗人的"<br /><br />but then again<br />i decided against it<br />you were part of my life<br />the memories are part and parcel of my life<br />just let it stay<br /><br /><br />the bittersweetness o dark chocs<br />which you once said you cld only taste the sweetness<br />no longer holds<br /><br />_____________________________________________________<br /><br />and what was the title of the show again?<br /><br />a thousand litres of tears?<br /><br />or <br />was it<br /><br />a thousand buckets of tears?<br /><br /><br />i think i'll NOT like it.<br />i think i'll cry if i watch it.<br /><br />damns.<br /><br />____________________________________________________<br /><br />and if i didnt rmb wrongly<br />yours mom's bday approaching<br /><br />here's an advance bday wish to her<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/8845526-7390427091015682811?l=moibloggie.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>JeeCheng 지챙 . 루찡 RuJinghttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08592579252247217346noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8845526.post-17655259241219937962009-08-06T22:53:00.001+08:002009-08-06T23:33:25.285+08:00yes. i am still the same old me.<div>as stubborn as ever.</div><div>stubborn bcos i still believe in my own values.</div><div>i still have the same set of principles.</div><div><br /></div><div>but changed, i have too.</div><div>everyone changes.</div><div>time will change ppl.</div><div>their mindsets... ...</div><div>it's just for the better or worse.</div><div><br /></div><div>_______________________</div><div><br /></div><div>and yes. i'm more health conscious</div><div>realised how impt health is</div><div>all those tt had happened.</div><div>it made me realised.</div><div><br /></div><div>its more than you can imagine.</div><div>trust me on this</div><div><br /></div><div>________________________</div><div><br /></div><div>50 first dates?</div><div>the 1st movie we caught tgt @ your hse</div><div>how cld i not rmb?</div><div><br /></div><div>i have a mind for all these</div><div>i got stm.and can be really forgetful</div><div>but all these kind o memories </div><div>stm and forgetfulness doesnt seem to apply here</div><div><br /></div><div>somehow</div><div>i think i use my heart too much</div><div>i put in too much into the things i've shared w you.</div><div>all remained</div><div><br /></div><div>being reminded of how well i know you</div><div>and still do</div><div>why do you have to do this?</div><div>it only brought back all these which i have put behind me</div><div><br /></div><div>you bringing them back </div><div>reminding me</div><div>isnt what i exactly have in mind</div><div>too much. too much alrdy.</div><div><br /></div><div>it only makes me feel sad.</div><div>a pity tt all these are all gone.</div><div>why do you have to remind me of the past?</div><div><br /></div><div><br /></div><div>going to pan's mini concert was a mistake</div><div>all memories was brought back as well</div><div>all the songs i've once so love</div><div>all that i've shared w you</div><div>i brought you into the world of music</div><div>and i see that it has remained in you</div><div><br /></div><div>i've given up on him</div><div>the time you had chose to gave up on me</div><div>but that one concert</div><div>just brought everything back</div><div><br /></div><div>i wanted to njy,</div><div>to be able to indulge once again</div><div>but i cant</div><div>i cant afford to</div><div>cant allow myself to</div><div><br /></div><div>i dont want to hold any more memories w you</div><div>i cant afford to put any emotions in</div><div>i cant allow for tt</div><div>i dont want to</div><div>cant allow myself to fall for you all over again</div><div><br /></div><div>i dont want to risk it</div><div>you've alrdy made it clear</div><div>friends.</div><div>i cant allow for anything</div><div>no friends, dear.</div><div><br /></div><div>impossible unless i really lost my memory</div><div><br /></div><div>but at the same time</div><div>even if i dont show my emotions</div><div>you think i dont have any?</div><div><br /></div><div>i still have them.</div><div>i just want to protect myself.</div><div><br /></div><div>and if you didnt know</div><div>i'm not blind</div><div>i saw you looking at a pic of you and a girl</div><div>and tell me</div><div>guess how i feel</div><div><br /></div><div><br /></div><div>and you still hvt tell me why you suddenly jio me go watch his concert?</div><div>why? </div><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/8845526-1765525924121993796?l=moibloggie.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>JeeCheng 지챙 . 루찡 RuJinghttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08592579252247217346noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8845526.post-55534333180537330672009-07-23T21:46:00.003+08:002009-07-23T21:56:42.247+08:00me and my friends were discussing abt maids<br />we were coming up with a nickname<br />for the guy who was supposed to be the "maid"<br /><br />he suggested "johnson"<br />for himself<br /><br />I was like<br />"why this name of all names?"<br /><br />another friend who knew your name laughed.<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/8845526-5553433318053733067?l=moibloggie.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>JeeCheng 지챙 . 루찡 RuJinghttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08592579252247217346noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8845526.post-6485880283725761572009-07-19T01:46:00.002+08:002009-07-19T01:51:31.976+08:00what you sms-ed<div>and </div><div>what you msn-ed</div><div><br /></div><div>doesnt seem to tally.</div><div><br /></div><div>oh wells.</div><div>i have decided to just ignore.</div><div><br /></div><div>_________________________</div><div><br /></div><div>at least you dont seem so emo alrdy.</div><div>我也比较安心了</div><div><br /></div><div>__________________________</div><div><br /></div><div>all the falls</div><div>the inability to walk straight</div><div>and the puffiness</div><div><br /></div><div>we didnt think much of it</div><div>didnt realised it cld be tt serious</div><div><br /></div><div><br /></div><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/8845526-648588028372576157?l=moibloggie.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>JeeCheng 지챙 . 루찡 RuJinghttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08592579252247217346noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8845526.post-31700492389146079902009-07-06T22:11:00.002+08:002009-07-06T22:17:56.107+08:00so your actual reason for asking me out<div>is just to tell me that you learn sth from tt movie?</div><div><br /><div><br /></div><div>tell me if i'm incorrect</div><div>but the "male blogger"</div><div>is actually you</div><div><br /></div><div>so what is it that you have learnt?</div><div><br /></div><div><br /></div><div><br /></div><div>i didnt purposely chose tt movie to watch w you</div><div>i thot it was a wrong choice</div><div>but somehow we ended up watching tt</div><div>instead of your transformer</div><div>sorry</div></div><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/8845526-3170049238914607990?l=moibloggie.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>JeeCheng 지챙 . 루찡 RuJinghttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08592579252247217346noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8845526.post-15124474632122767442009-07-02T00:05:00.003+08:002009-07-02T12:01:52.649+08:00as you wished<br />i appeared before you<br /><br /><br />weird weird?<br /><br />i was on my guard all the time.<br />except for a few slips here and there.<br /><br />i dont understand why you still want to meet<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/8845526-1512447463212276744?l=moibloggie.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>JeeCheng 지챙 . 루찡 RuJinghttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08592579252247217346noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8845526.post-58106827777199626912009-06-14T00:13:00.003+08:002009-06-14T00:21:41.535+08:00of all times and places<div>i had to bump into you at the crowdiest of all places</div><div>cant believe i spot you out of the so many people</div><div>*i guess it shld be rather ez.</div><div>you didnt change much except for..</div><div>no comments</div><div>same old jacket </div><div>same old... *</div><div><br /></div><div>suntec convention hall.</div><div><br /></div><div>i've wondered what would happen if i ever happen to see you after so long</div><div>today showed.</div><div><br /></div><div>and it's nothing.</div><div><br /></div><div><br /></div><div>my heart almost popped out from my mouth</div><div>my friend noticed a sudden change in me</div><div>and i just said </div><div>"i saw him"</div><div><br /></div><div>my friend looked and said</div><div>"what's with the hair.."</div><div>and i just told my friend</div><div>"it must be another failed DIY experiment"</div><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/8845526-5810682777719962691?l=moibloggie.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>JeeCheng 지챙 . 루찡 RuJinghttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08592579252247217346noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8845526.post-5647471610862896212009-05-10T00:09:00.002+08:002009-05-10T00:41:32.832+08:00算今天<span class="Apple-tab-span" style="white-space:pre"> </span>以是整整一年了<div>我对你的心<span class="Apple-tab-span" style="white-space:pre"> </span>也算是彻彻底底的死了</div><div><br /></div><div>朋友都告诉我说</div><div>我对你</div><div>实在是太好了</div><div>不应该这样的</div><div>因为你<span class="Apple-tab-span" style="white-space:pre"> </span>一点也不值得</div><div><br /></div><div>没有你 我仍然过得很好</div><div><br /></div><div>不过<span class="Apple-tab-span" style="white-space:pre"> </span>想起你</div><div>我还是会难过</div><div><br /></div><div>别误会<span class="Apple-tab-span" style="white-space:pre"> </span>我不是恨你</div><div>只是觉得有些可惜</div><div>有些难过</div><div><br /></div><div>回忆越美<span class="Apple-tab-span" style="white-space:pre"> </span>难度越高</div><div>我只能告诉自己</div><div>听从我朋友的一个说法</div><div>把你当成 死了</div><div>告诉自己<span class="Apple-tab-span" style="white-space:pre"> </span>从前的那些时光</div><div>都不可能再回来了</div><div>不可能再有了</div><div><br /></div><div>从此也不可能在体验到了</div><div><br /></div><div>我已放下一切</div><div>对我人生 夸起了脚步</div><div>大步地往前走了</div><div><br /></div><div>我会当作我从来没认识过你这个人</div><div><br /></div><div><br /></div><div><br /></div><div>不过</div><div>如果让我再选一次</div><div><br /></div><div>四年前</div><div>不管别人怎么说</div><div>我还是会选择和你在一起</div><div><br /></div><div>分手过后的一晚</div><div>对你的坦白</div><div>对你说的那三个字</div><div>不是为了挽留你</div><div>而是我心里真正的话</div><div><br /></div><div>说出口了</div><div>才发现<span class="Apple-tab-span" style="white-space:pre"> </span>那真的是实话</div><div>不过</div><div>一切都太迟了</div><div><br /></div><div>现在</div><div>我们只能</div><div>已告别收场了</div><div><br /></div><div>谢谢你给我了那些不可能再有的甜蜜</div><div>那些点点滴滴</div><div><br /></div><div>选择当作你的不纯在</div><div>不代表记忆会跟着离开</div><div>所以<span class="Apple-tab-span" style="white-space:pre"> </span>还是得谢谢你</div><div>让我知道了被一个人疼爱的感觉</div><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/8845526-564747161086289621?l=moibloggie.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>JeeCheng 지챙 . 루찡 RuJinghttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08592579252247217346noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8845526.post-23774888528399846352009-03-24T16:52:00.002+08:002009-03-24T17:06:42.520+08:00i fell again.<br />this time round,<br />i bled pretty badly.<br />it has been such a long time since i got external injuries from fall.<br /><br />it hurts. the pain excruciating.<br />i didnt even realised i was bleeding until i saw the blood stains on my white pants.<br />i mean long white pants and i'm still able to scratched my knee so badly. the entire skin came off.<br />the wound was so ugly. so gross. it was... ...<br />i was so scared. so frightened.<br />i wanted so badly to have you with me.<br />i wanted to hear your reassuring voice<br />telling me everything will be alright.<br />i teared.<br />i hate that kind of feeling<br /><br /><br />but i tell myself no.<br />told myself i am a strong girl.<br />i am a brave girl<br />and it's only a small issue<br />told myself i can handle myself.<br /><br />i picked myself up.<br />my actions the total opposite of what i was feeling.<br />i was unnaturally calm.<br />but the inside o me was frantic<br />i was so grossed out by the look of the wound.<br />i didnt really know what to do.<br /><br />but in the end, i believed i handled myself just fine.<br />in fact, i think i'm proud of myself now.<br />i took care of myself.<br /><br />i washed my wound and tried to approached the sch office for 1st aid kit.<br />but darn the school. they didnt have one. i almost fainted.<br />good thing i managed to get some antiseptic and guazed it up.<br /><br />i'm glad i got it through.<br />without you.<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/8845526-2377488852839984635?l=moibloggie.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>JeeCheng 지챙 . 루찡 RuJinghttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08592579252247217346noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8845526.post-56424463851679117872009-03-20T01:31:00.003+08:002009-03-20T13:02:54.923+08:00i think you're expecting me to post<br />not to disappoint you<br />so here's it<br /><br />i dont have much to say but perhaps,<br />one question to ask<br /><br />"how wld you fel if i ask you to join me and my frens<br />but ignore you for the great big deal of time?"<br /><br /><br /><br />我不是 wait for things to happen<br />but just watching, observing<br />b4 i decide on my action<br /><br /><br />as you know, i'm slower<br />like you always like to say<br />ppl 慢三拍<br />i 慢五拍<br /><br />__________________________________<br /><br />it was those pairs o eyes i fell in love w<br />你给的那眼神<br />和从前一样<br />在那瞬间<br />我吓一跳<br />呆住了<br /><br />____________________________________<br /><br />如果我那个梦是真的<br />也没什么不好<br /><br />一个未爱过的人<br />会比较容易爱上另一个人<br />也能够拥有一段<br />没有包袱的<br />像梦幻似地<br />简单,单纯 <div>的甜蜜爱情</div><br /><br />你说对吗？<br /><br />那个梦幻<br />现在<br />早已不见了<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/8845526-5642446385167911787?l=moibloggie.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>JeeCheng 지챙 . 루찡 RuJinghttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08592579252247217346noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8845526.post-755678360049604372009-03-07T23:53:00.002+08:002009-03-08T00:05:48.663+08:00i had a bad dream a few nights back<br />woke up crying<br />was crying in my dream<br /><br /><br />我不怎么记得那场梦<br /><br />我只知道<br />在梦里<br />有个人浮现在我面前<br />我却怎么都想不起他是谁<br /><br />我一直在挣扎<br />挣扎着<br />一直想那个人是谁<br /><br />仿佛是失忆了<br />怎么都想不起<br />头好疼<br />好辛苦<br />好难受<br /><br />我哭了<br /><br />醒来时<br />已泪流满面<br /><br />到那时候<br />我还在哭<br />还在想<br /><br />那时候<br />我才发现<br />那个人是你<br />那时候我才记起你的名字<br /><br /><br />×都这么久了×<br />×我为何又突然在次梦见你？×<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/8845526-75567836004960437?l=moibloggie.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>JeeCheng 지챙 . 루찡 RuJinghttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08592579252247217346noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8845526.post-42009271357828233742009-02-15T23:52:00.003+08:002009-02-16T00:11:17.707+08:00i guessed you've realised<br />this blog has become just a avenue<br />for me to let you know certain things<br /><br />i am just a nobody<br /><br />you dont have to specifically<br />get me sth to thk me<br />and purple??<br />i no longer like it as much le<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/8845526-4200927135782823374?l=moibloggie.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>JeeCheng 지챙 . 루찡 RuJinghttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08592579252247217346noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8845526.post-77651530873630620112009-02-14T13:05:00.000+08:002009-02-14T13:06:08.687+08:00why???<br /><br />为什么?<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/8845526-7765153087363062011?l=moibloggie.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>JeeCheng 지챙 . 루찡 RuJinghttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08592579252247217346noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8845526.post-19968038569094095232009-02-07T01:00:00.000+08:002009-02-07T01:02:02.462+08:00it's scary how we still think alike.<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/8845526-1996803856909409523?l=moibloggie.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>JeeCheng 지챙 . 루찡 RuJinghttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08592579252247217346noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8845526.post-6798623420590262472009-02-01T00:07:00.002+08:002009-02-01T00:13:04.150+08:00to the hell w you<br />damn you<br /><br />so this is what i am to you?<br />a cheat?<br /><br />great.just fantastic<br />after knowing me for so long<br />you said this<br />i shld have just shut up<br /><br />i shldnt have cared<br />i shldnt have bothered<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/8845526-679862342059026247?l=moibloggie.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>JeeCheng 지챙 . 루찡 RuJinghttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08592579252247217346noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8845526.post-23550785006496893592009-01-28T03:45:00.002+08:002009-01-28T04:08:01.055+08:00我不知道该说什么好<br /><br />但看到你妈<br />我是感到有点开心<br />也许<br />是有点想她吧？<br /><br />我会去<br />不是为了红包<br />而是对一个长辈的尊敬<br />还有<br />是看在我们曾经的那段过去<br />怎么说 也有那么久了<br />三年啊<br /><br />我只有一句话想说<br />请多陪陪你妈一些<br />不要常让她一个人在家<br />不要让他为你操心<br /><br />我没什么资格说你<br />也没理由去想找她陪她<br />这好奇怪好不对<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/8845526-2355078500649689359?l=moibloggie.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>JeeCheng 지챙 . 루찡 RuJinghttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08592579252247217346noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8845526.post-8129373160317848792009-01-21T00:30:00.002+08:002009-01-21T01:43:31.222+08:00today will be the launch o my new blog<br /><br />but b4 i leave this floating in the cyberworld<br />leaving my memories here<br /><br />let me close it nicely<br /><br /><br />and mayb<br />perhaps<br />i'll come back once in a while<br /><br />to update<br />to say<br />when i miss it<br /><br />____________________________________<br /><br />the last entry for now<br /><br />what shall i say?<br /><br />goodbye?<br />i dont know fro sure<br /><br />____________________________________<br /><br />let me say abt today<br /><br /><br />i met up w pei<br />again :)<br /><br /><br />and she wanted to kill me<br />after i told her what i intend to do<br />after i reach home<br /><br /><br />which is to come online<br /><br /><br />she wanted to kill me<br />cos she say tmr muz wake up early<br />shldnt go online<br />shld slp earlier<br /><br />in the end<br />she was thinking o coming online too<br />lols.<br /><br />____________________________________<br /><br />i think i really like my tuitee<br />such a sweet girl<br /><br />and she made me even nore passionate<br />and determined abt teaching<br />and more determined to help her<br /><br /><br />*she's really cute<br />thot i was gg to meet her tcher<br />or rather, her ex-tcher<br />when i told her i'm gg out<br /><br />she thot we were v good friends<br />when i dont really know him at all<br />lols.<br /><br />and she likes to watch me do x-stitch<br />always ask if i got bring x-stitch along<br />says i look motherly<br />according to her<br />tt's a good thing*<br /><br />_______________________________________<br /><br /><br />after so long<br />i realised<br />the career path that i want to take<br />is to teach<br /><br /><br />ultimately<br />after everything<br /><br />i want to go nie<br /><br />just not for now<br /><br />2 ppl made me realised tt<br />and yupei agrees tt<br />teaching will suit me well<br /><br />says i have he potential since a long time ago<br /><br /><br />i rmb even my jc physics tcher<br />(mr mannan)<br />said tt i have the tcher look<br />lols.<br /><br />funny some things turn out isnt it?<br /><br /><br />i know i've always like to help<br />my friends along w their studies<br />and i'm always happy if they can get it<br /><br />i have the passion there<br /><br />my current tuitee<br />*my fave one*<br />made me realised<br />i really have the passion<br /><br />although she always worry<br />tt i'll get impatient w her<br />when she doesnt understand<br />i nv did<br /><br />thru so many years o giving tuition<br />i think i've found the way to get to them alr~<br /><br />the trials and errors<br />i think i've found my best mtd<br />^^<br /><br />i still need some refinement though<br /><br /><br /><br />and the ppl who has inspired me<br />inspired me to be a tcher<br /><br />i think<br />it's mrs yeong<br />but sadly,<br />i've lost contact w her<br /><br />after she retired from queenstown<br />even mdm teoh dont really have any news o her<br /><br /><br />i hope she's doing well<br /><br />________________________________________<br /><br />all i want to say is<br /><br />i'm really glad<br />how my life is turning out<br /><br /><br />the breakup was<br />a good thing for me<br /><br />although it still hurts<br />although the pain remains<br />with all the memories still thr<br /><br />and the fact tt<br />i know i still ____ him<br /><br />the hold backs<br />the restrictions<br /><br />the wants and the dont wants<br />the indecisive-ness<br />the fear o losing him<br />the hope o gg on w/o<br /><br />i seriously dont know<br />so moving away is just one step<br /><br />but is it just a escape i dont know<br /><br />i know running away solves nthing<br />but everything takes 2 to clap<br /><br /><br />running away is not really my style either<br />although alot o times i like to do just that<br /><br /><br /><br />all in all<br /><br />i'm just trying to say<br />not to worry,<br />i'm doing well<br /><br />the break away time<br />gave me alot o time to think<br />to explore<br /><br /><br />w the hurt<br />i've gone way out<br /><br /><br />but thk gdness ..<br />i've come to my senses as well<br /><br /><br />i've some up w my own theories<br />abt things<br />abt life<br />my perceptions<br />and proud of some of them<br /><br />i've thought of what i really want<br />i know what i want better<br />i know what i like better<br />i know what suits me better<br /><br /><br />i've learnt new things<br />i've learnt to handle myself better<br />how to treat others better<br /><br />how things shld be<br />how things shldnt be<br /><br />taking for eg.<br />what i want to do in the future<br /><br />realising my dreams<br />and my passion<br /><br /><br />in other words,<br />i've grown<br />and at a much rapid rate than in the past<br /><br />i've fallen<br />and stood back up<br />on my own two feet<br /><br />i've gotten back some skills<br />picked up new skills<br />and refined all o them<br />and still refining in process<br />the process will nv end<br /><br />the learning one<br />as long as we live<br />each and everyday<br /><br />______________________________________<br /><br /><br /><br />而且<br />我要告诉你的<br />就像你蓝牙我的那首歌<br />在你我心里<br />我们都会是彼此的<br /><br />独家记忆<br /><br />_____________________________________<br /><br /><span style="font-size:130%;"><u>独家记忆 </u><br /></span><br /><u></u><u><span style="font-size:130%;">歌手:陈小春 </span></u><br /><u><span style="font-size:130%;"></span></u><br /><u><span style="font-size:130%;">专辑:独家记忆<br /></span><br /></u><u></u><span style="font-size:130%;"> <br />忘记分开后的第几天起</span><br /><span style="font-size:130%;"> </span><br /><span style="font-size:130%;">喜欢一个人 看下大雨<br /></span><br /><span style="font-size:130%;">没联络 孤单就像连锁反应<br /></span><br /><span style="font-size:130%;">想要快乐都没力气<br /></span><br /><span style="font-size:130%;">雷雨世界像场灾难<br /></span><br /><span style="font-size:130%;">让现在的我可怜到底<br /></span><br /><span style="font-size:130%;">对不起 谁也没有时光机器<br /></span><br /><span style="font-size:130%;">已经结束的 没有商量的余地<br /></span><br /><span style="font-size:130%;">我希望你 是我独家的记忆<br /></span><br /><span style="font-size:130%;">摆在心底 不管别人说的多么难听<br /></span><br /><span style="font-size:130%;">现在我拥有的事情<br /></span><br /><span style="font-size:130%;">是你 是给我一半的爱情<br /></span><br /><span style="font-size:130%;">我喜欢你 是我独家的记忆<br /></span><br /><span style="font-size:130%;">谁也不行 从我这个身体中拿走你<br /></span><br /><span style="font-size:130%;">在我感情的封锁区<br /></span><br /><span style="font-size:130%;">有关于你 绝口不提 没问题/没关系/没限期</span><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/8845526-812937316031784879?l=moibloggie.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>JeeCheng 지챙 . 루찡 RuJinghttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08592579252247217346noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8845526.post-84342803765356599112009-01-20T00:08:00.004+08:002009-01-20T01:07:56.373+08:00jack of all trade<br />but master of none.<br /><br /><br />would you rather be a generalist?<br />or a specialist??<br /><br />__________________________________<br /><br />ytd i spent on my bro.<br />today i spent on my sis.<br /><br />__________________________________<br /><br />i live now for now<br /><br />i believe in living now<br />i believe in the present<br />not in the past.nor in the future<br /><br />as long as we live happy<br />live well<br /><br />past shapes the present<br />memories that holds<br /><br />no one knows what the future holds<br />so why worry?<br />why bother so much?<br /><br />they say<br />save for rainy days<br />i agree<br /><br />but what is nw is impt too<br /><br /><br />i dont see the point of waiting for the future<br />everything we can<br />if possible<br />do it now!<br />right now!<br /><br />grab hold of every opportunity!<br /><br />life's unpredictable.<br /><br />____________________________________<br /><br />i need to kick that habit.<br /><br /><br />jeecheng,<br />it's not worth it!!!!!<br />*stopping myself*<br /><br />__________________________________<br /><br />yenn changed last min<br /><br />but ok la~<br />heh.<br /><br />__________________________________<br /><br />今天<br />我又想了<br />很多很多<br /><br /><br />还是觉得<br />干净利落比较好<br /><br />___________________________________<br /><br />让我把事情<br />快快解决<br />快快了断<br />好吗？<br /><br /><br /><br />我不想<br />不想再想<br />不要再想<br /><br />___________________________________<br /><br />当着根本不存在<br /><br />___________________________________<br /><br />我一定要把本分做好！<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/8845526-8434280376535659911?l=moibloggie.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>JeeCheng 지챙 . 루찡 RuJinghttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08592579252247217346noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8845526.post-10090642186306445562009-01-18T23:09:00.004+08:002009-01-19T01:07:21.707+08:00attended ms tan's wedding<br />^^<br />so so sweet<br /><br /><br />i almost teared<br />when the video showed<br />her husband lifting the veil<br /><br />steph almost held out to me<br />hahas.<br /><br />________________________________<br /><br /><br />ip zone is my bro's killer shop.<br />lols.<br /><br />_______________________________<br /><br />how come i willingly agreed to pay?<br />*faints*<br /><br />_______________________________<br /><br /><br />everytime i go to the hospital<br /><br /><br />i feel like crying<br /><br /><br />_______________________________<br /><br />there is so many things tt<br />i still want to do<br />still want to learn<br /><br />i have so so much<br /><br /><br /><br />but why am i still thinking?<br /><br />_______________________________<br /><br />我不想纠缠不清<br />但我却又不能不去想<br /><br />我真笨<br />真傻<br /><br />————————————————————————<br /><br />不可能了<br />不可能了<br /><br />————————————————————————<br /><br />我好期待<br />好期盼<br /><br />————————————————————————<br /><br />我好累<br />真的好累<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/8845526-1009064218630644556?l=moibloggie.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>JeeCheng 지챙 . 루찡 RuJinghttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08592579252247217346noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8845526.post-500698307331383482009-01-16T01:00:00.002+08:002009-01-16T01:16:14.974+08:00finally had my haircut!!<br />*grins*<br /><br /><br />and gotten myself a new pair o specs<br />heh.<br />__________________________<br /><br />went back queenstown<br />and saw alot o changes<br /><br />so fast.<br />it has alr been 6 yrs since grad<br /><br />*seriously miss those days*<br /><br /><br />*the tchers were concerned<br />and asking abt my bro la*<br />__________________________<br /><br />mdm teoh invited us to her hse!<br />heh.<br /><br />she is an inspirational figure<br />tt make me want to learn more things<br /><br />at her age,<br />thr's alot she still wants to learn<br /><br /><br />i'm young<br />even much much more to learn!!!<br />^^<br />__________________________<br /><br />stop it.stop it.<br /><br />__________________________<br /><br />pei beat cheng.<br />*cry*<br /><br /><br />if it works,<br />it'll be good though.<br /><br />__________________________<br /><br />i seriously need more practices.<br />think i'm really deaded.<br /><br />what did i do to myself?<br /><br />__________________________<br /><br />i have alot tt<br />i still want to<br />achieve out of life too<br /><br /><br />*not just you*<br />___________________________<br /><br />it is a feeling<br />not a choice<br /><br /><br />but it is a choice<br />a decision<br /><br />___________________________<br /><br />我的 2009 年<br />一定要有好的开始<br /><br />保持<br />好的一年<br /><br /><br />ｪﾎﾁﾄ<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/8845526-50069830733138348?l=moibloggie.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>JeeCheng 지챙 . 루찡 RuJinghttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08592579252247217346noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8845526.post-48337239664777603222009-01-15T00:48:00.003+08:002009-01-15T02:04:17.898+08:00i didnt realised you mean so much<br /><br /><br />this is no good.<br />*shld be gone for good*<br />______________________________<br /><br />i think i can handle myself rather well now<br /><br /><br />as long as my emotions<br />dont cloud over too much<br /><br />_______________________________<br /><br />i was thinking<br />lucky i dont have this problem anymore<br /><br />but then<br /><br />______________________________<br /><br />i wanted to say i am<br />PISSED<br />v pissed<br /><br />but then<br />我想<br />算了吧<br /><br />______________________________<br /><br />我的忍耐度<br />也是有限的<br /><br />不要太过分<br /><br />______________________________<br /><br />tour guide!<br />^^<br /><br />______________________________<br /><br />i got the urge to master japanese!<br /><br />right now!<br />arh!!! lols.<br /><br />_______________________________<br /><br />i was literally shopping w them<br />*oopsy*<br /><br />_______________________________<br /><br />i am so dead-ed.<br /><br />looks difficult.<br />no, is really difficult<br />not enough time.<br /><br />_______________________________<br /><br />it's not as easy as i thot it'd be.<br />i'll work hard!<br /><br />_______________________________<br /><br />long days.<br />long nights.<br /><br />_______________________________<br /><br />so many things.<br />so little time.<br /><br />_______________________________<br /><br />in and out of hospital<br /><br />_______________________________<br /><br />life is short.<br />life is unpredictable.<br />cherish all you have.<br /><br />do all things you find worthwhile<br />make all eventful<br />memorable and meaningful<br /><br />________________________________<br /><br />i wanted to give<br />but was unable to<br /><br />________________________________<br /><br /><div>*being able to give blood </div><div>means you're still healthy</div><div>be glad for that*</div><div> </div><div> </div><div></div><div></div>be it blood donation<br />or anything<br /><br />be glad that you can still give<br />being able to give means<br />you're more fortunate as compared<br /><br />help when you're able to<br />it may mean nthin to you<br /><br />but to another,<br />it may be a big difference<br /><br />do not be happy to be just the taker<br />it's just binching on someone else's good<br />give and take<br /><br /><br />*just some thots*<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/8845526-4833723966477760322?l=moibloggie.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>JeeCheng 지챙 . 루찡 RuJinghttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08592579252247217346noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8845526.post-55744596847855583202009-01-12T22:22:00.004+08:002009-01-15T02:04:58.804+08:00my mind was in a whirl ytd<br /><br />the previous post was a mess.<br /><br />________________________________<br /><br />fatigue - ness<br /><br />is there such a word??<br /><br />________________________________<br /><br />my tuitee asked me<br />if i have a sense o accomplishment<br /><br />i asked her<br />if she has a sense of satisfaction<br /><br />she smiled<br />so did i<br />^^<br />_________________________________<br /><br />school.projects.assignments.tests.<br />work.tuition.<br />family.friends.<br />dance.<br />play.life.<br /><br />work hard<br />study hard<br />*or shld be study smart?*<br />and play hard<br /><br />time!!!!<br /><br />___________________________________<br /><br /><br />ah josh drives me nuts.<br />arh!!!<br /><br /><br />___________________________________<br /><br /><br /><br />have created a new blog a/c alr<br />think i'll let it<br />officially commence on<br />20 01 2009<br /><br /><br />interested readers,<br />just tag me<br />or sms me<br />or buzz me on msn<br /><br /><br />i'll add<br />__________________________________<br /><br />爸爸说<br /><br />“人”<br />容易写<br /><br />做起来难<br /><br />i couldnt agree more<br /><br />___________________________________<br /><br />can i not care or bother?<br /><br />___________________________________<br /><br />my very own personal therapy<br /><br />___________________________________<br /><br />a hundred and one thots<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/8845526-5574459684785558320?l=moibloggie.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>JeeCheng 지챙 . 루찡 RuJinghttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08592579252247217346noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8845526.post-58612840994136526622009-01-12T00:29:00.002+08:002009-01-12T01:50:52.395+08:00blame it on the song.<br /><br />blame it on my big mouth.<br />just myself.<br />argh.<br /><br />why did i even do tt?<br />i guess i just cldnt help myself.<br /><br />i dont know why i did what i did<br /><br />_______________________________<br /><br />i think the sickness<br />has gotten to me.<br />eek.<br /><br />_______________________________<br /><br />and yes,<br />i think it's one-sided<br /><br />_______________________________<br /><br />你不觉得我们这样<br />其实是在脱离带水<br />藕断丝连吗？<br /><br /><br />unless tt is what you're trying to do.<br />to keep me by the side.<br /><br />_______________________________<br /><br />i dont want to know.<br />i want to know<br />i dont think i want to know.<br /><br />what am i talking here?<br /><br />_______________________________<br /><br />i think i want the new year to be well<br />so badly<br />that i fear<br /><br />_______________________________<br /><br />i know i'm being bullied smt<br />and yet i still allow them to..<br /><br />am i too nice or just being dumb?<br /><br />_______________________________<br /><br />been talking to a few ppl<br />been pondering alot<br />been thinking of what all these means to me<br /> of the definitions<br />of the lines tt shld be drawn<br /><br />love. relationships. friendships. family.<br /><br />real. fake.<br /><br /><br /><br />what does a r/s mean to me now?<br />what do i want out of it?<br /><br />i'd love to have just a one and only.<br />but who knows?<br /><br />i used to think tt<br />to spend time tgt is v impt<br />(not tt i'm saying it's not impt now)<br />but tt individual time is also impt<br /><br />we need time and space as well<br />if not,<br />thr will be suffocation<br /><br /><div>spending time apart doesnt mean tt we dont care</div><div>nor that we doesnt have each other on the mind</div><div> </div><div> </div><br />used to believe tt control means care<br />but at times<br />we need to let go<br />to be able to let each other<br />do what they want to do<br />what they need to do<br />and believe tt spending time things tt req of us differently<br />doesnt mean there's no love, care and concern<br /><br />to love,<br />i dont think there shld be restriction too<br /><br /><br />i think it's about being able to<br />let each other be themselves<br />still do the things they like<br />have their individual hobbies and time<br /><br />yet come tgt to share and to care<br />and to do things both like as well<br /><br />quarrel and forgive quickly<br />and not to bear grudges<br /><br />to be open w each other<br />not hiding things<br /><br />believe and trust.<br />surprises and romance.<br />quarrel and fight.<br />forgive and forget.<br />but not lessons learnt.<br />sweetness.bitterness.<br /><br /><br /><br />i think to love is<br />to give a hundred percent o the heart<br />not the hundred percent o the time<br /><br /><div>and at the end of the day,</div><div>it's just knowing tt thr's someone out thr</div><div>loving you and caring for you.</div><br /><br />and for that<br />you got to believe and trust<br /><br /><br />and friends?<br />how real.how fake.<br />how do you deem it??<br /><br />i feel the fakeness somtimes.<br />and i feel fake myself smt.<br />disgust.<br /><br /><br />this world.<br />is full of pretense.<br />and you dont know how to<br />you may offend ppl<br />and you'll slowly perish if you happen to meet a powerful faker.<br /><br />so there is a need to learn how to wayang<br />i feel so disgusted.<br /><br /><br />think wld rather avoid at all means<br />than to wayang.<br />i cant pretend<br /><br />think i'd just die off soon<br /><br />___________________________________<br /><br />fakos. fakos. fakos.<br /><br />___________________________________<br /><br />i didnt know<br /><br />___________________________________<br /><br />what for go<br />if thr is no sense o belonging?<br /><br />but if dont go,<br />how will have sense of belonging?<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/8845526-5861284099413652662?l=moibloggie.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>JeeCheng 지챙 . 루찡 RuJinghttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08592579252247217346noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8845526.post-78024346784116069922009-01-07T22:34:00.004+08:002009-01-08T23:36:24.798+08:00i can feel the heat of the sun<br />as well as the chill of the wind<br /><br />_________________________________<br /><br />这场病<br />其实让我领悟了<br /><br />许多<br /><br />我的生命<br />。。。<br /><br />_________________________________<br /><br />时间短暂<br />生命翠落<br /><br />_________________________________<br /><br />this new year<br />i resolved to lead a healthier life<br /><br />_________________________________<br /><br />i've nv felt so sick for so long alr<br />yrs in fact<br /><br />was so sick tt i cldnt even managed to go sch<br />and feign ok-ness<br />cldnt hide the fact tt i was sick.sighs.<br /><br /><br />eek.dont like the feeling.<br /><br /><br />was so sicked tt i keyed in the wrong number<br />*muddled-headed*<br />no wonder pei said<br />she didnt received any msg<br />i checked and realised<br />pei wanted to beat me up<br />if i hadnt been so sick :(<br /><br /><br />think the msg sent wasnt seen anw<br /><br />________________________________________<br /><br />isa's remedy doesnt taste good.<br />but it worked though<br />felt better le~<br />^^<br />thx.heh.<br /><br />________________________________________<br /><br />ok. so i'm in biz finance alr.<br /><br />_________________________________________<br /><br /><br />the lecturer's laughter amuses me<br />hahahas.<br /><br />_________________________________________<br /><br /><br /><br />i call tt stupidity.<br />i'm not so easily conned.<br />since you alr known and even seen me b4<br />it'll just be a waste of time on your side<br /><br /><br />_________________________________________<br /><br /><br />whee~<br />i managed to prepare dinner<br />w/o help<br />w a qc and a supervisor<br />lols.<br /><br />they said i pass<br />^^<br /><br />__________________________________________<br /><br />i hvt seen my tuitees so hardworking b4.<br />motivates me to teach better :)<br /><br />but smt<br />i still feel like strangling the boys<br /><br />___________________________________________<br /><br />i think i'm anti-social-ing<br /><br />smt<br />i so tired<br />just so plain tired<br /><br /><br />too tired to care<br />or to bother<br /><br />__________________________________________<br /><br />i close my eyes and i still see...<br /><br />deep in me...<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/8845526-7802434678411606992?l=moibloggie.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>JeeCheng 지챙 . 루찡 RuJinghttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08592579252247217346noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8845526.post-50395412892939289822009-01-04T00:04:00.002+08:002009-01-04T00:37:36.674+08:00the way of life...<br /><br /><br />the kind of life i'm leading<br />the kind of life i want<br /><br />i think i know better now<br /><br /><br />the hopes the moments the times<br /><br />________________________________<br /><br />你是不是有话要跟我说<br />或是有东西想问我？<br /><br />却又说不出口<br />还是找不到好的时机？<br />也不知如何说起呢？<br /><br />________________________________<br /><br />谢谢你<br /><div> </div><div>我知道我欠你很多吧</div><div>让我还清了</div><br /><br />我想<br />我到最后还是会选择放弃了<br />对不起<br /><br />因为我知道<br />我对你的感觉<br />仍然还在<br />我看<br />我必须离开吧？<br /><br />除非<br />这不是单方面的感觉<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/8845526-5039541289293928982?l=moibloggie.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>JeeCheng 지챙 . 루찡 RuJinghttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08592579252247217346noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8845526.post-23838354966646535652009-01-02T23:30:00.003+08:002009-01-04T01:06:51.260+08:00hmmz...<br /><br />i'm wondering wondering...<br /><br />____________________________________<br /><br />yupei and i found a new hobby<br />lols.<br />njying, ya??<br />^^<br /><br /><br />jiayou!!<br /><br />_____________________________________<br /><br />today's session was super long.<br />but it was a good one<br />heh.<br /><br />_____________________________________<br /><br />really really gotta save up!!!!!<br /><br />arh!!!!<br /><br />_____________________________________<br /><br />i need a haircut!!!!<br />badly.<br /><br />_____________________________________<br /><br />i miss yupei!<br /><br />but we just met up<br />wahahaz.<br /><br /><br />i'm so gg to miss her<br />esp when sch starts<br />think both o us are really gg to get real bz<br /><br /><br />but i dont care.<br />pei and cheng<br />will make time for each other<br />right, peipei??<br />^^<br /><br />_____________________________________<br /><br />the kind o life i'm leading.... ...<br /><br />_____________________________________<br /><br />我发现到<br />其实<br />我还在寻找自己<br /><br />我到底是个怎样的人？<br />the real me.<br />who am i?<br />what am i like?<br /><br />我发觉<br />我其实是个 introvert<br />tt happen to be<br />more talkative<br />more vocal<br />and more expressive<br /><br />i'm not the extrovert tt all seems to see<br /><br /><br />deep down inside<br /><br /><br /><br />江山易改<br />本性难移<br />i'm still me<br />the same old me<br /><br />just tt i may have changed<br />some of my perspective<br />some of the ways i do things<br />having seen so much<br />feel so much<br />and w the envt changes<br />ppl bound to change in a way or another<br /><br /><br />but i am still me<br /><br /><br />think i feel the most natural ard pei<br />no need to hide<br />no need to put on a front<br />think we know each other<br />and understand each other<br />to a point where<br />no words are needed to be exchanged smt<br />i'm really glad for tt<br />the years o friendship amounting to it<br /><br /><br /><br />thkyew pei.<br />for letting me be me<br /><br /><br /><br />i love you girl<br />*of cos in a friend kind o way.lols.*<br />*we're 2 perfectly straight girls!*<br />^^<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/8845526-2383835496664653565?l=moibloggie.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>JeeCheng 지챙 . 루찡 RuJinghttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08592579252247217346noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8845526.post-84196927706724718712009-01-01T23:59:00.002+08:002009-01-02T00:42:33.830+08:00happy new year to all!!<br />^^<br /><br />新的一年<br />新的开始<br /><br />×我突然感到好老×<br />真是岁月不留人<br /><br />time really flies<br />2009 has come<br />but everything just seems like ytd<br /><br />___________________________________<br /><br />it's taking me v long to really pick up cycling.<br />*bruises all over*<br /><br />blading up next!<br /><br />___________________________________<br /><br />i feel like a girl scout!<br />lols.<br /><br />it's fun..and tiring.<br />hahas.<br /><br />more activities and plannings coming up?<br /><br />___________________________________<br /><br />guess i fear i'd be getting real bz<br />when sch term starts<br /><br /><br />can dont want anot?<br />sighs.<br />我不知道为什么我感到很害怕<br /><br />___________________________________<br /><br />我已伤痕累累<br />遍体鳞伤<br /><br />脚有许多瘀青<br /><br /><br />心灵上<br />也好不到哪里去<br /><br />我真的好累好累<br />有时候只想一个人躲起来<br />。。。<br /><br /><br /><br />我到底要什么<br />想什么<br />我自己也不清楚<br /><br />对你的仁慈<br />是造成对自己的伤害吗？<br /><br />我是在自讨苦吃吗？<br />我到底在做什么？<br /><br />我到底对自己怎样了？<br /><br /><br /><br />我抱着的<br />又是什么？<br /><br /><br /><br />我不知道<br />我真的不知道<br /><br /><br /><span style="font-size:85%;">我看我只知道</span><br /><span style="font-size:85%;">我还是很想</span><br /><span style="font-size:85%;"></span><br /><span style="font-size:85%;">我怎么到了现在</span><br /><span style="font-size:85%;">还是处处为你着想？</span><br /><span style="font-size:85%;">还是想把时间给你？</span><br /><span style="font-size:85%;">不管好的坏的</span><br /><span style="font-size:85%;">还是想找你？</span><br /><span style="font-size:85%;">有问题有困难是要帮助时</span><br /><span style="font-size:85%;">也还是你</span><br /><span style="font-size:85%;">我真笨</span><br /><span style="font-size:85%;">也看是自己在找借口？</span><br /><span style="font-size:85%;">也许 也就是这样吧</span><br />_____________________________________<br /><br />对于感情<br />我的要求<br />和想法<br /><br />我看<br />也有许多的改变<br /><br />还是可以说是<br />我以前不懂<br /><br />现在<br />却有了自己的想法吧？<br />也知道了要怎么处理<br />要怎么要怎么应付<br />也比较懂自己要的是什么<br />其实一切都很简单<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/8845526-8419692770672471871?l=moibloggie.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>JeeCheng 지챙 . 루찡 RuJinghttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08592579252247217346noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8845526.post-35377926159467746252008-12-22T10:42:00.004+08:002008-12-27T01:10:28.536+08:00机会一旦错过<br />就永远不会再回来了<br /><br />______________________________________<br /><br />think i muz be mad alr<br />being the lz me<br />how come i feel so happy<br />w my mom doesnt want to cook for me<br />and ask me to cook myself<br /><br />______________________________________<br /><br />sch's starting soon<br />kinda looking forward<br />but kinda dreading it as well<br /><br />sighs<br /><br />still caught in b/w the 2 stupid courses<br />which i know i will defo take<br />it's just the major and minor<br />dumb<br /><br />______________________________________<br /><br />anws, thx sugi<br />for the keropok<br /><br />although i wanted the unfried ones.<br />thx for frying for me.<br /><span style="font-size:78%;">wuan was saying</span><br />its sweet o you<br />hahas, so i shld appreciate it<br /><br />______________________________________<br /><br />practices was a flop<br /><br />and end o classes<br />______________________________________<br /><br />i like my new tuitee<br />think she's the most polite<br />and sweetest tuitee i've come across<br />^^<br />______________________________________<br /><br />i just realised kallang is just a street away from geylang<br />no wonder<br /><br />______________________________________<br /><br />i've gone thru the diffferent phases<br /><br />the copycat phase<br />=<br />pink *copy mom*<br />+<br />blue *copy frens*<br /><br /><br />the undecided phase<br />*gg individual*<br />=<br />the colourfuls<br /><br /><br />the trying to act mature phase<br />*gg unique*<br />=<br />mixing colours<br /><br /><br />the individual phase<br />=<br />standardised mixed<br /><br /><br />the sweet phase<br />=<br />the sweet soft pink<br /><br /><br />the bubbly and sporty phase<br />=<br />the bright colours<br /><br /><br />now i think i'm gg for classic<br />hahas.<br />and maybe still retain abit o the fun bit<br />^^<br />*guess the colour!*<br /><br />__________________________________________<br /><br /><br />i dont want to hear your apologies<br />nor the reasons<br /><br />__________________________________________<br /><br />i just want to settle it fast<br />to close it quickly<br />*giving myself a time limit*<br />cos i dont want anymore<br /><br />*and just praying hard i'll be determined enough*<br /><br />__________________________________________<br /><br />why is it still like this?<br />我到底在想什么？<br />我到底要什么？<br />__________________________________________<br /><br />你那眼神 那目光 都没变<br /><br /><br />你的一举一动 你的小动作<br /><br /><br />我都看得清清楚楚<br /><br />那种我一切都明白的感觉<br />那种了解<br /><br /><br />我也还依然<br />。。<br /><br /><br />那种无法形容的感觉<br />那种漂浮不定的心情<br /><br /><br />但我只能静静的站在一旁<br />*把心情收拾好*<br /><br />_______________________________________<br /><br />你蓝牙我的那首歌<br />歌词打入心底<br />我只敢独自一个人<br />静静的躲在一旁听<br /><br />_______________________________________<br /><br /><u><span style="font-size:130%;">歌名：半情歌</span></u><br /><u><span style="font-size:130%;"></span></u><br /><u><span style="font-size:130%;">歌手：元若蓝<br /></span></u><br /><br /><span style="font-size:130%;">花 接受凋零</span><br /><span style="font-size:130%;"></span><br /><span style="font-size:130%;">风 接受追寻<br /></span><br /><span style="font-size:130%;">心的伤还有一些 不要紧<br /></span><br /><span style="font-size:130%;">我接受你的决定<br /></span><br /><span style="font-size:130%;"><br /></span><br /><span style="font-size:130%;">你将会被谁抱紧 </span><br /><span style="font-size:130%;"></span><br /><span style="font-size:130%;">唱什麼歌哄他开心<br /></span><br /><span style="font-size:130%;">我想著天空什麼时候会放晴<br /></span><br /><span style="font-size:130%;">地球不曾为谁停一停<br /></span><br /><span style="font-size:130%;"></span><br /><br /><span style="font-size:130%;">你的明天 有多快乐 不是我的<br /><br />我们的爱是唱一半的歌<br /></span><br /><span style="font-size:130%;">时间把习惯换了 伤口愈合<br /></span><br /><span style="font-size:130%;">也撤销我再想你的资格<br /></span><br /><span style="font-size:130%;"><br /></span><br /><span style="font-size:130%;">你的祝福 一半甜的 一半苦的<br /></span><br /><span style="font-size:130%;">像我手中冷掉的可可<br /></span><br /><span style="font-size:130%;">最最教人残念的总是未完成的<br /></span><br /><span style="font-size:130%;">我只能唱著 一半的歌<br /></span><br /><span style="font-size:130%;"><br /></span><br /><span style="font-size:130%;">你将会被谁抱紧 唱什麼歌哄他开心<br /></span><br /><span style="font-size:130%;">我想著天空什麼时候会放晴<br /></span><br /><span style="font-size:130%;">地球不曾为谁停一停<br /></span><br /><span style="font-size:130%;"><br /></span><br /><span style="font-size:130%;">你的明天 有多快乐 不是我的<br /><br />我们的爱是唱一半的歌<br /></span><br /><span style="font-size:130%;">时间把习惯换了 伤口愈合<br /></span><br /><span style="font-size:130%;">也撤销我再想你的资格<br /></span><br /><span style="font-size:130%;"><br /></span><br /><span style="font-size:130%;">你的祝福 一半甜的 一半苦的<br /></span><br /><span style="font-size:130%;">像我手中冷掉的可可<br /></span><br /><span style="font-size:130%;">最最教人残念的总是未完成的<br /></span><br /><span style="font-size:130%;">我只能唱著 一半的歌<br /></span><br /><span style="font-size:130%;"><br /></span><br /><br /><span style="font-size:130%;">我的明天 快不快乐 都是我的<br /></span><br /><span style="font-size:130%;">我们的爱是唱一半的歌<br /></span><br /><span style="font-size:130%;">时间把习惯换了 伤口愈合<br /></span><br /><span style="font-size:130%;">也撤销我再想你的资格<br /></span><br /><span style="font-size:130%;"><br /></span><br /><span style="font-size:130%;">你的祝福 一半甜的 一半苦的<br /></span><br /><span style="font-size:130%;">像我手中冷掉的可可<br /></span><br /><span style="font-size:130%;">最最教人残念的总是未完成的<br /></span><br /><span style="font-size:130%;">另一半的歌<br /><br /><br /></span><span style="font-size:130%;"></span><span style="font-size:130%;"></span><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/8845526-3537792615946774625?l=moibloggie.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>JeeCheng 지챙 . 루찡 RuJinghttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08592579252247217346noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8845526.post-60042696856834133152008-12-14T01:19:00.004+08:002008-12-19T00:41:59.237+08:00a long week.<br />_____________________________________<br /><br />last day o work @ expo<br />i went shopping<br />lols.<br />my end o work seems to declare<br />eat snake time for the rest o the promoters<br />(ard my area.lol.)<br />we were all bz w... ..hahas.<br /><br /><br />i didnt buy any o the bags<br />nor the top tt 我看上<br />bought sth else instead<br />heh.<br /><br /><br />i was dreading work tt day<br />cos o the late nite out<br />was super tired<br />thk gdness i didnt have the same partner<br /><br />i like her better :)<br />at least we can talk<br />and she gave me quite an insightful rows o thots<br />hmmz<br /><br />_____________________________________<br /><br />tuesday was another good day w pei<br />^^<br />time seems to fly huh :)<br /><br />_____________________________________<br /><br />thur met up w wynne :)<br />after the donkey mths<br />so difficult to get tgt w our packed up time<br /><br />______________________________________<br /><br />a sales person wanted to get her manager to hire me<br />she calls me the "ban-nai 讲话"<br />which means good at talking<br /><br />another wanted to recommend me<br />to join the mgmt team<br />but too bad they seem to hire males only<br />lols<br />_____________________________________<br /><br />i bumped into a guy in the ladies<br />i dont understand why he took a double<br />and still wanted to continue walking in<br /><br />only when i told him straight tt it's the ladies<br />he went straight out and to the gents<br />___________________________________<br /><br />i realised i njy being able to make simple dishes<br />by myself<br />for myself<br />i like tt kind o feeling ^^<br />no need to depend on someone else in order to eat<br /><br />the cooking part is not tt difficult after all<br />it's the preparation part tt is..<br /><br />all i need is more confidence<br /><br />___________________________________<br /><br />i need more practices!<br />but who?<br /><br />___________________________________<br /><br />i still cant seem to figure out<br />my left and right<br />sighs<br /><br />___________________________________<br /><br />seems to have lost touch<br />*get back the feel!*<br />somehow it feels different now<br />*changes*<br />___________________________________<br /><br />somehow the 潘玮柏 trick<br />doesnt seem to work anymore<br /><br />___________________________________<br /><br />got to know this really cute girl<br />she speaks so demurely tt i feel v 粗鲁<br /><br />she kinda remind me o this other girl<br />i think she'll quite suit..<br />i also not sure but nvm<br />hmmz.<br />oh wells...<br /><br /><br />this time round<br />when she asked me if i have a boyfriend<br />i went quiet for awhile b4 answering nope.<br />and she got so excited the way she says "我也是！"<br /><br />lol<br /><br />then she asked me if i had one b4<br />when she knew i had one<br />she continued to bomb me w qns<br /><br />like how he told me<br />how i knew<br />how i replied<br /><br /><br />the way she asked made me wanted to laugh<br /><br />memories were brought back<br />but in a good way<br />甜中带苦<br />苦中带甜<br />×bittersweet×<br /><br />我记得故事中的精点<br />苦与乐<br />还有<br />许多许多 的 点点滴滴<br /><br />the pt o time w i knew he likes me<br />the pt o time w i agreed<br />the pt o time w i realised he was afraid o losing me<br />the pt o time w ...<br /><br />and all our firsts..<br /><br />真的好多好多回忆<br />一直都不想再想的<br />通通都回来了<br /><br />但一切都已成了过去<br /><br />________________________________________<br /><br /><br /><u><span style="font-size:130%;">歌名: 解脫 </span></u><br /><u><span style="font-size:130%;"></span></u><br /><u><span style="font-size:130%;">歌手: 張惠妹 </span></u><br /><br /><u><span style="font-size:130%;">Album: The Power Of Love (10年情歌最精選) </span></u><br /><br /><span style="font-size:130%;"><u>作 词：姚若龙 </u></span><span style="font-size:130%;"><u>作 曲：许华强<br /></u><br /></span><br /><br /><span style="font-size:130%;">爱是不夜城 回忆像星辰<br /><br />热泪越沸腾 我越感觉有点冷 </span><br /><span style="font-size:130%;"></span><br /><span style="font-size:130%;">变了心的人 越想越伤人<br /><br />枯坐到清晨 阳光替房间开了灯 </span><br /><span style="font-size:130%;"></span><br /><br /><br /><span style="font-size:130%;">想 若结局一样又何苦再想<br /><br />伤 若让人成长<br /><br />我为什么怕分手的伤<br /></span><br /><span style="font-size:130%;"></span><br /><br /><span style="font-size:130%;">解脱 是肯承认这是个错<br /><br />我不应该还不放手<br /><br />你有自由走</span><br /><span style="font-size:130%;"></span><br /><span style="font-size:130%;">我有自由好好过 </span><br /><span style="font-size:130%;"></span><br /><br /><br /><span style="font-size:130%;">解脱 是懂擦干泪看以后<br /><br />找个新方向往前走<br /><br />这世界辽阔<br /><br />我总会实现一个梦<br /><br /></span><br /><span style="font-size:130%;"></span><br /><span style="font-size:130%;"></span><br /><span style="font-size:130%;">想 若结局一样又何苦再想 （若结局一样又何苦再想）</span><br /><span style="font-size:130%;"></span><br /><span style="font-size:130%;">伤 若让人成长 </span><br /><span style="font-size:130%;"></span><br /><span style="font-size:130%;">我为什么怕分手的伤<br /><br /><br /><br />解脱 是肯承认这是个错<br /><br />我不应该还不放手<br /><br />你有自由走</span><br /><span style="font-size:130%;"></span><br /><span style="font-size:130%;">我有自由好好过<br /><br /></span><br /><span style="font-size:130%;"></span><br /><span style="font-size:130%;">心里有一种渴望勇敢的念头<br /><br />不要爱我的人再担心我<br /></span><br /><span style="font-size:130%;"></span><br /><span style="font-size:130%;"></span><br /><span style="font-size:130%;">解脱 是肯承认这是个错<br /><br />我不应该还不放手 （不放手）<br /><br />你有自由走 </span><br /><span style="font-size:130%;"></span><br /><span style="font-size:130%;">我有自由好好过 </span><br /><br /><br /><span style="font-size:130%;">解脱是懂擦干泪看以后<br /><br />找个新方向往前走<br /><br />这世界辽阔<br /><br />我总会实现一个梦 </span><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/8845526-6004269685683413315?l=moibloggie.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>JeeCheng 지챙 . 루찡 RuJinghttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08592579252247217346noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8845526.post-34700619939154991742008-12-07T14:59:00.003+08:002008-12-07T17:19:41.745+08:00how do you feel if no one else wants to talk to you anymore?<br />proud of it?<br />i dont even know you realise it anot<br /><br />insensible and insensitive<br /><br />__________________________________________<br /><br />i heard it<br />wldnt have imagined<br />it'd turned out this way<br />he's so gonna regret it<br /><br />she's such a sweet girl<br /><br />__________________________________________<br /><br />stop trying to pick a fight w me<br />and biting my ear off<br /><br />and pls stop being so cynical<br /><br />i am not dumb either<br />wont fall for your trick<br />i'm weary o what you're doing<br />intentional anot<br /><br />__________________________________________<br /><br />miss tan is getting married!!<br />^^<br />so happy for her :)<br />her first and her last<br />her one and only<br /><br />*sweet*<br /><br /><span style="font-size:78%;">if i had a choice,</span><br /><span style="font-size:78%;">i'd like tt too</span><br />___________________________________________<br /><br />pei is mad @ cheng<br />say cheng v 傻<br />am i?<br /><br />___________________________________________<br /><br />let's see..<br /><br />friday:<br />met up w pei again :)<br />*we were like meeting up almost everyday<br />and were saying like if we'd get sick o each other? lols*<br /><br /><br />went for training<br />late.heh.<br />spin till dizzy<br />*keep the frame!*<br />*spot!*<br /><br />saturday was another long day w work<br />getting smarter. hahas.<br />njyed talking to peijie and eda<br />and realised most o us dont like<br />...<br /><br />hmmz.<br /><br />met up w P and XQ.<br />phone collected! :)<br />they even changed the keypad for me!<br />yay!<br />*cos they were saying need to pay for the change,<br />but in the ened, the changed for me w/o charge.hahas.<br />cld be prob bcos the keypad got problem?*<br /><br />P and XQ are actually quite cute tgt<br />lols.<br /><br />and bumped into L along the way.<br />P laughed like mad thinking o what i've said<br />but i think put L and AL tgt ok mah~<br />but i'm not gg to do or say anything<br />lols.<br />think only P will know<br />lol<br /><br /><br />today!sunday!<br />hahas.<br />tuition was postponed.sighs.<br /><br />kinda looking forward to the event tonight<br />think it'd be fun!<br />but i duno leh~<br />hmmz<br /><br />but i'm so gonna die tmr<br />it'll end late<br />and i'm on morn shift<br />oppsy.<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/8845526-3470061993915499174?l=moibloggie.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>JeeCheng 지챙 . 루찡 RuJinghttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08592579252247217346noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8845526.post-80604908877194502752008-12-05T00:04:00.005+08:002008-12-05T01:51:46.308+08:00i've sent my phone for servicing<br /><br />so, ppl..<br /><br />pls buzz me your contact no<br />or sign off your name when you sms me<br /><br />thkyew :)<br /><br />*so pls pardon me if i dont know who you are*<br /><br />____________________________________________<br /><br />it's not good enough<br />sighs.<br /><br />____________________________________________<br /><br />i dont think i want to talk to you.<br />it's so freaking obvious isnt it?<br /><br />stop irritating me.<br />i dont think i need<br />nor want<br />any of your concern.<br /><br />_____________________________________________<br /><br />another pervertic guy.<br />yuck.eeky.<br />same name some more.<br /><br /><br />*does all guys w similar name has the same character?*<br />disgusting.<br /><br />____________________________________________<br /><br />i think i'm getting old.<br />oh nos.<br /><br />____________________________________________<br /><br />think i have a new weird hobby<br />oops<br />lols<br /><br />____________________________________________<br /><br /><br />i'm glad for all the "chop chop" meet ups.<br />^^<br /><br />with xiaoyun, cara and elisa<br />^^<br />and L too<br /><br />and also<br />the last min sci centre "chop chop" outing<br />w jianwen and huemin :)<br /><br />____________________________________________<br /><br />i'm glad for the planned way b4 meet-up too :)<br /><br />w yupei! :)<br />who else?<br />lols<br /><br />her exam has finally ended! :)<br />yay!<br /><br />____________________________________________<br /><br />let's see..<br /><br />went to svc our phone tgt @ wisma<br />and saw<br /><br />...<br /><br /><br />aaron kwok<br /><br /><br /><br />we didnt even realised it was him.lol<br />talking abt super lag or bad @ recognition<br /><br />we didnt even really notice<br />and was wondering why so many ppl was surrounding the place<br />see alr also not sure who.<br />lol<br /><br /><br />think he endorsed a watch<br />heh<br /><br /><br />lunched at far east<br />and met up w laura<br />to shop for the costume for the function<br /><br />and it took us 2hrs plus just for tt 2 pieces!<br />i didnt think it wld take so long<br /><br /><br />it's rather ex though<br />sighs<br /><br /><br />now i think i'm having cognitive dissonance<br />*process o consumer behaviour*<br />oops<br /><br /><br />*but thk gdness for the final piece chosen<br />if i had chosen the other<br />i think the dissonance level wld be higher<br />although the material is more comfy*<br /><br /><br />thkyew peipei!<br />^^<br />think cheng can be really dumb dumb @ times huh<br /><br /><br />as we walked<br />i think we talked<br />more than we looked or shopped<br /><br />lol<br /><br /><br />so in the end<br />we settled @ swensens @ PS<br /><br />to "dinner" and dessert :)<br /><p><img id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5275981271958355074" style="DISPLAY: block; MARGIN: 0px auto 10px; WIDTH: 240px; CURSOR: hand; HEIGHT: 320px; TEXT-ALIGN: center" alt="" src="http://2.bp.blogspot.com/_g1tUWiMYIGQ/STgNA3Sw_II/AAAAAAAAAHQ/9hjgEqHIW40/s320/DSC00632.JPG" border="0" />*the v good choc ice-cream*<br /></p>the food was good<br />so was the svc<br />and the catching up :)<br />* i mean for pei and me la~lol*<br /><br /><br />think we v couple-ly<br />other ppl may be jealous<br />lol<br /><br /><br />really really happy<br />^^<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/8845526-8060490887719450275?l=moibloggie.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>JeeCheng 지챙 . 루찡 RuJinghttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08592579252247217346noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8845526.post-24304270438521217782008-12-02T23:42:00.002+08:002008-12-03T00:59:04.968+08:00deep in thoughts<br /><br />________________________________<br /><br />有时候<br />我只想静静的<br /><br /><br />找个人<br />静静地陪我<br /><br />________________________________<br /><br />在这现实的社会<br /><br /><br /><br />我真的好累<br /><br />________________________________<br /><br />互相利用<br /><br /><br /><br />有时候是难免的<br /><br /><br /><br />要不然<br />一定会吃亏<br /><br /><br />就因为这样<br />我感到好恶<br /><br />___________________________________<br /><br />我发现到<br />许多人好假<br /><br />好假好假<br /><br /><br />有时看了<br />真的感到好失望<br /><br /><br /><br />好难看<br /><br /><br />it doesnt have to be said<br />it can be felt<br />and i can feel it<br />i'm especially sensitive to all these<br /><br />and it can get pretty obvious<br /><br />_______________________________________<br /><br />*sense o belonging*<br />it can be sensed easily<br />if you are welcomed anot<br /><br />perhaps too cliquish<br />_______________________________________<br /><br />maybe it's just me<br /><br />_______________________________________<br /><br />smt<br />it is wiser to just keep quiet<br />and smile<br />and feign ignorance<br /><br /><br /><br />*brag all you want*<br />________________________________________<br /><br />there's no point trying to put your point across<br />if the other party is unwilling to listen<br /><br />________________________________________<br /><br />我同意 L 的说法<br /><br />把脚步放慢了<br />能看得更多<br />体会的更多<br />*主要是看这世界有多美丽*<br /><br />但看得太多<br />懂得太多<br />明白 和<br />了解得太多<br /><br />却叫人感到更加地失望<br /><br />____________________________________<br /><br />everytime he said dont disappoint me<br />i feel tt i will<br />and i think i did<br /><br />*stressed*<br />____________________________________<br /><br />on a lighter note:<br /><br />was really glad to meet up xiaoyun ytd!<br />it has been ages since we met la~<br />^^<br /><br />we msned on sunday night<br />and met on mon le~<br />*in b/w o all our appts*<br />cool!<br /><br />lols.<br /><br />*i'm glad for this kind o meet up*<br />make appts immediate :)<br /><br />and usually those tt says see when free then meet<br />will usually nv meet<br />____________________________________<br /><br />it's getting mundane<br />*cannot!cannot!*<br />must find entertainment!<br />heex.<br /><br />____________________________________<br /><br />我看上三个包包<br />和一件衣服<br />怎么办？<br /><br />____________________________________<br /><br />*disclaimer: pls pardon me for my language section*<br /><br />i heard these 2 ppl in the T<br />they sound like<br /><br />...<br /><br /><br />the first thing tt came to my mind<br />"typical b***h"<br /><br /><br />and the way they talk<br />w the oohs and the arhs<br />they sound like they are being f-ed.<br /><br />they were standing just right outside the door<br />i wonder if i should open it and go out<br /><br />_______________________________________<br /><br />smt i feel so mean<br />tt i feel like a b**** too<br />i mean b**** abt ppl<br /><br /><br />and i can be real mean<br />to the ppl who have stepped on my toes<br /><br /><br />but somehow after tt<br />i'll feel bad sometimes<br /><br />note:<br />sometimes<br /><br /><br />cos i believe thr muz be a reason behind everything<br />trying to be understanding here<br /><br />better live in purity<br />*forgive*<br />than in hate<br /><br />but dont take my nice-ness for granted.<br /><br />it may come a time<br />when i feel like beating ppl up<br />tolerance 是有限的<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/8845526-2430427043852121778?l=moibloggie.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>JeeCheng 지챙 . 루찡 RuJinghttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08592579252247217346noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8845526.post-55942790148599548652008-12-01T00:47:00.006+08:002008-12-01T22:37:55.011+08:00i found out the name o the in-describeable today.<br />ooh.<br />hahas.<br /><br />_____________________________________<br /><br />if a person is really so ez to get along with<br />one wldnt have to say it<br />others can feel it<br /><br />humble pie pls<br /><br /><br /><br />you're ok<br />just overly chatty<br /><br />and<br />ppl are just being polite<br /><br /><br />but then again<br />i'm grateful for your concern<br />heh. :)<br /><br /><br />but pls spare me smt<br />w the grumbles.<br />will peng de.<br /><br /><br />perhaps you have no other real source to vent it out<br />oh wells.<br /><span style="font-size:78%;">thk goodness i'm not your daughter</span><br />______________________________________<br /><br /><br />you dont have to treat them so sarcastically<br />(they didnt do anything to offend you in any way)<br />and if you can say tt you have alot o experience<br />then show it<br /><br />______________________________________<br /><br /><br />this is the sign i was talking abt in the previous entry<br /><br /><br /><p><img id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5274513758050631186" style="DISPLAY: block; MARGIN: 0px auto 10px; WIDTH: 240px; CURSOR: hand; HEIGHT: 320px; TEXT-ALIGN: center" alt="" src="http://2.bp.blogspot.com/_g1tUWiMYIGQ/STLWUT-EvhI/AAAAAAAAAHA/x1VRjuuMM2s/s320/DSC00611.JPG" border="0" /><br />it wasnt really made use of<br />(i mean the bin)<br />and everything was everywhere<br /><br />______________________________________<br /><br /><br />this is what somebody has done to the poor hanger<br /><br /><br /><img id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5274513769440396178" style="DISPLAY: block; MARGIN: 0px auto 10px; WIDTH: 320px; CURSOR: hand; HEIGHT: 240px; TEXT-ALIGN: center" alt="" src="http://2.bp.blogspot.com/_g1tUWiMYIGQ/STLWU-Zmw5I/AAAAAAAAAHI/7uDiTvMhSsM/s320/DSC00621.JPG" border="0" /><br />i found it hanging on the rack<br /><br />______________________________________<br /><br />think cheng is doing the spotcheck </p><p>till pei alr knows what cheng is gg to say<br />lols.<br /><br />______________________________________<br /><br /><br />L said<br />it's obvious tt i still care alot<br />just tt i'm holding back<br /><br /><br />______________________________________<br /><br />this particular incident i rmbd.<br />tt was what made me realised<br />i felt it. felt it from you.<br /><br />回忆<br />好甜.好苦<br /><br />当时<br />我真的感受到了<br />我知道是真的<br /><br />____________________________________________<br /><br /><br />*super nice song*<br /><u></u>*uploaded :)*</p><p>*ps. the song title published on imeen is incorrect*</p><p>*the correct one is as seen below*<br /><br /><u>我是女人 - Kiss<br /></u><br />도대체 알 수가 없어 남자들의 마음<br />원할 땐 언제고 다 주니 이제 떠난대<br />이런적 처음이라고 너는 특별하다는<br />그 말을 믿었어 내겐 행복이었어<br />말을 하지 그랬어 내가 싫어졌다고<br />눈치가 없는 난 늘 보채기만 했어<br />너를 욕하면서도 많이 그리울거야<br />사랑이 전부인 나는 여자이니까<br />모든걸 쉽게 다 주면 금방 싫증내는게<br />남자라 들었어 틀린 말 같진 않아<br />다시는 속지 않으리 마음먹어 보지만<br />또다시 사랑에 무너지는게 여자야<br />말을 하지 그랬어 내가 싫어졌다고<br /><br />눈치가 없는 난 늘 보채기만 했어<br />너를 욕하면서도 많이 그리울거야<br />사랑이 전부인 나는 여자이니까<br /><br />[narration]<br />오늘 우린 헤어졌어 부디 행복하라고<br />너보다 좋은 사람만나길 바란다고<br />너도 다른 남자랑 똑같애 날 사랑한다고 말한땐 언제고<br />솔직히 나 네가 잘 되는거 싫어<br />나보다 예쁜 여자 만나 행복하게 잘 살면 어떡해<br />그러다 날 정말 잊어버리면 어떡해<br />난 이렇게 힘든데 힘들어 죽겠는데<br />아직도 널 너무 사랑하는데<br /><br />사랑을 위해서라면 모든 다 할 수 있는<br />여자의 착한 본능을 이용하지는 말아줘<br />한여자로 태어나 사랑받고 사는게<br />이렇게 힘들고 어려울줄 몰랐어<br />너를 욕하면서도 많이 그리울거야<br />사랑이 전부인 나는 여자이니까<br />너를 욕하면서도 많이 그리울거야<br />사랑이 전부인 나는 여자이니까<br /><br />(translated)<br />oh ， yeah 。。。 </p><p>到底能否了解男人的心?</p><p>何时爱着我 把心交出 而你却弃我而去 你曾说第一次这样心动 去感受一个特别的人这话让我深信不疑 让我幸福 言尤在耳 你的爱却已不再 </p><p>傻傻的我却还追在你的左右 嘴上把你埋怨 心中仍把你牵挂 爱是一切 只因我生为女人（重复） </p><p>轻易将自己付出 却很快让你厌倦 男人们就是这样无情意 </p><p><br />下定决心不再轻易付出 再次陷入爱的漩涡的还是女人<br /></p><p>许是因了这样 你不再爱我 傻傻的我却还追在你的左右<br /></p><p>嘴上把你埋怨 心中仍把你牵挂 爱是一切 只因我生为女人<br /><br />为了爱情 付出一切 心甘情愿 请别不要利用女人这柔弱天性<br /></p><p>身为女人 原该被一生宠爱 不曾想爱是如此辛苦和艰难<br /></p><p>嘴上把你埋怨 心中仍把你牵挂 爱是一切 只因我生为女人<br /></p><p>嘴上把你埋怨 心中仍把你牵挂 爱是一切 只因我生为女人 </p><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/8845526-5594279014859954865?l=moibloggie.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>JeeCheng 지챙 . 루찡 RuJinghttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08592579252247217346noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8845526.post-69671360957862618082008-11-30T00:35:00.005+08:002008-11-30T01:44:14.258+08:00thk you for helping me out w the hard drive thingy<br /><br />___________________________________<br /><br />i dont know.<br />i really dont know<br /><br />___________________________________<br /><br /><br />it seems like<br /><br />..<br /><br />we're just affecting each other as much<br /><br /><br />is this really a good idea?<br />is thr really a way?<br /><br />__________________________________<br /><br />i realised i'm v sensitive to ecp.<br /><br />__________________________________<br /><br />another realisation<br />i'm missing quite a number of ppl<br />好想念<br /><br />__________________________________<br /><br /><br />today work is crazy<br /><br /><br /><br /><img id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5274122995496414594" style="DISPLAY: block; MARGIN: 0px auto 10px; WIDTH: 320px; CURSOR: hand; HEIGHT: 240px; TEXT-ALIGN: center" alt="" src="http://3.bp.blogspot.com/_g1tUWiMYIGQ/STFy68BIbYI/AAAAAAAAAGo/kOeh5qDDVOs/s320/DSC00608.JPG" border="0" />just look at the queue.<br />*taken from my counter which is right at the end*<br />*and it's not a str8 queue. snake!*<br /><br /><br /><img id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5274122996619539250" style="DISPLAY: block; MARGIN: 0px auto 10px; WIDTH: 240px; CURSOR: hand; HEIGHT: 320px; TEXT-ALIGN: center" alt="" src="http://1.bp.blogspot.com/_g1tUWiMYIGQ/STFy7AM58zI/AAAAAAAAAGw/8bYNuDHRxwg/s320/DSC00605.JPG" border="0" /><br />and see what the "nice" shoppers did.<br />they took the items and discard them at a side<br /><br /><br />when we actually have wagons<br />tt asks customers to leave whatever unwanted items there<br /><br />____________________________________________<br /><br />john little internal ... ...<br /><br />the min i reached,<br />she kept pushing me to go watch the scene<br /><br />_____________________________________________<br /><br />gone is the interrogation<br />more complains and grumbles<br />tahan!<br /><br />i would have thot she got more experience<br />but she actually listened and did what i said.<br />wah~<br />*peng*<br /><br />but then hor.. ..<br /><br />____________________________________________<br /><br /><br />on a lighter note:<br /><br /><img id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5274123007843210402" style="DISPLAY: block; MARGIN: 0px auto 10px; WIDTH: 320px; CURSOR: hand; HEIGHT: 240px; TEXT-ALIGN: center" alt="" src="http://3.bp.blogspot.com/_g1tUWiMYIGQ/STFy7qA1lKI/AAAAAAAAAG4/65Lnx3xL0c4/s320/DSC00609.JPG" border="0" /><br /><p>my "nxt door" promoter, carol and me</p>she arh. likes to tease me.<br />(bcos o my partner)<br /><br />and we were gossiping abt<br />...<br />tt in-describeable staff<br />lol<br /><br />her husband always come to wait for her after work<br />*so sweet*<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/8845526-6967136095786261808?l=moibloggie.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>JeeCheng 지챙 . 루찡 RuJinghttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08592579252247217346noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8845526.post-30978102097767423572008-11-29T00:12:00.003+08:002008-11-29T01:54:48.003+08:00ai-yee!!!<br />i missed the auspicious date<br /><br />was too tired to create the new<br />*sighs*<br /><br />wuan,<br />help me choose the new auspicious date?<br /><br />_____________________________________<br /><br />sweet but fierce<br /><br />_____________________________________<br /><br />simple yet complicated<br /><br />_____________________________________<br /><br />i think i've been thinking alot lately<br /><br />perhaps abit too much<br /><br />_____________________________________<br /><br />i'm driving myself crazy<br /><br />_____________________________________<br /><br />distinction b/w relationships<br />and the level o it<br /><br />_____________________________________<br /><br />i think my girlfriends are gg to kill me<br /><br />_____________________________________<br /><br /><br />eek.<br />i'm gg crazy being in the midst o so many sales item<br /><br />feel more like doing shopping<br /><br />temptations.<br /><br />argh.<br /><br />no.no.<br />jeecheng, you cannot!<br /><br />*pei, scold cheng le?*<br /><br />___________________________________________<br /><br />i feel like i'm being interrogated<br /><br />i'm not just another typical dumb girl<br />so dont talk abt<br />"the girls nowadays arh..."<br /><br />i also girl leh.<br />and not all girls are the same<br /><br />and yup,<br />this is not my first job.<br /><br />other than being overly chatty<br />(oh yes, she is and she knows it.<br />can even tell me her sons keep saying she v naggy<br />*pengz*<br />and give me reasons tt it cld be probably due to the fact tt she doesnt have any daughters)<br /><br />and the interrogation<br /><br />i think she's ok<br />heh.<br /><br />but i think her sons better find her a homely daughter-in-law<br />if not the sons sure poor thing de<br />and i'm gonna pity tt girl<br />since she got so much complains abt "the girls nowadays"<br /><br />overall,<br />i think i kinda gained her "respect"<br />after the "interrogation"<br />she wldnt dare say so much<br />or look down on me<br />i am not just another 小妹妹<br /><br />*i'm proud of who i am*<br /><br />but one can nv be too careful<br />watch your words<br />especially in the workforce<br /><br />words within words<br />message within message<br />catch the meaning behind<br />but dont interpret wrongly<br />*careful*<br /><br />___________________________________________<br /><br />i'm tired from all the work<br /><br />so many ppl<br />especially after work<br />the trains are jammed pack.<br /><br />i suddenly wished i struck lottery<br />won a car and know how to drive<br />or better still<br />have a chauffeur<br />*so tired*<br />and it takes so long to get home<br /><br />or just bump into some1 who can send me home on the way<br /><br />*in your dreams jeecheng!*<br />eek.<br /><br />____________________________________________<br /><br />i'm missing...<br /><br />i'm missing..<br /><br />____________________________________________<br /><br />i dont know why i 突然之间<br />很想念 wuan today<br /><br />so much so tt i msg her just to say<br />i miss you<br /><br />another 贴心的朋友<br /><br />我不是只是那种说说的<br />this kind o things<br />i only say it if i mean it<br /><br /><br />but i do know some ppl say it<br />just to say it<br />and dont really mean it<br />tt sucks<br /><br />________________________________________<br /><br />yupei,<br />jiayou!<br /><br />________________________________________<br /><br />jol,<br />jiayou!<br /><br />thr's nthing wrong<br />nthing wrong<br />i just feel tt you shldnt<br /><br />old habits die hard<br />a leopard nv changes its spots<br /><br />________________________________________<br /><br />a nice song<br /><br />Love Me For A Reason - Boyzone<br /><br />Girl when you hold me<br />How you control me<br />You bend and you fold me<br />Any way you please<br /><br />It must be easy for you<br />To love the things that you do<br />But just a pastime for you<br />I could never be<br /><br />And I never know girl<br />If I should stay or go<br />Cos the games that you play<br />Are driving me away...<br /><br /><br />Don't love me for fun girl<br />Let me be the one girl<br />Love Me For a Reason<br />Let the reason be love<br /><br />Don't love me for fun, girl<br />Let me be the one, girl<br />Love Me For a Reason<br />Let the reason be love<br /><br /><br />Kisses and caresses<br />Are only minor tests, babe<br />Of love turned to stresses<br />Between a woman and a man<br />So if love everlasting<br />Isn't what you're asking<br />I'll have to pass, girl<br />I'm proud to take a stand<br /><br />I can't continue guessing<br />Because it's only messing<br />With my pride, and my mind<br />So write down this time to time<br /><br /><br />Don't love me for fun, girl<br />Let me be the one, girl<br />Love Me For a Reason<br />Let the reason be love<br /><br />Don't love me for fun, girl<br />Let me be the one, girl<br />Love Me For a Reason<br />Let the reason be love<br /><br />I'm just a little olf-fashioned<br />It takes more than a physical attraction<br />My initial reaction is<br />Honey give me a love<br />Not a fascimile of<br /><br />Don't love me for fun, girl<br />Let me be the one, girl<br />Love Me For a Reason<br />Let the reason be love<br /><br />Don't love me for fun, girl<br />Let me be the one, girl<br />Love Me For a Reason<br />Let the reason be love<br /><br /><br />*sweet*<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/8845526-3097810209776742357?l=moibloggie.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>JeeCheng 지챙 . 루찡 RuJinghttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08592579252247217346noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8845526.post-21025125816914138572008-11-26T23:42:00.002+08:002008-11-27T00:13:08.813+08:00for the previous post,<br />the part abt the rich and poor<br /><br />it does not include those who are wholeheartedly in a r/s w rich ppl<br /><br />_______________________________________________<br /><br />i suddenly feel v lucky<br />a fortunate girl<br />^^<br />_______________________________________________<br /><br />for the jeecheng tt's here today<br />i think i have especially 2 guys to thk for<br /><br />one is my dad<br />the other<br />you know who you are<br /><br />tt is for the especially part<br /><br />and of course not forgetting the impt ppl<br />and ppl i have ard me :)<br />*treasuring you peeps*<br />^^<br /><br />_______________________________________________<br /><br />i realised i like to reminise abt the past<br />i'm always missing the good old days.<br /><br />sighs.<br />i dont know if it's a good or bad thing.<br /><br />做人还必须向前看<br /><br />_______________________________________________<br /><br />i realised i enjoy talking to you<br />and i missed it badly<br /><br />oh mans.<br />what is this?<br />_______________________________________________<br /><br />work today seems better.<br /><br />but tt's this person.. .. ..<br />i dont know how to describe<br /><br />cant decide b/w<br />...<br /><br />_______________________________________________<br /><br />wuan, rmb this song?<br />*heard this song on the radio while working today<br />and it defo brought back memories*<br /><br /><u>ALL THE LOVE IN THE WORLD (The Corrs)<br /></u><br />I'm not looking for someone to talk to<br />I've got my friends<br />I'm more than O.K.<br /><br />I've got more than a girl could wish for<br />I live my dreams<br />but it's not all they say<br />Still I believe (I'm missing)<br />I'm missing something real<br />I need someone who really sees me...<br /><br />(Don't wanna wake...) Don't wanna wake up alone anymore<br />Still believing you'll walk through my door<br />All I need is to know it's for sure<br />Then I'll give... all the love in the world<br /><br />I've often wondered if love's an illusion<br />Just to get you through<br />the loneliest days<br />I can't criticize it<br />I have no hestitaion<br />My imagination just stole me away<br /><br />(Still...) Still I believe<br />(I'm missing) I'm missing something real<br />I need someone who really sees me...<br /><br />(Don't wanna wake...) Don't wanna wake up alone anymore<br />Still believing you'll walk through my door<br />All I need is to know it's for sure<br />Then I'll give... all the love in the world<br /><br />Love's for a lifetime<br />not for a moment<br />So how could I throw it away<br />Yeah<br />I'm only human<br />And nights grow colder<br />With no-one to love me that way<br />Yeah I need someone who really sees me...<br /><br />(Don't wanna wake...) And i won't wake up alone anymore<br />Still believing you'll walk through my door<br />You'll reach for me and I'll know it's for sure<br />Then I'll give all the love in the world<br /><br />(Don't wanna wake up alone anymore...)<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/8845526-2102512581691413857?l=moibloggie.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>JeeCheng 지챙 . 루찡 RuJinghttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08592579252247217346noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8845526.post-76707554321141139982008-11-26T11:23:00.003+08:002008-11-27T00:31:17.969+08:00i'd prefer a long bus ride<br />than many short ones<br />__________________________________<br /><br />oh nos,<br />this is no good.<br />no good.<br /><br />sighs.<br /><br />___________________________________<br /><br />work ytd was tiring<br />and it was like<br /><br />...<br /><br />*oh mans*<br /><br />made me think of the old days when i used to worked in the boutique<br />the good.the bad.the sweetness.the innocence.<br />the fun.the teasing.the ppl.<br /><br />i used to look forward to the end o work in eagerness to ..<br /><br />now i look forward to the end<br />bcos i just want to get home and slp<br /><br />so tired till i just wished tt i have pte transport to go home<br /><br /><br />tired till a pt when i cldnt care for image.<br />glam or unglam.<br />i slpt in the train and bus.<br /><br />______________________________________________<br /><br />some thots<br /><br />what's real?<br />i dont know.<br /><br />i know some ppl do things for others so tt they get sth back in return.<br />benefit for benefit.<br />consideration.<br />eeky.<br />some can even openly ask<br />"so what do i get in return?"<br /><br />stunned.<br />but tt's the world huh.<br />but for tt,<br />at least<br />you know<br />scary wld be those silently wanting sth in return<br />which you may not have an idea what.<br /><br /><br />my point is<br />if you want to help<br />or do anything for anybody<br />do it wholeheartedly<br />do it bcos you want to<br /><br />not bcos you get benefits<br />unless you're talking abt work.<br />that's legal issues.<br /><br />____________________________________<br /><br />*disclaimer:<br />this are just my thots.<br />no ill meaning<br />no ill intentions<br />and refering to no one in particular*<br /><br />the idea abt sugar daddy/mummies/ ... ... ...<br /><br />i think i'm not into it.<br />in fact i think i'm digusted by the idea.<br /><br />but some may give resons tt the world is just so practical<br />they have no choice or whatsoever.<br />but i think anyone has a choice to choose<br />i agree abt the practicality part<br />too practical in fact.<br />tt's the disgusting part.<br />ppl making use of one another<br />so bmuch so tt sometimes<br />you dont know what's real and what's not<br /><br />money cannot buy happiness.<br />money cannot buy sth true.<br /><br />i think it's sad.<br />its rather pathetic in a way.<br />the old rich guy just having a young pretty girl to show off<br />the young pretty girl just for his money.<br /><br />yup,have always joked abt getting some1 rich.<br />but those are just jokes.<br /><br />i know i'd rather have some1 not rich<br />some1 i know tt i can work towards our future tgt<br />some1 whom i know i'll truly love<br />and him truly love me back<br />thr'll be hardships<br />of course<br />but i believe i'd be happier off<br />than getting some1 who's darn rich and<br />i have no idea how he spends his money away<br /><br />ppl aged.<br />looks and appearance will change.<br /><br />so what happens when the girls doesnt look as pretty anymore?<br /><br /><br />it's true tt w/o money<br />there are alot o things you cant do<br />but even w money,<br />it's not everything tt you can get as well.<br /><br />some tell me tt my thinking wil change as i get older<br />it'd be real easy to succumb to monetary benefits if one really needs money<br />but i doubt so for me<br />i hold my grounds strongly<br />i dont play w emotions<br />i'm not a person who goes for the riches<br />i'd rather scrimp and save and work hard for sth i really want<br /><br />i dont waiver easily<br /><br /><br /><br />_______________________________________________<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/8845526-7670755432114113998?l=moibloggie.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>JeeCheng 지챙 . 루찡 RuJinghttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08592579252247217346noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8845526.post-91402089027129565342008-11-24T21:40:00.005+08:002008-11-25T00:10:23.360+08:00不哭的人 不代表坚强<br />会哭的人 不代表懦弱<br /><br />_________________________<br /><br />到现在<br />我还是认为<br />一个人必须活得快乐<br /><br />健康重要<br />但是快乐跟重要<br /><br />我会开开心心<br />快快乐乐<br />坚强的过以后的日子<br /><br />and yes, this is me.<br />always the strong girl you have known<br /><br />or rather,<br />many knows<br />___________________________________<br /><br />now tt i'm not thr to tkc o you anymore<br />pls tk gd care o yourself<br /><br />as for me<br />i also know tt<br />i'll take gd care o myself too<br /><br /><br />no one has blamed you<br />no one hates you.<br />i dont hate you at all.<br />really.<br />even my parents. they dont.<br /><br />its yourself.<br />pls forgive yourself.<br />i dont know how<br />and i dont know when<br />but you have to<br />..<br /><br />get over your own barrier<br />i sure do hope you'll be able to<br />and only you can help yourself w tt<br />i can only play a supportive role<br /><br />only then<br /><br />..<br /><br />only then<br /><br /><br />...<br /><br /><br />_______________________________________<br /><br /><span style="font-size:130%;">歌名：原谅我</span><br /><span style="font-size:130%;"></span><br /><span style="font-size:130%;">歌手：萧敬腾</span><br /><span style="font-size:130%;"></span><br /><span style="font-size:130%;">所属专辑：同名专辑 </span><br /><span style="font-size:130%;"></span><br /><span style="font-size:130%;"></span><br /><span style="font-size:130%;"></span><br /><span style="font-size:130%;">请不要分了以後</span><br /><span style="font-size:130%;">　<br />还记得亲吻过的承诺</span><br /><span style="font-size:130%;"><br />你的永久　已不属於我</span><br /><br /><span style="font-size:130%;">默默低头　那时我很多</span><br /><span style="font-size:130%;">　<br />话哽在喉咙 </span><br /><br /><br /><span style="font-size:130%;">你的笑你的快乐</span><br /><span style="font-size:130%;">　<br />或许我爱太多想太多 </span><br /><br /><span style="font-size:130%;">我能感受　他比我适合 </span><br /><br /><span style="font-size:130%;">爱放了手　我伪装冷漠</span><br /><span style="font-size:130%;">　<br />比你先说分手 </span><br /><span style="font-size:130%;"><br /></span><br /><br /><span style="font-size:130%;">请原谅我　原谅我不成熟 </span><br /><br /><span style="font-size:130%;">不爱你是借口　好让你离开我 </span><br /><br /><span style="font-size:130%;">请原谅我　好想自私将你占有 </span><br /><br /><span style="font-size:130%;">一个寂寞就给我承受 </span><br /><br /><span style="font-size:130%;">换你过更好的生活 </span><br /><span style="font-size:130%;"><br /></span><br /><br /><span style="font-size:130%;">请不要分了以後　<br /></span><br /><span style="font-size:130%;">还记得亲吻过的承诺<br /></span><br /><span style="font-size:130%;">你的永久　已不属於我<br /></span><br /><span style="font-size:130%;">默默低头　那时我很多　<br /></span><br /><span style="font-size:130%;">话哽在喉咙<br /></span><br /><span style="font-size:130%;"><br /></span><br /><span style="font-size:130%;">你的笑你的快乐　<br /></span><br /><span style="font-size:130%;">或许我爱太多想太多<br /></span><br /><span style="font-size:130%;">我能感受　他比我适合<br /></span><br /><span style="font-size:130%;">爱放了手　我伪装冷漠　<br /></span><br /><span style="font-size:130%;">比你先说分手<br /></span><br /><span style="font-size:130%;"><br /></span><br /><span style="font-size:130%;">请原谅我　原谅我不成熟<br /></span><br /><span style="font-size:130%;">不爱你是借口　好让你离开我<br /></span><br /><span style="font-size:130%;">请原谅我　好想自私将你占有<br /></span><br /><span style="font-size:130%;">你的寂寞就给我承受<br /></span><br /><span style="font-size:130%;">换你过更好的生活<br /></span><br /><span style="font-size:130%;"><br /></span><br /><span style="font-size:130%;">爱过恨过哭过也笑过<br /></span><br /><span style="font-size:130%;">亲吻过你的脆弱<br /></span><br /><span style="font-size:130%;">其实我比谁都要懦弱<br /></span><br /><span style="font-size:130%;"><br /></span><br /><span style="font-size:130%;">原谅我　必须假装爱错<br /></span><br /><span style="font-size:130%;">别让时间逗留　我怕说不出口<br /></span><br /><span style="font-size:130%;">原谅我　没有解释太多　心痛<br /></span><br /><span style="font-size:130%;">别无所求　彻底忘了我 爱原来要舍得<br /></span><br /><span style="font-size:130%;">我難過　我才懂</span><br /><br /><br />is part of this what you want me to know?<br /><br />_______________________________________<br /><br />it's surprising<br />after so long<br />things can still be so coincidental<br /><br />i dont know what all these are trying to tell me<br />i have been so determined<br /><br /><br />and 通常<br />当一个女人做了决定<br />是很难改的<br /><br />now what?<br /><br />难道一切真的是命中注定吗？<br />我真的搞不懂<br /><br />i made a decision.<br />one tt leaves me sad as well<br /><br />but i dont know if it's really wise anot.<br />it doesnt help knowing tt my heart still skips a beat<br /><br />but i'm ok.<br />i really am<br /><br />taking it easy<br /><br />_______________________________________<br /><br />argh.<br />my whole body is really aching.<br />sighs.<br /><br />____________________________________<br /><br />thx for your kind intentions<br />but dont want means dont want.<br />stop irritating me.<br />i dont care if other jobs seems slavery<br />as long as i think it'll be better<br />____________________________________<br /><br />i would be opening a new blog a/c soon<br /><br /><br />as for this blog<br />it'll just be left somewhere in this virtual world<br /><br /><br />serving as part o my memories and thots<br />all the precious<br />the hurts<br />the happiness<br /><br />or perhaps not a full closure<br />cos i've heard it's quite a place for ppl to emo<br /><br />and certain friends like certain entries<br /><br /><br />perhaps<br /><br /><br />perhaps<br /><br />i'll come back some day to blog.<br /><br /><br />*dont wry friends who want to read,<br />i'll inform the min i start a new one*<br /><br />________________________________________<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/8845526-9140208902712956534?l=moibloggie.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>JeeCheng 지챙 . 루찡 RuJinghttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08592579252247217346noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8845526.post-11612733506319161632008-11-21T01:29:00.003+08:002008-11-21T20:26:08.778+08:00a hundreds thots in mind.<br /><br />and<br /><br />sleepless nights<br />__________________________________<br /><br />sometimes i look at how the world is turning to<br />i feel sad<br /><br />i feel the world is becoming more pathetic.<br /><br />true,<br />thr are still beauty in the world<br />and we shld be living well bcos o these beauty<br /><br />somtimes i can just look at these wonders of the world<br />this beautiful world<br />and smile to myself<br /><br /><br />but human.<br />i think are ruining it<br /><br />the world is dying.<br />the ppl changing.<br />inevitable.<br />for the better or for the worse?<br /><br />i dont know if i'm emo-ing now or what<br />but it's just..<br /><br />_____________________________________<br /><br />i think mankind<br />has made the simple world<br />into a complicated one<br /><br />_____________________________________<br /><br />saw my bro's grad day itinery<br /><br />really brings back memories.<br />bittersweet.<br /><br /><br />i really miss the good old days<br />@ queenstown<br /><br />esp when i saw the lyrics of<br />auld lang sync<br /><br /><br />tears formed at the corner o my eyes<br />nostalgia<br /><br />i dont know if it's just me or what<br />am i too sentimental?<br />too emotional?<br /><br />i hold memories v close to my heart<br />and when i think<br />i really rmb all the moments<br /><br />i dont even know it's good or bad thing<br /><br /><br />i rmb<br />the way we stood on the chairs<br />and sang tt song<br />we cried and slinged our arms over each other<br /><br />and we even got ourselves reprimanded by the tcher for doing tt<br />bcos they believe we shld uphold an image<br /><br /><br />even the close friendship forged<br />graduation spells separation for most of us<br />天下无不散之宴席<br /><br /><br />*really miss those good old days*<br /><br />i think those were the best years of my life<br />young and carefree<br /><br />______________________________________<br /><br />anws,<br />on a lighter note:<br /><br />met up w carasse!<br />after so long.<br />lols.<br /><br />days in the mcd.<br />*also part o my sec sch days then*<br /><br />so many queenstownians working thr.<br />wells, she isnt from queenstown<br /><br />but this goes showing how long we've known each other<br />and tt's like when i was 14?<br />and how long ago was tt?<br />abt 5-6yrs alr!!!!!<br /><br /><br />wah~i feel so old now.<br /><br />really glad to meet up w her :)<br /><br /><br />those were the days.<br />even working at mcd was fun<br /><br />did i just said fun?<br />lols.<br /><br />________________________________________<br /><br />met a new fren today<br />and we just click<br /><br />glad tt i chose to go union tonight<br /><br />^^<br /><br />cos it's not always tt you can just talk to a person easily<br />esp when you just know a person<br /><br />usually i'll take a long time b4 i really open up<br />although i may seem friendly<br />and easy to talk to<br /><br />it takes time<br />and some ppl<br />even knowing for some time<br />still dont know me<br /><br /><br />or perhaps<br /><br /><br /><br /><br />maybe<br /><br />i just choose to keep to myself<br /><br /><br />oh wells<br /><br />__________________________________________<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/8845526-1161273350631916163?l=moibloggie.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>JeeCheng 지챙 . 루찡 RuJinghttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08592579252247217346noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8845526.post-24717990867353805022008-11-19T15:10:00.003+08:002008-11-19T23:22:47.417+08:00think i've done alot o stupid things.<br />and from somewhere i heard<br />ppl says its ok.<br /><br />it's only thru mistakes tt ppl learn.<br />and as ppl learn<br />they become wiser.<br /><br />i hope i'm wise enough now<br /><br />____________________________________<br /><br />i dont know by doing tt<br />i am harming myself<br />or<br />making myself better<br /><br />i'm in a state o dilemma<br /><br />i'm confused<br />i'm scared.i'm afraid.<br />_____________________________________<br /><br />sometimes i feel like being selfish.<br />i dont want to care so much<br />but i cant do tt<br /><br />tt's irresponsibilty.<br />i have to think o others<br /><br /><br />i wish...<br /><br />..<br /><br /><br />__________________________________________<br /><br />sometimes i just wish all these worries and hurt will go away<br /><br /><br />go away<br /><br /><br />go far far away<br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br />and leave me alone<br /><br />___________________________________________<br /><br />i love<br />i hate<br />___________________________________________<br /><br />ohs,<br />i definitely hate irresponsible two-timers!<br /><br />purposely out to hurt.<br />if not, it's selfish bastards.<br /><br /><br />and if you cant forget your first,<br />do not make use of another.<br /><br />it's not fair.<br /><br />you'll end up hurting each other<br /><br />and if you think it's fun.<br />the other may not.<br /><br />feelings are not meant to be played.<br />dont hurt others just bcos you're hurt b4.<br /><br />what goes ard, comes ard.<br /><br />damn you.<br /><br />______________________________________<br /><br />eek.<br />i think i'm super embarrassed le la~<br /><br /><br /><br />need more practise!!!!<br /><br />but its ok.<br />i laughed at myself too.<br />felt so embarrassed tt i just sat down on the floor and laughed.<br /><br />hahas.<br /><br />_______________________________________<br /><br />anws, photoblog updated.<br />the one on the visit to the southern ridges.<br />^^<br />more to come!<br /><br />think the sci centre one will take a long time...<br /><br /><br />156 pics!!!<br />omg-ed.<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/8845526-2471799086735380502?l=moibloggie.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>JeeCheng 지챙 . 루찡 RuJinghttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08592579252247217346noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8845526.post-36483442452150032802008-11-13T23:03:00.006+08:002008-11-14T12:16:58.046+08:00disclaimer:<br />do not read if you dont like what i post here<br /><br />or if you object to anything i say<br />pls have valid grounds.<br /><br />bcos<br /><br />this is not gg to be nice post.<br />______________________________________<br /><br />i want to scream<br /><br /><br />and i damn hell<br /><br />feel like ar-bishing some ppl up.<br /><br /><br /><br />*pei, dont wry, it's not you although i feel like doing tt to you sometimes.<br />but your ar-bishing is different kind de*<br /><br />______________________________________________<br /><br />i dont understand guys.<br />i dont think i nv will anw.<br /><br />wad kind o idiotic brains they have.<br /><br />all of you stop!!!!!<br /><br /><br />words cant be trusted.<br /><br /><br />______________________________________________<br /><br />if you dont even think tt you can accept the age gap,<br />then dont lead ppl on.<br /><br />damn you.<br /><br /><br />now then you say.<br />after all the harm tt you've done?<br /><br /><br />f***-ing hell.<br />get lost.<br />get a life.<br />and dont make my friend your sparetire.<br /><br /><br />i dont know if it was real for you anot<br />but you hurt my friend<br />you get it frm me.<br /><br />____________________________________________<br /><br />another.<br />if you are not ready for marriage<br />then why proposed?<br /><br /><br />and then say you're not prepared.<br />when the date is so near?<br />what kind of nonsense is this?<br /><br />_____________________________________________<br /><br />then you.<br />alr got such a good girlfriend.<br /><br />still thinking o doing things tt may lead you upset her?<br /><br /><br />still want to make the same damn hell mistake?<br />eek.<br /><br />i may not know your girlfriend personally<br />but i stand up for the female species<br />you guys are just so damn bastard.<br /><br />____________________________________________<br /><br />and what good feelings?<br />i dont want any.<br /><br />go away.<br />and anything tt you say now will make me think twice<br />i dont want to lose a friend<br /><br />so you better watch wad you say<br />you just made me become v weary o you<br />i dont know what you say is real.<br />or what you say is fake.<br />or what your intention is<br /><br />just stay clear well out o my path<br /><br /><br />and rich ppl.<br />will nv know how difficult it is to make a living based on yourself<br />i work hard for my own living expenses.<br /><br /><br />dont tempt me w money to do things which i dont wish to do.<br />although thr's nthing wrong w doing tt and tt its actually a good offer,<br /><br />it seems v tempting.<br />but i feel weird.<br /><br />and i dont want to be alone w you.<br /><br /><br />oh shit you.<br /><br />___________________________________________<br /><br />and ohs,<br />i'm not interested in flings.<br /><br />so back off.<br />___________________________________________<br /><br />so basically,<br />what does it sums up?<br /><br />guys are bastards.<br />they are trouble makers<br />they only create problem for us,<br />the ladies.<br /><br />___________________________________________<br /><br />on a lighter note:<br /><br />it's good to see elisa again.<br />^^<br />we gets hysterics<br />another crazy<br />easily worked up friend<br />lols.<br /><br />talk non-stop<br />hahas.<br />think we can just walk and talk<br />and not notice anything else<br /><br />__________________________________________<br /><br />today i personally cooked maggi for my sis by myself<br />ok, it's the first time i cooked w/o any help for someone<br />so feel honoured ok?<br />plus it's egg special hor~<br />bleah.<br /><br />i know it sounds funny.<br />but tt's the truth.<br /><br />yupei, dont jealous wor~<br />heex.<br />make sth for you nxt time.<br />but 难吃 cannot blame me arh~<br />still muz eat hor~<br />___________________________________________<br /><br />stay tuned to my photoblog.<br />will update soon.<br />it has died-ed for so long.<br />time for revival<br /><br />jianwen,<br />send me the e pics!<br />^^<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/8845526-3648344245215003280?l=moibloggie.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>JeeCheng 지챙 . 루찡 RuJinghttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08592579252247217346noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8845526.post-53736561987343693102008-11-10T22:51:00.004+08:002008-11-12T23:35:57.698+08:00omg-ed. really tired.<br />think i'm really crazy.<br />lols.<br /><br />_________________________________<br /><br />in the end.<br /><br />today turned out to be<br /><br />abkk day<br />louis day<br />and not forgetting,<br />yenn.<br />hahas.<br /><br /><br />*jol, tkc ya?*<br /><br /><br />according to louis,<br />abkk is lth.<br />lols.<br /><br /><br />nice rain in the morning<br />but didnt slp in though<br /><br /><br />think josh prefer females over males.<br />lol<br />typical of him<br /><br /><br />follows us ard the hse if it's my female frens<br />see my male frens?<br />he's off to my parents.<br />lol<br /><br />_____________________________________<br /><br />wah~<br />think i talked the most to yenn today.<br /><br />nv talk to her so much b4 leh.<br />or perhaps i getting too talkative alr?<br /><br />oh nos.<br />hahas.<br /><br />*i wasnt really laughing at your hair*<br />_____________________________________<br /><br />and the craziest part abt today?<br /><br /><br />i walked all the way frm raffles to vivo.<br /><br /><br /><br />think i muz be mad.<br /><br /><br /><br />after meeting louis for lunch at raffles,<br />i was to go vivo for my appt.<br /><br />thot i cld just cross over to clifford to take bus<br />but cldnt find a way to cross the road<br />so i just continued walking<br /><br /><br />after walking for quite some time<br />i realised tt i didnt see any bus stop in the direction i was walking<br /><br /><br /><br />only then did i realised it was a one-way road in the opposite direction!!!!!!!<br /><br />*peng*<br /><br /><br />and looking at the time,<br />i was thinking tt thr's still time.<br /><br />so heck la~<br />just walk.<br />not v far anyway.<br /><br /><br /><br />turned out tt i miscalculated the distance<br /><br />*peng again*<br /><br />so abt a 20-30 mins bus ride,<br />i took abt an hr to walk.<br /><br />*triple peng*<br /><br /><br /><br />louis said i muz be crazy after i told him.<br />admit i am.<br /><br />but i kinda njy walks. lol.<br />but then again,<br />think night better.<br />quieter.<br />_________________________________________<br /><br />thur = elisa day!<br />^^<br /><br />anymore?<br /><br /><br />*looking forward!<br />free movie! free popcorn! free drink!<br />hahas.<br />yea man!*<br /><br />___________________________________________<br /><br />oh man.<br />i think i'm a bad influence.<br /><br /><br />on jianwen<br /><br /><br />lols.<br /><br /><br />jianwen,<br />you bad girl.<br /><br />_________________________________________<br /><br />life.<br /><br />要趁年轻<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/8845526-5373656198734369310?l=moibloggie.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>JeeCheng 지챙 . 루찡 RuJinghttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08592579252247217346noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8845526.post-64165643781864114912008-11-10T00:20:00.004+08:002008-11-10T01:17:03.361+08:00sometimes<br /><br />just go w the flow<br /><br /><br /><br />things will just fall in nicely<br /><br />^^<br /><br />______________________________________<br /><br />a day dedicated to myself<br /><br /><br /><br />but<br /><br />ai-yee!!!!!<br /><br /><br />i didnt do what i intended to do<br />sighs.<br /><br /><br />just so typically me.<br /><br /><br /><br />played games.<br />omg-ed.<br />妹妹 says i today weird weird de<br />lols<br />think too slack alr<br /><br /><br />and yup,<br />i slacked the entire day away<br />think the more i slack<br />the more tired i feel<br /><br /><br /><br />think cld be due to the hectic life i have<br />body not used to slack life<br />lols<br />so the minute i take a break<br />my body just break down<br /><br /><br />lols.<br />no.no.<br />getting back on track again.<br />^^<br /><br />______________________________________<br /><br />let's see<br /><br />mon = louis and jolene day<br />tue = tuition day?<br />wed = huemin day. minshan?<br /><br /><br />hmmz.<br /><br />______________________________________<br /><br />yupei arh,<br />no jeecheng cannot concentrate study arh?<br />lols<br /><br /><br />cannot 偷偷 go orhorh hor~<br /><br /><br /><br /><br />ganbatte!<br /><br />_______________________________________<br /><br /><br />life is short.<br /><br /><br />_______________________________________<br /><br />some ppl say<br />人之初<br />性本善<br /><br />but others say<br />人之初<br />性本恶<br /><br /><br />which do you believe in?<br /><br /><br />i believe in neither<br />and i hope it's not the latter<br /><br /><br /><br />but does it matter?<br />i guess ppl change.<br />environmental factors play a part<br /><br /><br /><br />what i believe in the nature of humans.<br /><br />greediness.<br />ppl always want more.<br />nv know contentment<br />once contentment is reached,<br />they'd ask for more<br /><br />have always try to be just content w everything<br />i am content<br />but then again,<br />who doesnt want more?<br /><br /><br />if it's possible<br />i wld want everything if i can<br />i admit i'm greedy<br /><br /><br />and as time passes,<br />ppl forget how to be just contented w what they have<br /><br />i think i've been thr done tt<br />so i keep reminding myself<br /><br />treasure.<br />be content.<br /><br /><br /><br /><br />and laziness.<br />another human nature<br /><br />it's always<br />if thr's others to help?<br />why not.<br /><br />*trying to be not as lazy!!!!*<br />have to depend on myself!<br />argh.<br /><br /><br />cos dependency is dangerous<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/8845526-6416564378186411491?l=moibloggie.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>JeeCheng 지챙 . 루찡 RuJinghttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08592579252247217346noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8845526.post-71636489685445599352008-11-08T22:46:00.002+08:002008-11-08T23:11:05.238+08:00outings!!!!!!!!<br /><br />^^<br /><br />___________________________________<br /><br />met up w elisa!<br />*grins*<br /><br />although we hvt been in contact for such a lllooooonnnggg time<br />we still click well<br /><br />^^<br /><br />it only shows<br /><br />some ppl<br />you can just click<br /><br />and some<br />it'll just nv happen<br /><br />*grins*<br /><br /><br />*missing the times*<br /><br /><br /><br />aiyeeee...<br />we were so bz catching up<br />and talking to each other<br /><br />tt we didnt take much photos<br /><br />considering the fact tt the both o us likes to take pics<br /><br />sighs<br /><br /><br />oh wells,<br />nvm<br /><br /><br />thr'll always a nxt one rite?<br />^^<br />soon!<br /><br /><br /><br /><br />elisa!!!!!<br />swimming class!!!!<br /><br />com'on<br /><br /><br />go w me la~<br />^^<br /><br />________________________________________<br /><br />i like to "integrate" my friends tgt<br /><br />eh, actually only those closer ones la~<br />heh<br /><br />_________________________________________<br /><br />interesting<br /><br />_________________________________________<br /><br />i'm so dead-ed.<br /><br />but guess what?!?!<br /><br /><br />i dont care<br /><br />hahas.<br /><br />__________________________________________<br /><br />两位大哥哥说<br /><br />i'm still young<br />muz exposed myself to things<br /><br />but 当我问时<br />又不要告诉我<br /><br />think i'm out to burn my fingers again?<br /><br />___________________________________________<br /><br />i'm perfectly sane<br /><br />just abit crazy at times<br /><br /><br /><br />and i just lose all my image w i laugh<br />*sighs*<br /><br />__________________________________________<br /><br />ai-yee<br /><br />stop teasing me<br />*paiseh alr*<br /><br /><br />i v shy de<br />heex<br /><br />__________________________________________<br /><br />lols<br /><br />i'm v influential?<br />*the jeecheng-virus*<br /><br /><br /><br />lols.<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/8845526-7163648968544559935?l=moibloggie.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>JeeCheng 지챙 . 루찡 RuJinghttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08592579252247217346noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8845526.post-48662324084460361372008-11-06T23:10:00.002+08:002008-11-07T00:33:09.820+08:00finished up every single grain o rice<br />5 chix wings<br />kimchi<br />and a bowl o soup<br /><br /><br />i'm so darn full<br /><br /><br />guys,<br />i dont intend to have an appetite as big!<br />dont get me to finish up so much la<br />你们太看得起我了<br /><br />i'll grow fat at this rate<br /><br />a simple meal<br />but the food's nice<br />and i'm not complaining<br /><br /><br />but i just dont wanna get fat<br />lols<br />__________________________________<br /><br />grad trip?<br />tt's gona be 2 yrs ltr and planning alr?<br />*faints*<br /><br />i'd like to<br />but i dont think its v convenient for me<br /><br />unless<br /><br />...<br /><br />we'll see la huh<br />__________________________________<br /><br />i realised<br /><br />papa actually<br />挺疼我的<br /><br />*touched*<br /><br />__________________________________<br /><br />妹妹<br />nxt sem<br />要去 vietnam 了<br /><br />lucky her<br /><br /><br />so i'm gonna have the entire room for myself<br />friends up for slpover?<br />heh.<br /><br /><br /><br /><br />but i'll miss her<br /><br />__________________________________<br /><br />are what we are doing now an actual reality o our own decisions<br />is everthing actually planned for us?<br /><br />even the part o making decisions?<br /><br /><br />are we our own decision makers?<br />are we just pawns in life?<br /><br /><br /><br /><br />sth sparked me off<br />my tuitee said<br />everthing's actually predestined<br /><br /><br />*so he neednt study<br />since its alr bound tt he fail or pass*<br /><br />i was almost on my deathbed<br /><br /><br />but his innocent sentence made me think<br /><br /><br />*thots shall count on another day*<br /><br />____________________________________<br /><br /> <span style="font-size:130%;"><u>棋子 - 王菲</u> </span><br /><span style="font-size:130%;"></span><br /><span style="font-size:130%;">想走出你控制的领域</span><br /><span style="font-size:130%;"></span><br /><span style="font-size:130%;">却走近你安排的战局</span><br /><span style="font-size:130%;"> </span><br /><span style="font-size:130%;">我没有坚强的防备</span><br /><span style="font-size:130%;"> </span><br /><span style="font-size:130%;">也没有后路可以退 </span><br /><span style="font-size:130%;"></span><br /><span style="font-size:130%;"></span><br /><span style="font-size:130%;">想逃离你布下的陷阱 </span><br /><span style="font-size:130%;"></span><br /><span style="font-size:130%;">却陷入了另一个困境</span><br /><span style="font-size:130%;"> </span><br /><span style="font-size:130%;">我没有决定输蠃的勇气 </span><br /><span style="font-size:130%;"></span><br /><span style="font-size:130%;">也没有逃脱的幸运 </span><br /><span style="font-size:130%;"></span><br /><span style="font-size:130%;"></span><br /><span style="font-size:130%;">我像是一颗棋 </span><br /><span style="font-size:130%;"></span><br /><span style="font-size:130%;">进退任由你决定 </span><br /><span style="font-size:130%;"></span><br /><span style="font-size:130%;">我不是你眼中唯一将领 </span><br /><span style="font-size:130%;"></span><br /><span style="font-size:130%;">却是不起眼的小兵 </span><br /><span style="font-size:130%;"></span><br /><span style="font-size:130%;"></span><br /><span style="font-size:130%;">我像是一颗棋子 </span><br /><span style="font-size:130%;"></span><br /><span style="font-size:130%;">来去全不由自己 </span><br /><span style="font-size:130%;"></span><br /><span style="font-size:130%;">举手无悔你从不曾犹豫</span><br /><span style="font-size:130%;"> </span><br /><span style="font-size:130%;">我却受控在你手里<br /><br /><br />我却受控在你手里 </span><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/8845526-4866232408446036137?l=moibloggie.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>JeeCheng 지챙 . 루찡 RuJinghttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08592579252247217346noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8845526.post-63180514829168940882008-11-04T21:19:00.005+08:002008-11-05T23:41:32.715+08:00amanda!<br />i love ya to bits!<br />^^<br /><br />__________________________________________<br /><br /><br /><u>friends</u><br /><br />to top it off,<br /><br />i think friends are those who will automatically go to you<br />once they sense sth is not right<br /><br />and being a friend,<br />you'll defo go to him/her<br />if you sense tt sth is not right<br /><br />___________________________________________<br /><br />use logic to treat yourself<br />use feelings to treat others<br /><br />use your mind to rmb lessons learnt<br />and<br />use your heart to keep the memories<br /><br />___________________________________________<br /><br />i didnt know tt<br />treating a person nice<br />need reasons<br /><br />so just quit wondering<br />or asking<br />i also duno<br /><br /><br />if you find tt you're treating me too nicely<br />then just quit being so nice<br /><br />___________________________________________<br /><br /><br />eek.<br />some things dont have to be said<br />i didnt need to know<br />and i dont wish to know<br />nthing will ever come out o it<br /><br /><br />ppl in the right mind<br />wldnt say this kind o thing<br />in this kind o situation<br /><br /><br />made me wished i was still crying instead<br />this issue seems so much more complicated<br />and eeky<br /><br /><br /><br /><br />i duno if it's a joke or what<br />or perhaps you're seriously too bored<br />if it is<br />i dont find it funny at all<br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br />if not for the fact tt i felt indebted<br />and promises made<br />i wld have chosen total avoidance<br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br />but lucky<br /><br /><br />you're smart<br />now i feel slightly better<br />just dont talk rot alr<br /><br />____________________________________<br /><br />sickness has taken me<br />i'm not gg to surrender to you!<br /><br />____________________________________<br /><br /><br />went town on fri w jianwen<br />and this is what we saw<br /><br />or rather, heard<br /><br /><br /><img id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5264799077358121378" style="DISPLAY: block; MARGIN: 0px auto 10px; WIDTH: 320px; CURSOR: hand; HEIGHT: 240px; TEXT-ALIGN: center" alt="" src="http://4.bp.blogspot.com/_g1tUWiMYIGQ/SRBS3eO8MaI/AAAAAAAAAA0/L9KlfgsQqhE/s320/DSC00595.JPG" border="0" /><br /><p></p><p>it's so d*** noisy</p><p>attention seekers.</p><p>just want to show off</p><p></p><p>now i help promote</p><p> </p><p>DISCLAIMER:</p><p>this is written based on asspt</p><p>________________________________________</p><p></p><p>and ooh,</p><p>revenge can be real sweet</p><p>hahas.</p><p>_________________________________________</p><p>the world can just get so practical.</p><p>disgusting.</p><p>but this is the world huh.</p><p></p><p>considerations for everything.</p><p>_________________________________________</p>i miss gabriel kong!<br />and jerome<br />and my lil' lil' children<br /><br />i miss hearing them say<br /><br />"miss jee... ..."<br /><br />gabriel's morning kisses<br />jerome's sensibility<br />jefferson's superb ability to fix jigsaws<br /><br />and even<br />the naughty ones whom drives me crazy<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/8845526-6318051482916894088?l=moibloggie.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>JeeCheng 지챙 . 루찡 RuJinghttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08592579252247217346noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8845526.post-76868895351128135602008-10-26T21:09:00.005+08:002008-10-28T20:54:16.896+08:00my dear friend arh...<br /><br /><br />i'm really really happy for you<br />*smile*<br /><br /><br />and dont talk rot abt history repeating itself<br />(although the happenings seem similar<br />copy me! hahas.<br />copy front part ok<br />but<br />dont copy the ending hor~)<br /><br /><br /><br />just live now for now okie?<br />^^<br />be happy<br /><br />____________________________________<br /><br />time made right<br />^^<br /><br />____________________________________<br /><br />distractions<br />argh<br /><br /><br />i'm so dead-ed<br />____________________________________<br /><br />yupei says<br />"we're pigs"<br /><br /><br />gotta admit it<br />sighs.<br /><br />_____________________________________<br /><br />eek.<br />i cant help it.<br /><br />i still watched tt darn show<br />and now i feel rotten<br /><br />argh.<br /><br /><br />oh wells<br /><br />____________________________________<br /><br /><br />high school musical 3,<br />anyone up for it?<br /><br />____________________________________<br /><br />nice song<br />*i've got the song up*<br />^^<br /><br /><span style="font-size:130%;">歌名：记得</span><br /><span style="font-size:130%;"></span><br /><span style="font-size:130%;">歌手：张惠妹</span><br /><span style="font-size:130%;"></span><br /><span style="font-size:130%;">曲： 林俊杰 词： 易家扬 </span><br /><span style="font-size:130%;"></span><br /><span style="font-size:130%;"></span><br /><span style="font-size:130%;">谁还记得 是谁先说 永远的爱我 </span><br /><span style="font-size:130%;"></span><br /><span style="font-size:130%;">以前的一句话 是我们以后的伤口</span><br /><span style="font-size:130%;"></span><br /><span style="font-size:130%;">过了太久 没人记得 当初那些温柔 </span><br /><span style="font-size:130%;"></span><br /><span style="font-size:130%;">我和你手牵手 说要一起走到最后 </span><br /><span style="font-size:130%;"></span><br /><span style="font-size:130%;"></span><br /><span style="font-size:130%;"></span><br /><span style="font-size:130%;">我们都忘了 这条路走了多久 </span><br /><span style="font-size:130%;"></span><br /><span style="font-size:130%;">心中是清楚的 有一天 有一天 都会停的</span><br /><span style="font-size:130%;"></span><br /><span style="font-size:130%;">让时间说真话 虽然我也害怕 </span><br /><span style="font-size:130%;"></span><br /><span style="font-size:130%;">在天黑了以后 我们都不知道 会不会有以后</span><br /><span style="font-size:130%;"></span><br /><span style="font-size:130%;"></span><br /><span style="font-size:130%;"></span><br /><span style="font-size:130%;">谁还记得 是谁先说永远的爱我 </span><br /><span style="font-size:130%;"></span><br /><span style="font-size:130%;">以前的一句话 是我们以后的伤口 </span><br /><span style="font-size:130%;"></span><br /><span style="font-size:130%;">过了太久 没人记得当初那些温柔 </span><br /><span style="font-size:130%;"></span><br /><span style="font-size:130%;">我和你手牵手 说要一起走到最后 </span><br /><span style="font-size:130%;"></span><br /><span style="font-size:130%;"></span><br /><span style="font-size:130%;"></span><br /><span style="font-size:130%;">我们都累了 却没办法往回走 </span><br /><span style="font-size:130%;"></span><br /><span style="font-size:130%;">两颗心都迷惑 怎么说 怎么说都没有救 </span><br /><span style="font-size:130%;"></span><br /><span style="font-size:130%;">亲爱的为什么 也许你也不懂 </span><br /><span style="font-size:130%;"></span><br /><span style="font-size:130%;">两个相爱的人 等对方先说想分开的理由 </span><br /><span style="font-size:130%;"></span><br /><span style="font-size:130%;"></span><br /><span style="font-size:130%;"></span><br /><span style="font-size:130%;">谁还记得爱情开始 变化的时候 </span><br /><span style="font-size:130%;"></span><br /><span style="font-size:130%;">我和你的眼中 看见了 不同的天空 </span><br /><span style="font-size:130%;"></span><br /><span style="font-size:130%;">走的太远 终于走到 分岔路的路口 </span><br /><span style="font-size:130%;"></span><br /><span style="font-size:130%;">是不是你和我 要有两个相反的梦 </span><br /><span style="font-size:130%;"></span><br /><span style="font-size:130%;"></span><br /><span style="font-size:130%;"></span><br /><span style="font-size:130%;">谁还记得 是谁先说 永远的爱我 </span><br /><span style="font-size:130%;"></span><br /><span style="font-size:130%;">以前的一句话 是我们以后的伤口 </span><br /><span style="font-size:130%;"></span><br /><span style="font-size:130%;">过了太久 没人记得 当初那些温柔 </span><br /><span style="font-size:130%;"></span><br /><span style="font-size:130%;">我和你手牵手 说要一起走到最后 </span><br /><span style="font-size:130%;"></span><br /><span style="font-size:130%;"></span><br /><span style="font-size:130%;"></span><br /><span style="font-size:130%;">我和你手牵手 说要一起走到最后</span><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/8845526-7686889535112813560?l=moibloggie.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>JeeCheng 지챙 . 루찡 RuJinghttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08592579252247217346noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8845526.post-52488245948847162432008-10-26T01:32:00.008+08:002008-10-26T23:11:59.698+08:00i'm glad a lil' sth i did<br /><br /><br />can have such a positive impact<br />*smile*<br /><br />_______________________<br /><br />wuan drew this for me:<br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><p><img id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5261146339410622482" style="DISPLAY: block; MARGIN: 0px auto 10px; WIDTH: 320px; CURSOR: hand; HEIGHT: 240px; TEXT-ALIGN: center" alt="" src="http://4.bp.blogspot.com/_g1tUWiMYIGQ/SQNYuI_quBI/AAAAAAAAAAs/w3nB5FhL5Wg/s320/DSC00588.JPG" border="0" />tt's my fluff pet!</p><p>*so sweet o her*</p><p>thkyew wuan!</p><p>________________________________________</p><p>today's wuan's the one who wants to take pics</p><p>not me!</p><p></p><p></p><p>cam-whore again!</p><p>lols</p><p>__________________________________________</p><p>saw shuet and chu zheng.</p><p>cldnt believe tt was the chu zheng we used to know</p><p>neither did cld wuan.</p><p>didnt even recognise him until shuet says it's him.</p><p>wah~</p><p>so tall now lor</p><p></p><p>*abit like huemin's bro liddat*</p><p>____________________________________</p><p><br />江山易改</p><p>本性难移</p><p>some things just nv change</p><p></p><p></p><p></p><p>and yet changes are all part and parcel o our lives</p><p></p><p></p><p></p><p></p><p></p><p></p><p>we grow thru all the exposures</p><p>and experience the experiences</p><p>and learn...</p><p></p><p></p><p></p><p></p><p>i've learnt quite alot thru this journey</p><p>opened my eyes and seen</p><p></p><p></p><p></p><p>yet i know this is not all</p><p>and thr's more to come</p><p></p><p>more for me to learn and progress</p><p></p><p></p><p></p><p></p><p>i'm thkful</p><p></p><p></p><p></p><p>for all that i had</p><p>and all that i have</p><p>__________________________________</p><u>friends</u><br />the most impt things to have in life<br />other than kinship<br /><br />but what is the exact defintion?<br /><br />does those you rarely contact considered friends?<br />are they even friends in the first place?<br />hi-bye friends?<br />or mere acquaintances?<br /><br />some only do certain things w you<br />some only talk to you when they see you<br />some are only in contact cos you see each other regularly<br />once you've broken off frm the place,<br />thr's no longer any ties<br /><br />are these ppl considered friends?<br />or just merely ppl you know?<br />others dont even really care<br /><br />and only talk to you if they need you<br /><br /><br />they say<br />friends in need are friends indeed<br /><br />only when trouble comes you'll see who your real friends are<br />ppl who stick by you<br /><br />but if they have no idea what you are gg thru and tend to neglect the frienship<br />or they are not sensitive enough<br /><br />and they nv go thru the difficult times w you<br /><br />are they guilty?<br />are they considered friends?<br /><br /><br />but if you only go to them when you have troubles<br />they may find tt you only go to them in times o need.<br /><br />contradictory huh?<br /><br /><br />i think ppl whom you consider friends are actually those you go to in times o need though<br />its not tt you find them only when you need them<br />but bcos you feel they'll be thr for you<br /><br />and at the same time<br />you know tt you'll be thr for them w they need you<br /><br /><br />they cry when you cry<br />and laugh when you laugh<br />they share your sorrows and pain<br />as well as your joys<br /><br />they'd want the best for you<br />not compete w you till the very end<br />(though some may say it's healthy to have competition)<br />it may be true but i beg to differ<br />i call tt selfish friends if they only care abt winning<br />or are they friends at all?<br />more like competitiors?<br /><br /><br />they shld be motivating you to do well along w them<br />and not putting you down<br /><br /><br /><br />it takes alot to keep a friendship gg<br />just like r/s<br />it takes 2 to tango<br />both have to put in effort<br /><br />it gets tiring after awhile<br />if only one party puts in the effort to keep it gg<br /><br /><br />especially w the packed up time<br />the bz schedule<br />it's all the more difficult to keep up w friends<br /><br />to sustain the friendship<br /><br /><br />and smt<br />it's not tt we'd like to neglect these ppl ard us.<br /><br />perhaps everyone is too bz w their own lives?<br /><br /><br /><br /><br />i've fallen and i've risen<br /><br /><br />i know who my friends are<br /><br />i'm content enough<br /><br /><br />to know tt i have friends tt are true and real<br />i dont have to have alot<br />and i'll be glad enough to have just one<br /><br />but i know i have more than tt<br />^^<br /><br />i may know alot o ppl<br />may even consider some as friends<br /><br />but how close<br />how true<br />and how real<br /><br /><br />it all depends<br /><br /><br /><br /><p></p><p></p><p>and somehow</p><p>i thot o chooi ching again</p><p>i wonder how she's doing now</p><p></p><p></p><p></p><p></p><p>it has been a long time</p><p>a long long time</p><p></p><p></p><p></p><p></p><p></p><p>*sighs*</p><p>___________________________________</p>i wld have thot<br />i've become a lady o steel<br /><br /><br />yet<br />i'm just more sentimental<br />and emotional<br /><br /><br />feel more easily<br />touched more easily<br />___________________________________<br /><br />the reason why i like children<br />and why i like working in childcare<br /><br />they are as pure as can be<br /><br /><br />happy means happy<br />sad means sad<br /><br /><br />smt even when they dont understand what mood they are in exactly<br />and tt they just dont feel good<br /><br />they just tell you they are not happy<br /><br /><br />happiness comes from the bottom o their heart<br />seeing them happy makes me happy too<br /><br />in their simple world<br />simple life<br /><br /><br />no complications<br /><br />____________________________________<br /><br />i wonder if i have the chance to make certain choices again<br /><br />wld i make the same ones all over again?<br />for eg. the course i'm taking now<br /><br /><br />i may<br />i may not<br /><br />ok.what nonsense is this?<br /><br /><br />i have no regrets.<br />just wondering.<br /><br />___________________________________<br /><br />i think i've found my passion<br />what i really like to do<br /><br />^^<br />___________________________________<br /><br />mayb i shld just major in entreprenuership<br />instead o finance or mkting<br /><br />heh.<br /><br />____________________________________<br /><br />a future dream w my pals<br />mayb i shld consider<br /><br />(the above)<br /><br /><br />in relation to my passion<br />and in relation to my major<br />^^<br /><br />i've alr got a draft plan in mind<br />but like yupei says<br /><br />we still need to fine tune it<br />^^<br /><br />i sure hope i'm not the only one enthu abt it<br />and it wont be a three minute thing<br />heh.<br /><br />_____________________________________<br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br />if i were to say what is the thing i value the most in life<br /><br />i'd still say r/s<br />not just bgr<br />but all forms o r/s<br />be it kinship<br />or friendship<br />just relations itself.<br /><br />*am i just plain dumb or wad?*<br /><br />wells, i cant help it.<br /><br /><br />______________________________________<br /><br />if i were to choose to be either blind or deaf<br /><br />i'd rather die<br /><br /><br />i cant live w/o colours in my life<br />i cant stand being able to not look at ppl thru the eyes<br /><br />*tt's why i dont really like non-face-to-face communication*<br /><br /><br />i believe<br />it's the eyes tt will tell eveything<br />and shows everything<br />tt will show sincerity<br />tt will touch deep into your soul<br /><br /><br />and music<br />i cant live w/o them<br /><br />it makes life so much more beautiful<br />to be able to move w the flow<br />like water<br />like air<br /><br /><br />free<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/8845526-5248824594884716243?l=moibloggie.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>JeeCheng 지챙 . 루찡 RuJinghttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08592579252247217346noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8845526.post-48220080793344518982008-10-24T22:47:00.006+08:002008-10-25T00:30:35.904+08:00a chance to japan for 2?<br /><br /><br />hmm<br /><br />i hope i'm tt lucky<br /><br /><br /><br />____________________________________<br /><br /><br /><br /><br />jianwen just came back frm japan<br /><br />*envy right. sch term still can go japan.*<br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br />and she got me this<br /><br /><p><img id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5260745658013867650" style="DISPLAY: block; MARGIN: 0px auto 10px; WIDTH: 320px; CURSOR: hand; HEIGHT: 240px; TEXT-ALIGN: center" alt="" src="http://1.bp.blogspot.com/_g1tUWiMYIGQ/SQHsTaeYXoI/AAAAAAAAAAc/UvzlM7UOoKI/s320/DSC00575.JPG" border="0" /></p><br /><br /><br /><p>yummy!</p><p>*thkyew jianwen!*</p><br /><br /><br /><p></p>it taste good.<br />v good.<br /><br /><br /><br /><p>much much better than pocky.</p><br /><br /><br /><p>thicker and tastier</p><br /><br /><br /><p>*grins*</p><br /><br /><br /><p>the packaging's v exquisite too.<br /></p><br /><br /><br />____________________________________<br /><br /><br />meimei says<br />"let's get a logitech headphone"<br /><br />and i said<br />"logitech? tt's a good brand."<br /><br />"omg-ed.<br />i cant believe tt came out frm my mouth."<br /><br />she laughed and said<br />"welcome to the marketing world"<br /><br /><br />i am not a brand conscious person<br />didnt used to be.<br /><br />look what has maketing done to me.<br />*faints*<br /><br />________________________________________<br /><br />life is fragile<br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br />so pls treasure all those ard you<br /><br /><br />let them know they are loved<br />they are cherished<br />and how much they really mean to you<br /><br /><br />cos you'll nv know<br /><br /><br /><br />you'll nv know<br /><br /><br /><br />not just what's gg to happen in the future<br />(as in long term)<br /><br /><br /><br />but tmr as well<br />or rather<br />even the nxt minute.<br /><br />____________________________________<br /><br /><br /><br /><br />i'm really careless<br /><br />misplaced my purse again.<br /><br /><br /><br /><br />but i'm lucky<br /><br /><br /><br /><br />duno how many umpteen times alr~<br />heh.<br /><br /><br /><br /><p>*still dare to say right?*<br /><br /></p><br /><br />but i'm getting smarter.<br /><br />frm all the misfortunes w my purse.<br /><br /><br /><br />heh.<br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br />frm the past lessons learnt.<br /><br /><br />and the fact tt i know i'm careless<br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br />i put a card in my purse<br /><br />w my name, contact number and my address<br /><br /><br /><br />my purse was fd<br />and the person called me<br /><br /><br />thk gdness.<br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br />and guess where i misplaced it this time rd<br /><br /><br />...<br /><br /><br /><br /><br />not tt i'm proud o it<br /><br />*sighs*<br /><br /><br /><br /><u>_____________________________________</u><br /><br /><u>school</u><br /><br /><br /><br />i think the canteen are infested w np students<br />rather than our own sch ppl.<br /><br />*so difficult to find seats*<br /><br /><br />i cant understand why.<br />not tt the food is so fantastic<br /><br /><br /><br />or is it cos the grass always greener on the other side?<br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br />and this is what we have now<br /><br /><br /><br /><img id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5260737332272569826" style="DISPLAY: block; MARGIN: 0px auto 10px; WIDTH: 240px; CURSOR: hand; HEIGHT: 320px; TEXT-ALIGN: center" alt="" src="http://1.bp.blogspot.com/_g1tUWiMYIGQ/SQHkuyq-HeI/AAAAAAAAAAU/iMBUrlVubEo/s320/DSC00576.JPG" border="0" /><br /><p>ps. i duno the person in the pic<br />but he's taking so long at the machine tt i decide not to wait anymore<br /></p><p>heh.<br />_________________________________________________</p><br /><p>it's always good to see jianwen and wuan in school</p><br /><p>be it intentional or unintentional<br />^^<br /></p><br /><p>seeing them always bring my mood up a level</p><br /><p>^^<br /></p><br /><p>_______________________________________</p><br /><p>nostalgia.<br /></p><br /><br /><br /><p>i miss yupei!!!!</p><br /><p>especially our secondary school days </p><br /><p>when we always stick tgt like tweedledee and tweedledum<br /><br />and all the studying we do tgt</p><p>how we helped each other out</p><p>each in the areas where we're stronger and weaker in<br /></p><p></p><br /><p>i seriously miss those days</p><p>*sighs*</p><br /><p></p><br /><p>especially seeing ben and kelvin studying tgt</p><p>the kind o 默契</p><p>the lingo shared</p><p>smt only we understand each other<br /></p><p></p><br /><p>*super proud o our friendship*<br /></p><p>*grins*<br /></p><p></p><br /><p>pei, cheng miss you!</p><p>_________________________________________<br /><br />ah ben kor kor says<br /><br />i sure can de<br /><br /></p><p><br />except tt<br />i'm just plain stubborn</p><p>lack determination<br />and encouragement<br /><br /><br />______________________________________________<br /><br /><br />and this is what is what i did<br />after losing concentration while doing the mkting essay </p><p><img id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5260751395859257826" style="DISPLAY: block; MARGIN: 0px auto 10px; WIDTH: 240px; CURSOR: hand; HEIGHT: 320px; TEXT-ALIGN: center" alt="" src="http://1.bp.blogspot.com/_g1tUWiMYIGQ/SQHxhZnU2eI/AAAAAAAAAAk/iIkXckn7hAI/s320/DSC00577.JPG" border="0" />the top part was my half-completed essay</p><p>and the bottom</p><p>for self motivation</p><p></p><p>wahahaz.<br /></p><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/8845526-4822008079334451898?l=moibloggie.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>JeeCheng 지챙 . 루찡 RuJinghttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08592579252247217346noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8845526.post-51707898016703645732008-10-19T22:54:00.006+08:002008-10-20T22:55:49.907+08:00stop! stop!<br /><br />just stop doing this to me<br /><br />__________________________________<br /><br />i cant believe i slpt for 12hrs straight last night<br /><br />eek.<br /><br />-concussed-<br /><br />___________________________________<br /><br /><br />i like to smile<br />^^<br />so what?<br />^^<br />*grins*<br /><br />___________________________________<br /><br />i realise i dont like ppl to ask me when i'm free<br /><br />just set a date w me<br />and i'd let you know if i can make it anot<br /><br />and make sure you yourself is able to make it<br />(unless sth really crop up the last min)<br /><br /><br />to go out or meet up<br /><br />obviously<br /><br />it's for companionship<br />or to catch up<br />i dont mind plainly just hang out<br /><br /><br />you dont have to explain<br /><br /><br />the more you try to explain<br />the weirder it gets<br /><br />or unless you really have a ulteriro motive<br /><br /><br /><br />_________________________________<br /><br />thr's only a thin line b/w right and wrong<br /><br />and smt<br /><br />there isnt even a right or wrong<br />it's just a matter o perception<br /><br />__________________________________<br /><br />i think i have gone to the extreme end<br /><br />enough<br />but more to come?<br /><br />__________________________________<br /><br /><br />it's the lil things done<br />tt will touch a life<br />and make a difference<br /><br />it does not have to be a big thing<br /><br /><br />__________________________________<br /><br />brought my bro to SAKAE for dinner ytd<br /><br /><br />early bday treat<br />^^<br /><br />he hvt been to such a restaurant b4<br />and i cld see that he's really excited abt it<br /><br />i'm glad he njyed the dinner<br /><br />and it was the first time the 3 o us<br />*the siblings, of cos*<br />went for dinner like this<br /><br /><br />*mama and papa off for company dinner*<br /><br /><br />妹妹 says<br />she'd be early<br /><br />instead she was the last to reach lo~<br />anws,<br />we just started off w/o her<br />heh.<br /><br />*photos uploaded onto fb!*<br /><br />_________________________________<br /><br /><br />think i'm getting more random.<br />*oops*<br /><br />_________________________________<br /><br />and smt<br />i think i'm moving too fast<br />i'm scaring myself<br /><br />*obviously not studies wise<br />studies, i'm w-o-l-s*<br /><br />eek.<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/8845526-5170789801670364573?l=moibloggie.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>JeeCheng 지챙 . 루찡 RuJinghttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08592579252247217346noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8845526.post-34699660456604615392008-10-18T01:52:00.009+08:002008-10-19T22:32:35.091+08:00really tired after a long day<br /><br />...<br /><br />but i still feel like blogging<br /><br /><br /><br />a series o events<br /><br />a series o thots<br /><br />____________________________<br /><br />17 october 2008<br />yang's 21st bday<br /><br /><br /><br />she looks really sweet today.<br />really pretty<br />^^<br /><br /><br />i feel really happy for her.<br />envious but really happy.<br /><br />she's a lucky girl<br />happy-go-lucky<br />pure and innocent<br />simple and happy<br />^^<br /><br />i wish for her to stay tt way always.<br />simple and carefree<br />always joyous<br /><br />she deserves to be happy<br /><br /><br /><br />my wish for her bday is for her to nv be hurt<br />not to be hurt by anything<br /><br />to stay contented<br /><br /><br /><br />i guess i'm rather protective o this fren o mine<br /><br />so no one is to bully her!<br />anyone who does,<br />you better watch out!<br /><br /><br />i dont think i'd be the only one coming after you.<br />i believe her other frens will too<br />for such a sweet girl like her<br /><br /><br /><br />the party was really great<br />and i actually felt quite bad for being only to do up an alphabet for her deco w my tight schedule<br />and only managed to make her a bday card :( but i hope she'll like it<br /><br />i kinda told my tuitee and he said<br />"it's the thot tt counts mah~"<br />lols<br /><br /><br />but i'm really proud o the card i made<br />i've always been proud o my art work<br />even when it isnt very well done<br /><br />i njy doin them<br />i like making cards and gifts<br />bocs it's made frm the heart<br /><br /><br />i forgot to take photo o this artpiece though<br />sighs<br /><br />*yang, pls do me a favour to take a pic o it and send it to me pls?*<br /><br /><br />once more<br /><br />happy 21st birthday!<br /><br /><br />ps. thkyew kelvin, for the ride to the venue :)<br />thkyew pearly and parents, for the ride to a more convenient place for me to go home :)<br /><br /><br />_______________________________________<br /><br />hana asked me abt my bf<br /><br />i looked away and told her<br />we broke up<br />as a matter o factly<br /><br />devoid o expression.<br /><br /><br />and yes, we did.<br /><br />thkyew for not probing<br /><br />_______________________________________<br /><br />took some helium ballons home.<br />^^<br />yes, helium ballons! :)<br />those tt will float! :)<br /><br />i took 3<br /><br />but along the way<br />i came across this bbq pit<br /><br />upon seeing the ballons,<br />2 lil girls ran towards me and paused<br /><br /><br />i look at them and stopped b4 them<br />*smiling*<br /><br />asked them if they like to have the ballons and they nodded<br />i just grinned.<br /><br />they are lil jap girls<br />w 2 pony tails each<br />sisters they must be<br />so cute<br />^^<br /><br />afraid tt the ballons may fly off<br />i tied the ballons to their wrist<br /><br />they thked me<br />" arigato gozaimas"<br /><br />seeing the lil girls so happy<br />makes me feel happy too<br /><br /><br />after we walked off<br />the girl came running after me w another lil boy<br /><br />seems like the boy wants a balloon too<br />lol<br /><br />and i'm left w none after tt<br />but happy.<br /><br /><br />pearly gave one of hers to me<br />(lol)<br />and let the other flew to the sky.<br />a wish balloon<br /><br />...<br /><br /><br />i wish...<br /><br /><br /><br />_______________________________________<br /><br />smt being ignorant isnt really a bad thing<br />knowing too much isnt good<br /><br /><br />_______________________________________<br /><br />descriptive words doesnt make a person<br />being able to define personality isnt everything<br />it goes more than tt<br /><br /><br />to know a person<br />it means much more<br /><br /><br />smt you dont even realise until you say it out loud<br /><br /><br />and how true it may sounds<br /><br /><br /><br />who appears to be<br />may not be<br /><br /><br />____________________________<br /><br /><br />*how long will it take?*<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/8845526-3469966045660461539?l=moibloggie.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>JeeCheng 지챙 . 루찡 RuJinghttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08592579252247217346noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8845526.post-76253120640178375792008-10-13T22:12:00.005+08:002008-10-13T22:35:14.432+08:00<u></u><br />a hundred thots<br />-<br />random-ness<br />____________________________<br /><br />and<br /><br />suddenly it struck me<br /><br />thr's nthing wrong in being wrong<br />its abt making the wrong right.<br />its abt learning how to make it right.<br />and its abt learning frm the wrong or mistake made.<br /><br /><br />bocs<br /><br />nobody is perfect<br />but almost everyone<br />or rather<br />everyone is seeking perfect-ness<br /><br />i think<br /><br /><br /><br />and time is irreversible<br />so forward we continue to progress<br />and try to make all right again<br /><br />am i right?<br /><br />*or left?*<br />heh.<br />trying to be funny here<br />so pls laugh<br />thank you*<br /><br />_________________________________<br /><br />smt<br /><br />it's not abt the right time<br />it's abt making the time right<br /><br />__________________________________<br /><br />and my dear fren<br /><br />cheng will support you no matter what decision you make.<br />the most impt thing is that you are happy.<br /><br />i want to see you happy :)<br />i dont want to see you sad<br />i dont want to see you so stressed up<br /><br />it saddens me to know tt i'm unable to help much<br /><br />but come what may<br />i'll always be here<br /><br />just lemme know if you need me to do anything<br /><br />anything.<br /><br />___________________________________<br /><br /><br /><br /><br />i am very happy now<br /><br /><br /><br />but why do i keep wondering?<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/8845526-7625312064017837579?l=moibloggie.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>JeeCheng 지챙 . 루찡 RuJinghttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08592579252247217346noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8845526.post-66685205896935395722008-10-12T22:34:00.004+08:002008-10-12T23:14:46.249+08:00stupid weather.<br />really dont like the weather today.<br />so humid!<br /><br />argh.<br /><br />_____________________________<br /><br />stayed at home the whole day today.<br />(other than walking over to my tuitee's to give tuition)<br /><br /><br />tried to do what i'm supposed to do<br />but i guess i didnt really accomplished much.<br />sighs.<br /><br />stupid brain o mine.<br /><br /><br />and<br /><br />i danced across the living room instead of walk.<br /><br />my mom saw<br /><br /><br />and she was astonished<br />i guess<br /><br />lols.<br /><br />dont think she ever saw me dance b4.<br />lols.<br /><br /><br /><br />well,<br />the song i played was nice and catchy mah~<br /><br />rather surprising<br />cos i've nv danced at home<br />lols.<br /><br />think i'm just gg crazy soon<br /><br />__________________________________<br /><br /><br />anws<br /><br />decision made.<br /><br />and guess what?<br /><br />heh.<br /><br /><br /><br />actually i dont care<br /><br />_______________________________<br /><br /><br />i realised tt i'm always playing w fire.<br />i lead a dangerous life.<br />lols<br /><br />or perhaps i'm just dumb<br /><br /><br /><br />and i ended up getting my fingers burnt<br /><br />___________________________<br /><br />to my dear dear fren:<br /><br />i'm glad you have finally made up your mind.<br />but once made up alr,<br />pls dont look back.<br />you'll feel worse.<br /><br /><br />i know you're sad.<br />i know you feel bad.<br />i know it's difficult not to think.<br />i know perfectly well<br />i understand<br /><br />cry if you feel the need to.<br />there's nthing wrong to tt.<br />it's really alright.<br />humans are emotional beings.<br /><br />but after crying,<br />you'll will have get back onto your feet.<br />it'll definitely take time<br />i'm not sure how long<br />but i'm sure you'll get on well.<br />things will get better as time pass<br /><br />and<br /><br />cheng will be here for you no matter what.<br /><br />*hugs*<br /><br /><br /><br />let time tell eveything<br />and<br />believe in the future alright?<br /><br /><br />seeing you so sad makes me sad too<br />makes my heart ache<br /><br /><br />and let's work towards our goals in life tgt k?<br />_______________________________<br /><br /><br />actually i'm thinking o moving my blog.<br /><br />either<br />change the url to another web address<br />or<br />create a new one<br /><br /><br /><br />this blog is too cute.<br />perhaps abit too much too.<br /><br />as yrs go by,<br />i think i shld discard the cute image alr.<br />but duno how i'm gg to do tt.<br />lols.<br /><br /><br />will create sth tt means more<br />as well as a new beginning.<br /><br /><br />dont wry frens,<br />if you find tt this blog no longer exist<br />you'll know tt i've moved.<br /><br />just ask me for the url if you guys still want to continue to read<br />if not<br />it'll just stay w a few of my close frens.<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/8845526-6668520589693539572?l=moibloggie.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>JeeCheng 지챙 . 루찡 RuJinghttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08592579252247217346noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8845526.post-42350578713270825022008-10-07T23:23:00.003+08:002008-10-08T00:11:01.835+08:00totally. drained.<br /><br />i'm not sure how the guys do it<br />我真的佩服得五体投地<br /><br />_______________________<br /><br />2 guys are driving me crazy.<br /><br /><br />i'm really gg mad.<br /><br /><br />they are my tuitees la~<br />what you thinking!<br />lols.<br /><br />_______________________<br /><br />i found my music world back<br />indulgence<br /><br />×*grins*×<br /><br />_______________________<br /><br />有时<br />我好想<br /><br />。。。<br /><br />静静的<br />静静的<br /><br />_______________________<br /><br /><u><span style="font-size:130%;">后来-刘若英</span></u><br /><span style="font-size:130%;"></span><br /><span style="font-size:130%;">后来 我总算学会了 如何去爱</span><br /><span style="font-size:130%;"></span><br /><span style="font-size:130%;">可惜你 早已远去 消失在人海</span><br /><span style="font-size:130%;"></span><br /><span style="font-size:130%;">后来 终于在眼泪中 明白</span><br /><span style="font-size:130%;"></span><br /><span style="font-size:130%;">有些人 一旦错过就不再</span><br /><span style="font-size:130%;"></span><br /><span style="font-size:130%;"></span><br /><span style="font-size:130%;"></span><br /><span style="font-size:130%;">桅子花 白花瓣 </span><br /><span style="font-size:130%;"></span><br /><span style="font-size:130%;">落在我蓝色百褶裙上</span><br /><span style="font-size:130%;"></span><br /><span style="font-size:130%;">「爱你」 你轻声说</span><br /><span style="font-size:130%;"></span><br /><span style="font-size:130%;">我低下头闻见一阵芬芳</span><br /><span style="font-size:130%;"></span><br /><span style="font-size:130%;"></span><br /><span style="font-size:130%;">那个永恒的夜晚</span><br /><span style="font-size:130%;"></span><br /><span style="font-size:130%;">十七岁仲夏 你吻我的 那个夜晚</span><br /><span style="font-size:130%;"></span><br /><span style="font-size:130%;">让我往后的时光 每当有感叹</span><br /><span style="font-size:130%;"></span><br /><span style="font-size:130%;">总想起当天的星光</span><br /><span style="font-size:130%;"></span><br /><span style="font-size:130%;"></span><br /><span style="font-size:130%;"></span><br /><span style="font-size:130%;">那时候 的爱情 </span><br /><span style="font-size:130%;"></span><br /><span style="font-size:130%;">为什么就能那样简单</span><br /><span style="font-size:130%;"></span><br /><span style="font-size:130%;">而又是为什么 人年少时</span><br /><span style="font-size:130%;"></span><br /><span style="font-size:130%;">一定要让深爱的人受伤</span><br /><span style="font-size:130%;"></span><br /><span style="font-size:130%;"></span><br /><span style="font-size:130%;">在这相似的深夜里 你是否一样 </span><br /><span style="font-size:130%;"></span><br /><span style="font-size:130%;">也在静静追悔感伤</span><br /><span style="font-size:130%;"></span><br /><span style="font-size:130%;">如果当时我们能不那么倔强</span><br /><span style="font-size:130%;"></span><br /><span style="font-size:130%;">现在也不那么遗憾</span><br /><span style="font-size:130%;"></span><br /><span style="font-size:130%;"></span><br /><span style="font-size:130%;"></span><br /><span style="font-size:130%;">你都如何回忆我 带着笑或是很沉默</span><br /><span style="font-size:130%;"></span><br /><span style="font-size:130%;">这些年来 有没有人能让你不寂寞</span><br /><span style="font-size:130%;"></span><br /><span style="font-size:130%;"></span><br /><span style="font-size:130%;"></span><br /><span style="font-size:130%;">后来 我总算学会了 如何去爱<br /><br />可惜你 早已远去 消失在人海<br /><br />后来 终于在眼泪中 明白<br /><br />有些人 一旦错过就不再</span><br /><span style="font-size:130%;"></span><br /><span style="font-size:130%;"></span><br /><span style="font-size:130%;"></span><br /><span style="font-size:130%;">你都如何回忆我<br /><br />带着笑或是很沉默<br /><br />这些年来有没有人能让你不寂寞<br /><br /><br /><br />后来 我总算学会了 </span><br /><span style="font-size:130%;"></span><br /><span style="font-size:130%;">如何去爱 可惜你 早已远去 消失在人海 </span><br /><span style="font-size:130%;"></span><br /><span style="font-size:130%;">后来 终于在眼泪中 明白 </span><br /><span style="font-size:130%;"></span><br /><span style="font-size:130%;">有些人 一旦错过就不再</span><br /><span style="font-size:130%;"></span><br /><span style="font-size:130%;"></span><br /><span style="font-size:130%;"></span><br /><span style="font-size:130%;">永远不会再重来</span><br /><span style="font-size:130%;"></span><br /><span style="font-size:130%;">有一个男孩 爱着那个女孩 </span><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/8845526-4235057871327082502?l=moibloggie.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>JeeCheng 지챙 . 루찡 RuJinghttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08592579252247217346noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8845526.post-71895330278831754972008-10-01T23:37:00.004+08:002008-10-02T00:23:25.399+08:00i'm down to<br /><br />either<br /><br /><br />majoring in finance and minoring in mkting<br /><br /><br />or<br /><br /><br />majoring in mkting and minoring in finance.<br /><br /><br />*although i dont have to wry abt the minor part right now.*<br /><br /><br />mkting is fun and dynamic and interesting<br />but scary.<br /><br />finance is sth i know i shld be able to do well in.<br />it states have to have strong foundation in<br />math, stats amd econs.<br />which i think i'm quite alrighty w.<br />but it's boring.<br /><br /><br />argh.<br /><br />time's running up.<br /><br />_______________________________________<br /><br /><br />i looked thru my msn contacts<br /><br />and realised tt i dont even know some o the ppl in the list.<br />some i rmb but dont even talk on msn at all.<br />and some i rmb but dont contact at all,<br />ie. those barely contact.<br /><br /><br />i start to wonder if i shld just delete them all.<br />and just keep those tt i rmb and talk to in.<br /><br />some ppl are meant to keep in your life.<br />some are meant to come and go.<br />some just pass by.<br /><br /><br /><br />i think maybe i shld just delete them huh.<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/8845526-7189533027883175497?l=moibloggie.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>JeeCheng 지챙 . 루찡 RuJinghttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08592579252247217346noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8845526.post-72598071752218907252008-09-30T11:12:00.003+08:002008-09-30T12:33:05.863+08:00expectations.<br /><br /><br /><br />does anyone not hold any for me?<br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br />i'm really really tired.<br /><br /><br />smt<br />i just want to sink into a deep deep slp<br /><br /><br /><br />每天灿烂的笑容<br />也是自欺欺人吗?<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/8845526-7259807175221890725?l=moibloggie.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>JeeCheng 지챙 . 루찡 RuJinghttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08592579252247217346noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8845526.post-45838316621579523202008-09-27T21:28:00.003+08:002008-09-27T21:36:16.983+08:00deciding b/w<br />human resource<br />biz finance<br />or<br />marketing<br /><br /><br />*my non-uni pals tell me tt human resource suits me<br />my uni pals tell tt human resource doesnt suit me<br />they say finance or mkting is better for me.<br /><br />meimei says to major in mkting and minor in finance*<br /><br />i have no idea.<br /><br />how?how?<br />need to decide real soon.<br />sighs.<br /><br /><br />__________________________________<br /><br /><br />i realised tt my plans for the future includes you.<br /><br /><br />i'm so gona remove you from them.<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/8845526-4583831662157952320?l=moibloggie.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>JeeCheng 지챙 . 루찡 RuJinghttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08592579252247217346noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8845526.post-846668055995799652008-09-25T01:21:00.005+08:002008-09-26T00:37:40.298+08:00mamma mia!<br /><br />*grins*<br /><br /><br /><br />_____________________________<br /><br /><br />ok.<br />so i'm damn embarrassed today.<br /><br /><br />think i blushed like nobody's business.<br />i didnt even realised i blushed so easily.<br /><br /><br />darn.<br /><br /><br />______________________________<br /><br /><br />had a good walk along the southern ridges w my proj mates (-1) on mon<br /><br /><br />and the weather's not too bad<br /><br /><br />*smile*<br /><br /><br />and a great tuesday spent w jianwen<br /><br /><br />*grins*<br /><br /><br /><br />_______________________________<br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br />smt i feel like i'm leading a double life<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/8845526-84666805599579965?l=moibloggie.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>JeeCheng 지챙 . 루찡 RuJinghttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08592579252247217346noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8845526.post-59670402553598233262008-09-21T23:40:00.003+08:002008-09-22T00:30:22.631+08:00a milion thots on my mind today.<br /><br />this is gona be a v random post.<br />___________________________<br /><br />life.complications.<br />optimism.pessimism.<br />understanding.tolerance.<br />honesty.deceiving.<br />what's real? what's not?<br /><br /><br />*i really like the sessions.<br />relaxing.<br />but i always seem to be thinking alot*<br /><br />___________________________________<br /><br />ppl may be understanding.<br />but may not be as tolerable.<br /><br />i can understand.<br />but the way some ppl put things across,<br />i cannot tolerate.<br /><br />so pls dont push your limit.<br />___________________________________<br /><br /><br />i think tolerance is the highest attainment for a person to have.<br />just being understanding is not enough.<br /><br />i can be really understanding.<br />but my tolerance level is not v high.<br />striving to achieve tt.<br /><br />*and although i'm trying to achieve tt,<br />it isnt meant for ppl to bully me*<br /><br />_________________________________<br /><br />still in the process o learning more abt myslf.<br /><br />and am rather surprised by what i've learnt.<br /><br />_________________________________<br /><br />i love and hate freedom.<br /><br />_________________________________<br /><br />the world is really complicated.<br />我不喜欢上等社会<br />__________________________________<br /><br />things and situations can really change at the speed o lightning.<br />__________________________________<br /><br />i am resistant to change.<br />i can adapt.i can learn.<br />but i dont like.<br />_________________________________<br /><br />sometimes.<br /><br />we just got to believe and trust.<br /><br />fear.<br />puts us off.<br />makes us pessimistic<br /><br /><br />i think i like jap culture.<br />always so encouraging.<br />gambatte! jiayou!<br /><br /><br />we shld learn from them<br />being positive.<br /><br /><br /><br />the world wont stop turning bcos o us.<br />the sun will still rise in the morning<br />and sets in the evening.<br />life is short.<br />live it to the max.<br /><br />smile whenever you can.<br />laugh whenever you feel like it.<br /><br />dont let things get you down.<br /><br />*self-motivating*<br />*smile*<br />________________________________<br /><br />believing in the positive.<br />no matter how bad things can be.<br />it may get better.it may get worse.<br /><br />who knows?<br /><br /><br />this is life.<br />we gotta believe in it.<br />although i hate it.<br /><br /><br />and smt<br />dont feel like believing.<br /><br /><br />it sucks.<br /><br /><br />but we still have to believe.<br />in order for things to get better.<br /><br />and i want to believe things will get better.<br />and i believe things will.<br />it definitely will.<br />have courage.<br /><br />for me.for you.<br />for everyone.<br /><br />_________________________________<br /><br />after so much o typing,<br />i realised i must as well do the blog chain thingy kareen asked me to do.<br /><br />nxt time ba<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/8845526-5967040255359823326?l=moibloggie.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>JeeCheng 지챙 . 루찡 RuJinghttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08592579252247217346noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8845526.post-54239982953977712112008-09-20T14:49:00.005+08:002008-09-20T16:14:23.488+08:00～project is finally over～<br /><br /><br />________________________________________<br /><br />why do i have to be kept being reminded o you?<br /><br />you are so out o my life<br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><span style="font-size:130%;">歌名：眼泪的味道<span style="color:#000000;"> </span></span><br /><span style="font-size:130%;color:#000000;"></span><br /><span style="font-size:130%;">歌手：Energy</span><br /><span style="font-size:130%;"></span><br /><span style="font-size:130%;">所属专辑：最后的乐园<br /></span><br /><br /><span style="font-size:130%;">记忆深处的美好</span><br /><span style="font-size:130%;"><br />星空还刻着你的微笑 </span><br /><br /><span style="font-size:130%;">数不清多少夜晚 </span><br /><br /><span style="font-size:130%;">画在你手心的记号自<br /></span><br /><span style="font-size:130%;"></span><br /><br /><span style="font-size:130%;">轻轻靠在我怀抱<br /></span><br /><span style="font-size:130%;">闻你发丝淡淡的味道<br /></span><br /><span style="font-size:130%;">怀念我们曾经<br /></span><br /><span style="font-size:130%;">多么单纯的美好<br /></span><br /><br /><br /><span style="font-size:130%;">过去的美好 我想有一天我们都能忘掉<br /></span><br /><span style="font-size:130%;">想你的星空下 星星不再闪耀<br /></span><br /><br /><br /><span style="font-size:130%;">我想我知道 眼泪的味道<br /></span><br /><span style="font-size:130%;">曾经付出的每一天每一年我不曾想逃<br /></span><br /><span style="font-size:130%;">我想我知道 眼泪的味道<br /></span><br /><span style="font-size:130%;">曾经付出的每一天每一年我不曾想逃<br /></span><br /><br /><span style="font-size:130%;">受伤的翅膀 总有一天会慢慢 慢慢的变好<br /></span><br /><span style="font-size:130%;">能飞得更高 当失去你的依靠<br /></span><br /><span style="font-size:130%;"><br /></span><br /><span style="font-size:130%;"></span><br /><span style="font-size:130%;">轻轻靠在我怀抱<br /></span><br /><span style="font-size:130%;">闻你发丝淡淡的味道<br /></span><br /><span style="font-size:130%;">怀念我们曾经<br /></span><br /><span style="font-size:130%;">多么单纯的美好<br /></span><br /><span style="font-size:130%;"><br /></span><br /><span style="font-size:130%;">过去的美好 我想有一天我们都能忘掉<br /></span><br /><span style="font-size:130%;">想你的星空下 星星不再闪耀<br /></span><br /><span style="font-size:130%;"><br /></span><br /><span style="font-size:130%;">我想我知道 眼泪的味道<br /></span><br /><span style="font-size:130%;">曾经付出的每一天每一年我不曾想逃<br /></span><br /><span style="font-size:130%;">我想我知道 眼泪的味道<br /></span><br /><span style="font-size:130%;">曾经付出的每一天每一年我不曾想逃<br /></span><br /><br /><span style="font-size:130%;">受伤的翅膀 总有一天会慢慢 慢慢的变好<br /></span><br /><span style="font-size:130%;">能飞得更高 当失去你的依靠<br /></span><br /><span style="font-size:130%;"><br /></span><br /><span style="font-size:130%;">Don't wanna miss you<br /></span><br /><span style="font-size:130%;">逝去的不能再留住　<br /></span><br /><span style="font-size:130%;"><br /></span><br /><span style="font-size:130%;">只是过往每个画面<br /></span><br /><span style="font-size:130%;">都成为我们的束缚<br /></span><br /><span style="font-size:130%;"><br /></span><br /><span style="font-size:130%;">对爱情的无助　<br /><br /></span><br /><span style="font-size:130%;"></span><br /><span style="font-size:130%;">我想我知道 眼泪的味道<br /></span><br /><span style="font-size:130%;">曾经付出的每一天每一年我不曾想逃<br /></span><br /><span style="font-size:130%;">我想我知道 眼泪的味道<br /></span><br /><span style="font-size:130%;">曾经付出的每一天每一年我不曾想逃<br /></span><br /><span style="font-size:130%;"><br /></span><br /><span style="font-size:130%;">受伤的翅膀 总有一天会慢慢 慢慢的变好<br /></span><br /><span style="font-size:130%;">能飞得更高 当失去你的依靠<br /></span><br /><span style="font-size:130%;"><br /></span><br /><span style="font-size:130%;">我想我知道眼泪的味道</span><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/8845526-5423998295397771211?l=moibloggie.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>JeeCheng 지챙 . 루찡 RuJinghttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08592579252247217346noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8845526.post-21458582184481966552008-09-18T22:39:00.002+08:002008-09-18T22:44:02.046+08:00alot o ppl seems to think tt i'm a strong girl.<br /><br /><br /><br />i must be one then.<br /><br /><br /><br /><br />jeecheng<br />you can de.<br /><br /><br />*smile*<br />jiayou!<br /><br /><br />*live life.<br />the world wont stop turning for anyone*<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/8845526-2145858218448196655?l=moibloggie.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>JeeCheng 지챙 . 루찡 RuJinghttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08592579252247217346noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8845526.post-35269105381558759592008-09-17T13:00:00.001+08:002008-09-17T22:45:13.276+08:00and ohs,<br /><br />miss smart-ass editor<br />didnt come today either<br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br />*argh.<br />my keys dropped into the drain.<br />yf, sylvia and me had a hard time trying to remove the cover of the drain.<br />just to retrieve my keys.<br />got alot o ants crawling ard<br />yucky.<br />if we videotaped it dw,<br />it's gona be so funny.<br />lol.*<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/8845526-3526910538155875959?l=moibloggie.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>JeeCheng 지챙 . 루찡 RuJinghttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08592579252247217346noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8845526.post-65730992845670968662008-09-16T22:51:00.007+08:002008-09-17T13:03:38.856+08:00today is what i call a real group project meeting<br /><br /><br /><br /><br />at least it finally feels like a group project.<br />not individual project.<br /><br /><br />think work better w/o her.<br /><br />ytd she was saying<br />"thr's no need to meet what"<br />so we met w/o her today.<br /><br />and said<br />"we meet on wed to go thru then done le<br />so you guys just have to send me what you have done by tue<br />so i can put them tgt"<br />she has no idea we still struggling thru.<br />and what has she done?<br /><br /><br />and then she also said<br />"but i duno if i can make it on wed anot leh"<br />i so want to strangle her.<br /><br />_______________________________<br /><br />anws,<br />a few thots on my mind today.<br /><br /><br /><br />was msn-ing w kareen just now..<br /><br />and realised we're both a bus person.<br />heh.<br /><br /><br /><br />give me a choice of taking a bus or a train?<br /><br />i'd rather take the bus even if it's a super long bus ride as compared to the mrt which may be faster. anytime.<br />(unless i'm rushing for time)<br /><br /><br /><br />*but i wldnt mind having a chauffeur*<br />hahas.<br /><br />__________________________<br /><br />someone commented that<br />i appear to be a strong girl on the ouside.<br />w a soft character in the inside.<br />a nice girl w a golden heart<br /><br /><br />dots.<br /><br />so what?<br /><br />too nice a person gets bullied.<br />too golden a heart gets hurt.<br /><br /><br /><br />i have nthing but that i guess.<br /><br /><br />when i countered tt i can be real mean.<br />tt's when i have character?<br /><br /><br />confidence in studies?<br />nah. i'm not tt good.<br /><br /><br /><br /><br />and no confidence in love?<br /><br /><br /><br />i have no idea if i still believe in that anymore.<br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br />oh wells,<br />who cares.<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/8845526-6573099284567096866?l=moibloggie.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>JeeCheng 지챙 . 루찡 RuJinghttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08592579252247217346noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8845526.post-52239581583145578322008-09-16T15:54:00.002+08:002008-09-16T15:56:18.277+08:00i guess i'm blogging v frequently now<br /><br />but short posts though.<br />heh.<br /><br /><br /><br />i'm supposed to be concentrating......<br /><br /><br />argh.<br /><br />feeling lazy.<br />hahas.<br /><br /><br />gambatte.<br />gambatte.<br />gambatte!<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/8845526-5223958158314557832?l=moibloggie.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>JeeCheng 지챙 . 루찡 RuJinghttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08592579252247217346noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8845526.post-47584346031274138912008-09-16T00:01:00.001+08:002008-09-16T00:21:48.347+08:00totally pissed.<br /><br /><br />i spell<br />P.I.S.S.E.D<br /><br /><br />oh damn<br /><br /><br /><br />oh wells,<br />forget it.<br /><br /><br />jeecheng,<br />jiayou! :)<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/8845526-4758434603127413891?l=moibloggie.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>JeeCheng 지챙 . 루찡 RuJinghttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08592579252247217346noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8845526.post-64028488606190540772008-09-15T01:41:00.003+08:002008-09-15T02:13:34.098+08:00中秋节快乐<br /><br />这个节日的定义<br />对我而言<br />真的有好多回忆<br /><br />怀念着几年前的今天<br /><br />我们在一起之前的第一个约会<br /><br /><br />our very first date<br /><br />the date i finally agreed to go on w you after my prelims<br /><br /><br /><br />i still rmb..<br />..as the memories had stayed<br /><br />i still rmb your silly antics<br />to make me lean on your shoulder<br /><br />the things you did<br />so tt i'd be close to you<br /><br /><br /><br />we went esplanade<br />with your frens who just got tgt<br /><br />*your main excuse to get me out to acc you so you wont lightbulb so obviously*<br /><br /><br /><br /><br />i still recall<br />the lil' heart you made out o candles<br />tt were supposedly meant for your friends who just got tgt<br /><br /><br />lil' did i know tt they were meant for me..<br /><br />when you told me tt they were meant for your friends initially,<br />i really did believed you<br /><br />and was thinking<br /><br />that you're such a sweet friend<br /><br />your girlfriend wld be really lucky.<br />and lucky i was.<br />just as you felt for me...<br /><br /><br />but tt's all in the past<br /><br /><br />reminiscing abt it brings tears to my eyes...<br /><br /><br /><br />i'm really sorry friends.<br />but i cant help it.<br />i still think. i still rmb.<br /><br /><br /><br />今年的这个中秋<br />是我们没一起度过的第一个佳节<br /><br /><br />分手后的这个中秋<br />你又是着么过的呢？<br /><br /><br />在这花好月圆的夜晚<br /><br /><br />你有在想我吗？<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/8845526-6402848860619054077?l=moibloggie.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>JeeCheng 지챙 . 루찡 RuJinghttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08592579252247217346noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8845526.post-9402316536760290262008-09-13T22:09:00.002+08:002008-09-13T22:35:28.089+08:00“心情不好”<br />reminds me of jerome.<br /><br /><br />i suddenly miss my lil' children<br /><br />真的好想他们<br /><br /><br /><br />rmbering this lil' incident:<br /><br />while watching a show one evening<br /><br /><br />jerome came over to sit by my side...<br /><br /><br />jerome: miss jee, 我不开心<br /><br />me: 为什么？<br /><br />jerome: 不懂。<br /><br />me: ... 我们一起看 barney 好吗？<br />*bcos he likes barney*<br /><br />me: 有没有开心一点？<br /><br />Jerome *shakes head*<br />我心情不好<br /><br /><br />me *sighs*<br />*hugs jerome*<br /><br /><br /><br />and realised he's feverish<br /><br /><br />小孩子的天真<br />真令人感动<br /><br /><br /><br />he's a really really sweet boy<br />真的好想好想他<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/8845526-940231653676029026?l=moibloggie.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>JeeCheng 지챙 . 루찡 RuJinghttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08592579252247217346noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8845526.post-42273986368092806342008-09-13T13:19:00.002+08:002008-09-13T13:29:56.236+08:00<span style="font-size:130%;">心情不好</span><br /><span style="font-size:130%;"></span><br /><span style="font-size:130%;"></span><br /><span style="font-size:130%;"></span><br /><span style="font-size:130%;"></span><br /><span style="font-size:130%;">我也不知道为什么</span><br /><br /><br /><br />也许是压力吧?<br />或许是失望?<br /><br /><br /><span style="font-size:130%;">时间的紧迫</span><br /><span style="font-size:130%;"></span><br /><span style="font-size:130%;">让我感到有点无助</span><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><span style="font-size:130%;">我好像又迷失了方向</span><br /><br /><br />*找回该有的心情<br />找回应有的信心*<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/8845526-4227398636809280634?l=moibloggie.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>JeeCheng 지챙 . 루찡 RuJinghttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08592579252247217346noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8845526.post-12649745945600623432008-09-10T01:33:00.009+08:002008-09-10T01:56:31.639+08:00<span style="font-size:130%;">歌曲:我要快乐 </span><br /><span style="font-size:130%;"><br />歌手:张惠妹<br /><br /><br /><br />又被爱伤了一遍<br /><br />无所谓当作成长<br /><br /></span><br /><span style="font-size:130%;"><br />刚刚走开的人<br /><br />烟还点着<br /><br />味道却淡了<br /><br /><br /><br />我并不是天生爱寂寞<br /><br />却比任何人都多<br /><br />就算把世界给我<br /><br />我还是一无所有<br /><br /><br /><br />我要快乐 我要能睡的安稳<br /><br />有些人 </span><br /><span style="font-size:130%;"></span><br /><span style="font-size:130%;">不抱了才温暖 离开了才不恨 </span><br /><span style="font-size:130%;"></span><br /><span style="font-size:130%;">我 早应该割舍<br /><br /><br /><br />我要快乐<br /><br />哪怕笑的再大声<br /><br />心不是热的<br /><br />全都是假的<br /><br />只有眼泪是 真的<br /><br /><br /><br /><br />把从前想了一遍<br /><br />谢谢了 伤我的人<br /><br /><br /><br />想做乐观的人<br /><br />每种雨声<br /><br />听了都不冷<br /><br /><br /><br />我并不是天生爱寂寞<br /><br />却比任何人都多<br /><br />就算把世界给我<br /><br />我还是一无所有<br /><br /><br /><br />我要快乐 我要能睡的安稳<br /><br />有些人 </span><br /><span style="font-size:130%;"></span><br /><span style="font-size:130%;">不抱了才温暖 离开了才不恨 </span><br /><span style="font-size:130%;"></span><br /><span style="font-size:130%;">我 早应该割舍<br /><br /><br /><br />我要快乐<br /><br />哪怕笑的再大声<br /><br />心不是热的<br /><br />全都是假的<br /><br />只有眼泪是 真的</span><br /><br /><br /></span></span><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/8845526-1264974594560062343?l=moibloggie.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>JeeCheng 지챙 . 루찡 RuJinghttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08592579252247217346noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8845526.post-38735118047913501402008-09-07T16:47:00.006+08:002008-09-07T17:49:16.157+08:00impression last.<br />ppl see and judge.<br />so what happens?<br /><br />ppl are being categorised.<br />or rather, stereotyped.<br /><br /><br />so we have to behave according to the norms.<br />to how ppl expect us to be.<br />conformity to the norms of the society.<br /><br />but wad are the norms exactly?<br />does it really matter?<br /><br /><br />and i, for one, admits tt i do fear how ppl view me at times.<br />so tt i'll be deemed normal?<br />to portray a good image o myself?<br /><br /><br />although everyone alr knows tt no one's perfect,<br />ppl still seek perfection.<br />ppl still want the best.<br /><br />ironic huh?<br /><br /><br /><br />who am i?<br />i'm still wondering.<br />i behave differently w different ppl.<br />at different places.<br />different occasions.<br />different mood.<br /><br /><br />but different situations calls for different behaviour<br />so i guess that's the norm?<br /><br /><br /><br />and being with different ppl, basing on their perception,<br />you too have to adapt to them?<br />for them to accept you.<br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br />i guess i have mutiple personality too.<br /><br /><br />who am i trying to lie to?<br /><br />others?<br />myself?<br /><br /><br /><br />lying is just a form o running away.<br />from the problems.<br />from the reality.<br />a mean of escape that will not last.<br /><br /><br />its self denial.<br />it's just short term<br /><br />bcos you have your conscious to face.<br /><br />when you come face-to-face w your conscoius.<br />it'll still be there.<br />and i guess tt's the worst part.<br /><br /><br /><br />bcos you're hiding.<br /><br /><br />in order to be honest w others<br />you have to be honest w yourself.<br /><br />and that.<br />is not easy.<br /><br /><br />it will never be.<br />no matter how much.<br /><br />there will always be times when you rather not.<br /><br /><br /><br />i'm struggling hard to be honest w myself<br />and doing much self discovery as a result as well.<br /><br />it is not easy.<br />very tough in fact<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/8845526-3873511804791350140?l=moibloggie.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>JeeCheng 지챙 . 루찡 RuJinghttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08592579252247217346noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8845526.post-61739609271784509972008-09-07T01:57:00.001+08:002008-09-07T01:58:37.970+08:00freak.<br /><br />i cant believe i let this happen to myself.<br /><br /><br /><br /><br />argh.<br /><br />this will NOT happen again.<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/8845526-6173960927178450997?l=moibloggie.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>JeeCheng 지챙 . 루찡 RuJinghttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08592579252247217346noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8845526.post-32402579236944992972008-09-02T23:42:00.004+08:002008-09-02T23:58:23.095+08:00think jeecheng is opening up to her salsa classes.<br />enjoying them more.<br />*smiles*<br /><br /><br /><br />silly silly silly<br /><br />but today was tough.<br />argh.<br /><br />giddy frm all the turns.<br />*groans*<br /><br /><br /><br />*still sick but recovering*<br />mab test... ... ...<br /><br /><br />*oh nos.<br />my sis was telling me tt i was discussing abt sch work w myself in my slp.<br />bad sign*<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/8845526-3240257923694499297?l=moibloggie.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>JeeCheng 지챙 . 루찡 RuJinghttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08592579252247217346noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8845526.post-23916892173613749042008-09-02T01:02:00.004+08:002008-09-02T01:13:11.470+08:00feeling better.<br />but still sick.<br />sighs.<br /><br /><br />i wanna recover quickly.....<br /><br /><br />tmr got mab test.<br />duno if i'll breeze thru anot.<br />seems ok but i like know nthing.<br />half here half thr leh~<br /><br /><br /><br />hellen said<br /><br /><span style="font-size:130%;">“你发烧把脑袋也给烧坏了？”<br /></span><br /><br /><br /><br />因为我说了很多废话<br /><br />也许真的是烧坏了脑袋<br />也作了不该做的梦<br /><br /><br /><br />ps. wynne, jiayou!<br />you shld know what i'm talking abt.<br />*smiles*<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/8845526-2391689217361374904?l=moibloggie.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>JeeCheng 지챙 . 루찡 RuJinghttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08592579252247217346noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8845526.post-15023893415025262192008-08-31T22:05:00.003+08:002008-08-31T22:08:54.802+08:00wall-e!!!!<br /><br /><br />heh.<br /><br /><br /><br />i'm sick.<br />sure dun damn like it.<br />argh.<br />hates it.<br /><br /><br /><br />i cant afford to be sick.<br />no time to be sick.<br /><br /><br /><br />argh.<br />and baing sick makes me even more<br />...<br />...<br /><br /><br />arh!!!<br /><br /><br /><br /><br />ps. shall upload the photos some other time.<br />was cam-whoring. lol.<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/8845526-1502389341502526219?l=moibloggie.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>JeeCheng 지챙 . 루찡 RuJinghttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08592579252247217346noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8845526.post-57551435057827249352008-08-27T01:02:00.004+08:002008-08-27T01:58:50.916+08:00jeecheng feels cheerier today.<br />hopefully things are indeed gg for a better turn.<br /><br /><br /><br />*thinking o the ppl ard me<br />and how lucky i am to have them*<br /><br /><br /><br /><br />i like studying w ben and kelvin.<br />peer tutoring i guess.. :)<br />no stress.no nthing. smt even fun. :)<br />and ohs. not forgetting sugi.<br />and hellen! :)<br /><br /><br />i have yupei.<br />for everything.<br />be it studying.sharing.crapping.motivating<br />for enjoyment.for joy.for sorrow.for worries.<br />for companion.for just being thr.for understanding<br />sticking w each other thru thick and thin. :)<br /><br /><br />i have wynne.<br />frm no contact till freq contact.<br />till we're almost stuck on each other.<br />supporting each other thru everything.<br />*grins*<br /><br /><br />ginny.<br />who sends infreq sms<br />to ask how i am<br />and for get togethers.<br /><br /><br />jianwen.<br />whom i know i can count on.<br />*esp since she's so free having hols and doin nthing but slack*<br />a companion who shares.and brightens.<br /><br /><br />peck wuan.<br />always a listening ear.<br />someone who shares.<br />bz as she might be.<br />she nv fails to take out time for frens.<br /><br /><br />huemin and minshan and amanda.<br />protective frens who show silent support.<br /><br /><br /><br />even jiaxin and seo.<br />asked me how i am when they saw me.<br />i can see the concern.<br />and silent support.<br /><br />louis<br />sharing some o his "good deals"<br />lol.<br /><br />hellen.<br />for studying.and understanding.<br />and sensitivity.<br />and even the infrequent<br />"你怎么还在想他呀？"<br />and tries to make me laugh and forget.<br />doing funny things.<br />telling jokes.<br />enjoyment and companionship.<br /><br />kareen.<br />her silent support.<br />her not mentioning. :)<br /><br />sugi.<br />w his world of thots.<br />and his dont think too much.<br />*ppl, pls check out his blog,<br />he wants readers!lol."<br /><br /><br /><br />and even ...<br />who tries to help and advise.<br /><br /><br /><br />did i miss out anyone?<br />really really lucky to have all these ppl.<br /><br />think i did.<br />my family!<br />oh, how i love and hate them.<br />:)<br /><br /><br /><br />my salsa classes.<br />i'm coming to really njy them.<br />*smiles*<br /><br /><br />ps. my instructor complemented "good" to me today :)<br />wells, perhaps it was a ez step anw.<br />he commented tt all o us picked up better today<br />but then again, it's a good thing right? :)<br />cheerios.<br /><br /><br />*think i've really hit pit bottom alr.<br />things are picking up. :)<br />they cant get any worse,can they?<br />they'll only get better right?<br />hopefully it wont go back down again*<br /><br />oh ohs, think the down part is the dumb assignment i took up. :(<br />argh.<br />dont think o it.<br />and the stressed part is the dumb dumb mkting project.<br />which i dont think i can dont think of.<br />double argh.<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/8845526-5755143505782724935?l=moibloggie.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>JeeCheng 지챙 . 루찡 RuJinghttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08592579252247217346noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8845526.post-87348181190918530152008-08-25T01:12:00.001+08:002008-08-25T01:14:22.645+08:00feels happy today.<br /><br />in good company w pei and wynne.<br /><br />shld have more of these :)<br /><br /><br />i love you girls!<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/8845526-8734818119091853015?l=moibloggie.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>JeeCheng 지챙 . 루찡 RuJinghttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08592579252247217346noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8845526.post-50847543627180825802008-08-24T01:54:00.003+08:002008-08-24T02:48:38.744+08:00this post is dedicated to ... (whoever you are)<br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br />*i am writing this in a sane state.<br /><br /><br />after the trauma i've gone thru<br /><br /><br />and the things i've thot through<br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br />in fact,<br /><br /><br />your tag has made me lost my slp.<br /><br /><br />i cldnt slp tt night after reading thru<br /><br /><br />fantastic isnt it?<br /><br /><br />i'm losing slp bcos of some unknown creature<br /><br /><br />sounds ridiculous.<br /><br /><br />ya, at least it wasnt him who gave me slpless night tt day<br /><br /><br />although he was still the reason partially.<br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br />it looks like i have a avid reader<br /><br /><br />unknown to myself<br /><br /><br />(well, actually i have no idea who reads my blog and who doesnt unless they tag. or msg me or call me or tell me tt they've read)<br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br />and so if you're actually a fren<br /><br /><br />who's concern abt me<br /><br /><br />pls talk to me instead<br /><br /><br />be a friend to me<br /><br /><br />and not some unknown person who tries to make logic of certain issues w/o understanding<br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br />i need frens to talk to<br /><br /><br />to keep me company<br /><br /><br />to support me thru this<br /><br /><br />to keep me sane.<br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br />and i'm super glad<br /><br /><br />tt i have such frens<br /><br /><br />frens who are willing to take out time just to acc me<br /><br /><br />make me happy<br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br />i'm really thkful to them<br /><br /><br />and i cldnt love them more<br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br />it's always when things goes bad tt you see who your frens truly are.<br /><br /><br />and i know i have them<br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br />but i cant keep sticking to them as well<br /><br /><br />i mean they'll have their own lives.<br /><br /><br />they'll have their own problems.<br /><br /><br />i cant possibly have them w me 24/7.<br /><br /><br />i have to tkc o myself<br /><br /><br />to keep myself in check<br /><br /><br />i'm grateful for them enough alr.<br /><br /><br />and i shld be moving on alr<br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br />this blog has become a place where i vent out.<br /><br /><br />to say wadeva's tt's has been bottling up in me<br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br />so pls...<br /><br /><br />pardon me*<br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br />i really appreciate you giving your advise<br /><br /><br />i know you meant well<br /><br /><br />but smt things are just easier said than done.<br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br />i mean it sounds stupid.<br /><br /><br />or perhaps can say it's just a matter of how you want to be.<br /><br /><br />that's logic.<br /><br /><br />that's sense.<br /><br /><br />that's w/o emotions as well.<br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br />how can you possibly take out sth so easily when you've put your heart and soul to it?<br /><br /><br />i've nv expect to have such a ending w him. i had thot we'd last.<br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br />so it came as a v big blow to me.<br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br />so big tt i have a hard time dealing w it.<br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br />you think i've not tried to live w it and carry on my life being happy?<br /><br /><br />i'd gladly love to. i dont want any more worries.<br /><br /><br />dont want anymore hurt.<br /><br /><br />dont want anymore sadness.<br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br />it's bcos the memories are too beautiful.<br /><br /><br />so beautiful tt i dont want to forget.<br /><br /><br />i want to keep them too.<br /><br /><br />to be able to hold and treasure them.<br /><br /><br />and keep it aside.<br /><br /><br />look back at it in the future and perhaps,<br /><br /><br />have a sweet smile to myself.<br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br />but bcos it's so beautiful.<br /><br /><br />it makes things even worse.<br /><br /><br />makes me miss them even more.<br /><br /><br />makes me more miserable.<br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br />tt's why i wish i'd forget.<br /><br /><br />wish tt i dont rmb.<br /><br /><br />and have no memories of it at all.<br /><br /><br />the good and the bad.<br /><br /><br />everything.<br /><br /><br />the good makes me sad<br /><br /><br />bcos i know it wont happen anymore.<br /><br /><br />the bad cos it's awful and you know for yourself if you chose to do things another way, things wld have turn out better. in other words, regret.<br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br />true to what's being said<br /><br /><br />"you wldnt know what you're missing if you hvt tried them"<br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br />and bcos i've experienced such things,<br /><br /><br />i miss them.<br /><br /><br />and missing them makes one miserable doesnt it?<br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br />in order not to miss them is not to have them in your memories<br /><br /><br />and not having these memories wld perhaps makes me a happier person?<br /><br /><br />cos i wont know it and wont miss it.<br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br />so thr's tt.<br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br />complicated world.<br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br />and thru this,<br /><br /><br />i see how protective my frens are of me again<br /><br /><br />how much they care<br /><br /><br />i'm really touched by them.<br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br />especially to wynne, pearly and yupei.<br /><br /><br />to those who've stood by me.<br /><br /><br />to those who've given their silent support.<br /><br /><br />for just being w me.<br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br />i love you my friends.<br /><br /><br />really grateful fot them.<br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br />on a lighter note:<br /><br /><br /><br />went for adelynn''s bday celebration. see cake below. super nice la~ aww....<br /><br /><br /><img id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5237786103319808642" style="DISPLAY: block; MARGIN: 0px auto 10px; CURSOR: hand; TEXT-ALIGN: center" alt="" src="http://2.bp.blogspot.com/_g1tUWiMYIGQ/SLBatcHayoI/AAAAAAAAAAM/DR7Y4W_DBHA/s320/DSC00369.JPG" border="0" /><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/8845526-5084754362718082580?l=moibloggie.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>JeeCheng 지챙 . 루찡 RuJinghttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08592579252247217346noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8845526.post-78899265050849919712008-08-22T23:07:00.003+08:002008-08-22T23:25:14.926+08:00i feel like just giving up<br /><br /><br /><br /><br />i feel dumb<br />i feel stupid<br />i feel like i'm always making the wrong choices<br /><br /><br /><br />i suck.<br />big time.<br /><br /><br /><br />i nv help much.<br />give more problems then help anws.<br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br />-stressed up-<br /><br /><br /><div></div><div>i'm just downright lousy.</div><div>clumsy and slow.</div><div>a big klutz.</div><div> </div><div> </div><div> </div><div> </div><div> </div><div></div><div></div><div></div><div>*how am i gg to dance well like tt?</div><div></div><div></div><div> </div><div>dance - dream and passion. </div><div></div><div></div><div></div><div></div><div> </div><div> </div><div> </div><div>i really really like dancing.</div><div></div><div> </div><div>but</div><div></div><div>unable to do it?*</div><div></div><div></div><div></div><div> </div><div> </div><div> </div><div> </div><div>sighs</div><div></div><div></div><div></div><div></div><div> </div><div> </div><div> </div><div> </div><div> </div><div>oh,damn. this is just fantastic.</div><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br />i just want to run away.<br />to slp away all these dumb things.<br />be it r/s.<br />be it school.<br />be it work.<br />be it anything.<br />nothing's right.<br /><br /><br /><br />i just want to scream<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/8845526-7889926505084991971?l=moibloggie.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>JeeCheng 지챙 . 루찡 RuJinghttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08592579252247217346noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8845526.post-34399722117897167432008-08-19T01:53:00.003+08:002008-08-19T02:13:30.380+08:00just when i thot i was alr in the deepest pit<br />and things cannot get any worse<br /><br /><br /><br /><br />things just did.<br /><br />why do all of these have to happen?<br /><br /><br /><br /><span style="font-size:130%;">老天<br /><br />请你不要再戏弄我了好吗</span>？<br /><br /><br /><br />jeecheng<br /><br /><span style="font-size:130%;">真的感到很傻</span><br /><br /><br /><br /><br />他不可能在想你了<br /><br />也不会再关心你了<br /><br />不会再安慰你了<br /><br />就算你突然间失踪了<br />他也不会知道<br />他也不会管<br /><br /><br /><br /><br />拍拖你不要再想他了好吗？<br /><br /><br /><br /><br />if you really feel tt you're better w/o me<br />i'd rather not being in your life at all<br />i will go away and stay away<br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><span style="font-size:78%;">and if getting to know more new girls is what you want<br />i have nthing to say too<br /></span><br /><br /><br /><br />i feel really dumb<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/8845526-3439972211789716743?l=moibloggie.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>JeeCheng 지챙 . 루찡 RuJinghttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08592579252247217346noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8845526.post-40283464458216112008-08-17T23:51:00.003+08:002008-08-18T00:00:46.701+08:00jeecheng!!<br /><br /><br />wake up!<br /><br />不可以再想他了<br /><br /><br />he shld not matter any more<br /><br /><br /><br />i want to go for selective memory deletion<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/8845526-4028346445821611?l=moibloggie.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>JeeCheng 지챙 . 루찡 RuJinghttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08592579252247217346noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8845526.post-12308396209191068052008-08-16T00:26:00.003+08:002008-08-17T01:29:28.057+08:00hellen told me i'm not like myself today<br />and asked me what happened<br /><br /><br />nothing happened<br /><br /><br />but just like tt<br /><br /><br /><br />i have no idea why too<br /><br /><br />sighs<br /><br /><br /><br />我到底何时才能把你忘掉？<br /><br /><br />*oh nos. i'm so nervous abt tmr*<br />*i have to have confidence*<br />*but i dont*<br /><br />*how?*<br /><br /><br /><br />*.sighs.*<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/8845526-1230839620919106805?l=moibloggie.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>JeeCheng 지챙 . 루찡 RuJinghttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08592579252247217346noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8845526.post-23934766594108947932008-08-13T00:17:00.003+08:002008-08-13T00:31:13.920+08:00argh.<br />super embarrassed.<br /><br /><br /><br /><br />omged.<br />i forgot wad is simple turn.<br /><br /><br />guessed i shld have learnt in beginner class?<br />now in intermediate alr.<br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br />the instructor said<br />"ladies just do the simple turn"<br /><br /><br />when my partner tried to turn me<br /><br /><br /><br />i didnt turn<br />and i asked him wad is simple turn<br /><br /><br />he looked so stunned.<br /><br />oh mans.<br /><br /><br /><br />and the instructor heard.<br />he looked even more stunned<br />he asked me to repeat my qn<br /><br /><br />double embarrasment.<br />oh oh mans<br /><br />laugh.<br />fine.<br /><br /><br />anws,<br />i laughed too<br /><br /><br />hahahas<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/8845526-2393476659410894793?l=moibloggie.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>JeeCheng 지챙 . 루찡 RuJinghttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08592579252247217346noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8845526.post-64100812287338842082008-08-11T00:07:00.013+08:002008-08-11T01:58:19.749+08:00stressed up life<br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br />i feel like screaming<br /><br />*god save me*<br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><span style="font-size:130%;">当初我学着怎么爱你<br /><br />现在<br /><br />我必须学着怎么不爱你<br /><br /><br /></span><br /><span style="font-size:130%;"><br /></span><span style="font-size:130%;"></span><span style="font-size:130%;"><br />那时 </span><br /><span style="font-size:130%;"><br />是你要我<br /><br />教会我<br /><br />怎么依赖你<br /><br /><br /><br /><br />让一个独立的女生<br /><br />变成一个幸福和<br /><br />有一个可以依靠一个男生的女生<br /><br /><br /><br /><br />现在<br /><br />我必须学会怎么依赖回我自己<br /><br />做回独立的我<br /><br />我好不习惯<br /><br /><br /><br /><br />好辛苦<br /></span><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><p><span style="font-size:130%;"></span></p><p>perhaps like what i've told yupei</p><p>i have had felt too much happiness </p><p>now perhaps it's time for me to feel otherwise</p><p>so a lil' hurt will seem v great to me</p><p></p><p></p><p>and this hurt</p><p>is so great </p><p><span style="font-size:100%;"></p></span><p></p><p></p><p></p><p></p><p></p><p></p><p></p><p></p><p></p><p></p><p><span style="font-size:130%;">好大好大的痛</span></p><p><span style="font-size:130%;"></span></p><p></p><p></p><p></p><p></p><p></p><p></p><p></p><p></p><p></p><p></p><p>and perhaps</p><p>this big blow to me</p><p>will make me treasure the smallest happiness even more</p><p>to be able to feel them even stronger</p><p></p><p></p><p>i guess it's payback time for all the 快乐 that i've felt</p><p></p><p>all these will make me even more emotional</p><p>i'm glad i'm a human being w emotions and feelings</p><p>yet i wished i can just be one unemotional person</p><p>so i wont feel so much pain.</p><p></p><p></p><p></p><p></p><p></p><p>but i know i cant.</p><p></p><p></p><p></p><p></p><p>just like huemin said.</p><p>she wants to be able to feel as much</p><p>but she's just not as emotional.</p><p>and i'm unable to be like her.</p><p>just like she's unable to be like me.</p><p><br /><span style="font-size:130%;"></span></p><span style="font-size:130%;"><p></p><p></p><p><br /></p><p><br />我好想把一切一切都忘掉 </span></p><p><span style="font-size:130%;">那我就不会感觉到这么痛<br /><br />但我舍得吗？<br /><br /></span></p><p><span style="font-size:130%;"></span></p><p><span style="font-size:130%;"></p></span><p></p><p></p><span style="font-size:100%;"></span><br /><span style="font-size:130%;"><p><br /><br />我不想和你在做朋友 </span></p><p><span style="font-size:130%;">想把你的一切一切都去除掉<br /><br />但我忍心吗？<br /></span><br /><br /></p><p></p><p><br />the fact is i have no idea<br /><br /><br /><br /></span><br /><br />so lost<br /></p><p><br /></p><p></p><p>"It is easy to like one's qualities </p><p>but it takes one to love the flaws"</p><p>(frm huemin's blog)</p><p>i hate the fact tt i even love his flaws. </p><p></p><p>请教我如何怎么不去爱</p><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/8845526-6410081228733884208?l=moibloggie.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>JeeCheng 지챙 . 루찡 RuJinghttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08592579252247217346noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8845526.post-29962857806390796442008-08-05T13:05:00.007+08:002008-08-05T13:14:07.441+08:00<span style="font-size:130%;">“世界上最远的距离</span><br /><br /><span style="font-size:130%;">是</span><br /><br /><span style="font-size:130%;">你在我面前而我</span> 。。。<br /><br /><br /><br /><span style="font-size:130%;">却无法对你说声</span><br /><br /><span style="font-size:130%;">我爱你”</span><br /><span style="font-size:130%;"></span><br /><span style="font-size:130%;"></span><br /><span style="font-size:130%;"></span><br /><span style="font-size:130%;"></span><br /><br /><span style="font-size:130%;"></span><br /><span style="font-size:130%;"></span><br /><span style="font-size:130%;">这句话</span><br /><span style="font-size:130%;"></span><br /><span style="font-size:130%;">我终于完完全全明白了</span><br /><span style="font-size:130%;"></span><br /><span style="font-size:130%;"></span><br /><span style="font-size:130%;"></span><br /><span style="font-size:130%;">而那</span><br /><span style="font-size:130%;"></span><br />是件难过的事<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/8845526-2996285780639079644?l=moibloggie.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>JeeCheng 지챙 . 루찡 RuJinghttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08592579252247217346noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8845526.post-12190784291503254782008-07-31T23:45:00.004+08:002008-08-03T14:42:50.584+08:00<span style="font-size:130%;">我拿刀恨恨地往自己的心割</span><br /><br /><span style="font-size:130%;"></span><br /><span style="font-size:130%;"></span><br /><span style="font-size:130%;"></span><br /><span style="font-size:130%;"></span><br /><span style="font-size:130%;">让自己痛</span><br /><span style="font-size:130%;"></span><br /><span style="font-size:130%;">继续的痛</span><br /><span style="font-size:130%;"></span><br /><span style="font-size:130%;">痛久了就会麻</span><br /><span style="font-size:130%;"></span><br /><span style="font-size:130%;"></span><br /><span style="font-size:130%;">麻了就不会感觉到痛</span><br /><span style="font-size:130%;"></span><br /><span style="font-size:130%;"></span><br /><span style="font-size:130%;"></span><br /><span style="font-size:130%;"></span><br /><span style="font-size:130%;">麻醉自己</span><br /><br /><br /><br />am i very silly?<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/8845526-1219078429150325478?l=moibloggie.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>JeeCheng 지챙 . 루찡 RuJinghttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08592579252247217346noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8845526.post-23163382485631857512008-07-30T02:43:00.002+08:002008-07-30T02:46:40.240+08:00if jeecheng can do it in the past.<br />jeecheng can do it now too.<br />(if you know whatever i'm talking abt)<br /><br /><br /><br />i must persevere!<br />gambatte girl!<br /><br /><br />i got to.<br /><br /><br /><br />if not<br />i'd just fade off.<br /><br />needing all the moral support too.<br />i hope.<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/8845526-2316338248563185751?l=moibloggie.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>JeeCheng 지챙 . 루찡 RuJinghttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08592579252247217346noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8845526.post-45654230877913211802008-07-27T01:45:00.003+08:002008-07-27T01:47:33.702+08:00things are gg well for me<br />i shld be content w wad i have<br />i shld be happy<br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br />then why do i still miss him so much?<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/8845526-4565423087791321180?l=moibloggie.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>JeeCheng 지챙 . 루찡 RuJinghttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08592579252247217346noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8845526.post-31527855378804658022008-07-26T00:19:00.002+08:002008-07-26T00:23:34.888+08:00moody.<br /><br />jeecheng fell down on the steps again.<br />think collapsed is more o the word.<br />argh.<br /><br />my classmate even walked over to helped me up.<br />so embarrassed la.<br /><br /><br />ankle hurts.<br />sighs.<br /><br /><br /><br /><br />*why do i still think o you so much?*<br />*wo zhen de bu xiang*<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/8845526-3152785537880465802?l=moibloggie.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>JeeCheng 지챙 . 루찡 RuJinghttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08592579252247217346noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8845526.post-54790000869772027912008-07-24T23:42:00.002+08:002008-07-24T23:47:17.892+08:00ok.<br />so weariness has set in.<br /><br /><br /><br />slpt like nobody's biz in the bus when i was travelling home from school.<br />argh.<br />so unglam.<br /><br />but then again,<br />i'm tired.<br />who cares.<br />hahas.<br /><br /><br />it's a good thing i managed to wake up and alight at the right stop.<br />lol.<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/8845526-5479000086977202791?l=moibloggie.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>JeeCheng 지챙 . 루찡 RuJinghttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08592579252247217346noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8845526.post-79193281985047653032008-07-24T01:57:00.003+08:002008-07-24T23:50:57.566+08:00feeling hyper today.<br />or rather wednesday.<br /><br /><br />i think i'm gg crazy.<br />have no idea wad is wrong with me.<br /><br /><br />the past few days have been tiring for me.<br />lethargic with entire body aching and feeling sore all over.<br /><br />but duno why today like abit too energetic.<br /><br /><br /><br />it's not tt i slpt early on tue night.<br />met up w jianwen to shop for her fren's prezzie<br />then study outside<br />w jianwen's company though she hvt even start sch yet..<br />(: thx girl! you rock! :)<br />then salsa class.<br />( argh. think i embarrassed myself la~)<br />then stayed up late (till ard 0300)<br />doin up research for my mkting proj.<br /><br /><br /><br />woke up in the morning at ard 0930<br />went for proj meeting at town<br />stayed in town to study<br />(cos didnt want to waste time and money travelling to and fro)<br />then went for work till 2330<br /><br /><br /><br />still not really feeling tired.<br />and it's like 0215 alr?<br /><br /><br /><br />omg-ed.<br />wad's happening to me?<br /><br /><br />*sidenote: wynne, do tkc..<br />get well soon!<br />and hope its nthing serious..<br />and pei arh,<br />hope you get past the tiredness soon :)*<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/8845526-7919328198504765303?l=moibloggie.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>JeeCheng 지챙 . 루찡 RuJinghttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08592579252247217346noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8845526.post-6286017780742638112008-07-23T00:22:00.002+08:002008-07-23T00:26:50.628+08:00.tired-ed.<br /><br /><br /><br /><br />jeecheng needs to catch up w her sch work!<br />heh.<br /><br /><br />muz encourage and motivate myself.<br />jiayou! jiayou!<br />gambatte!<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/8845526-628601778074263811?l=moibloggie.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>JeeCheng 지챙 . 루찡 RuJinghttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08592579252247217346noreply@blogger.com0